Would you agree there is more evidence for Jesus Christ existence and potential resurrection than for your pagan gods?
No, otherwise I'd be a Christian.
Also do you believe that those who wrote the bible and claimed what they claim 100% believed what they wrote?
Hard to say since they died long before I was born. I guess that also depends on what parts of the Bible were meant to be metaphorical and which parts were meant to be taken literally; there's no consensus on that even today. I'm sure some of them must have believed parts of it, though.
I find it kind of hard to understand why you believe in pagan gods based off of experience when you seem to doubt the storys told about them. You seem to have had some experiences that override your logical side of your belief system. I dont know how a person could believe in gods when they dont believe some of the aspects of it to be true.
Have you read any of the myths? Some of them are really messed up and they don't align with the personalities in my mind's eye.
I think of the myths as early fan-fiction. People just used the gods as characters in their stories because it makes it more interesting.
Likewise if I didn't believe in the miracles of jesus christ because science has proven it is impossible I couldn't be a christian. I don't know how you can believe in pagan gods without really believing it. Thats no faith at all. Just a more casual passive, I had a great time at some ritual and ya know what I don't care if its true or not cause I felt it. This isn't what christians do and I don't know how or why you would do that unless there is more to the story.
I do believe in the deities, but I can't say with any integrity that I can prove them, nor do I have any incentive to do so since there is no guaranteed reward or punishment. I do, however, acknowledge that I can be wrong about them.
As far as your lack of experiences with the christian God I think you going from atheist to pagan is at least potentially going to lead you to Christ but as the door is open you have to walk through it.
I've been to and sincerely participated in many different church services as an atheist and as a Witch, but never got anything out of it. (We have no punishment for participating in other religious practices)
You have to seek the true God.
That's what I've been doing for the last 20 years and I'm still a Witch.
Ask the true God to come in your life. Beg him to come in your life. If you do then he will answer. This will not be an overnight process but stranger things have happened and people have seen the truth.
I think this falls into the trap of, "In order to believe, you have to believe."
I didn't have to beg my deities, but I did hit a few walls before I found my current pantheon. It wasn't like flipping a switch for me. I thought about that initial experience (what I call my formal introduction) for a long time trying to make sense of it. Then I tried to learn as much as I could about it. Then it took a long time to work up the courage to try on my own. I don't know if I was more terrified that I wouldn't be able to replicate that experience or if I would.
My mind is just boggled right now about your story but I hope you can clear up the confusion and show some active responsibility to finding the truth about God than just sitting back and passively going through life believing in something cause of one experience.
That one experience triggered the curiosity to pursue the path. There are many, many experiences over the course of the last 20 years that shaped the course I walk today. You could even say it's an experiential faith.
But its about knowing your creator knowing the truth, having that relationship with the only God who can talk, see, hear, and move. None of these other Gods can do what Our God can. Hopefully my post was not offensive because it was not meant to be, I am simply reacting to what seems kind of strange.
You used the "r" word.
I still don't really understand what it means when Christians say they have a "relationship" with god. God lays out his expectations in a written book that applies equally to everyone until the end of the time. He has the exact same rules and expectations for everybody who ever will be. He holds heaven and hell over the heads of people as if they must decide their beliefs under duress. When you go to church, you mostly passively sit and listen to a sermon written by someone else, maybe recite the same prayers again, and maybe sing hymns that were picked out by other people and were written by other people who probably died before you were born.
Now imagine there's no heaven or hell and you're the pastor of your own church and you have to come up with every detail of your service on your own. Oh, and Jesus is the only person sitting in the pews. That's kind of what it's like for me.
I'm not at all offended. I appreciate your sincerity and curiosity.