Supposedly, if you seek, you will find. I have been poking at Christianity for many years and I have read a whole list of books from both sides. I have read the New Testament in full and all 4 Gospels multiple times. I have read Mere Christianity, Case For Christ, A Skeptics Guide To Faith amongst others. I have also read other critical books such as The God Delusion, The Rise of Christianity, and The Evolution of God. I have been open to Christianity and have no hostility towards spirituality. I have attended church semi-regularly. But, the more I learn, the more the following seems clear:
1) The Bible is not historically or literally accurate. There are parts that are likely based off true events and true people, but I would say the majority is either exaggeration, allegory, myth or poetry.
2) Jesus is not the literal "Son of God". I do not know what this means outside of some sort of metaphorical context.
3) Church sermons do not depend on the historical truth of the Bible. Many sermons that I have heard are simply literary analysis of a passage which is independent of the historicity of the passage. For example, just this past Sunday, the pastor at my church preached on Mark 5:21-43 in which Jesus heals a bleeding woman and restores a dead girl to life. He used this passage to talk about spiritual healing in our lives and even mentioned how the writer of Mark set up this story in such a way to contrast Jairus and the bleeding woman. The way he spoke made me realize that the historicity of the passage was irrelevant. You could provide the same literary analysis and spiritual application by reading any myth.
4) Christianity is a 2000-year old evolving misunderstanding; a group of conflicting opinions on God, Jesus, spirituality, and paganism. It was warped so thoroughly by the Roman empire, that it is difficult to try to reconstruct what the "original" Christianity looked like. We look at Jesus, Paul and the Bible through a 2000-year lens of history with all the associated theological and historical baggage.
Leftright,
I was raised in attending a Baptist church, but as a young adult I had serious doubts if any of the bible was true. That was many years ago before the internet was available. I was asking the same kind of questions you are asking about the bible & Jesus. I talked to Christians, read books, read bible tracts, listened to preachers on the radio, etc. but I could not find any evidence that would convince me that the bible is true, that God is real, or that Jesus was/is who the bible claims He is.
After several years of searching for answers I realized that something was missing, a missing link, and I did not know what is was. I thought I would never know the truth about the matter.
One night, out of a sense of desperation & helplessness I looked up at the ceiling of my bedroom and said a prayer to a God who I wasn't even sure existed. I said, “God will you show me the truth about Jesus & the Bible?”
The next day, while I sat at my dining room table with a bible opened to the Gospel of John, I started to read in the bible. That was the first time I had ever read in the bible except while in church. As I read in the Book of John I found that missing link I mentioned above. The missing link that allowed me to see the truth was the Holy Spirit.
I did not know about the following scripture at that time, but it describes the reason the Holy Spirit allowed me to see the truth.
This scripture, Jeremiah 29:13, “And ye shall seek me, and find me, when ye shall search for me with all your heart” says that if you earnestly search after God you will find Him. That scripture says that when we seek/search for God as though finding Him is more important to us than anything else in our life at that time we will find Him, and at that time my life was consumed with my struggle to find Him. That night, as I started to read in the Gospel of John, I was spiritually blind and could not see nor could I understand spiritual truth, but the moment I began reading John 1:1 the Holy Spirit began His work in me. I realized that something was telling me that those words I was reading were true. The more I read, the more I understood, and the more I became convinced that I was reading the truth. By the time I read through chapter 6 I knew, without any doubt, that I had found the answer to the most important question in my life.
You probably have heard the saying, “I saw the light.” Well, that is exactly the way I would describe the change that took place in my life that night. I was a blind man who was given sight. I was in the dark, but was given light so I could see. The Holy Spirit used the scripture I was reading to “turn on the light” for me, and I “got it.” I found the evidence that convinced me the Bible is true, that God is real, and that Jesus is who the bible says He is.
I have replied to others who have stated that they had read the bible several times, and/or that they had read the Gospel of John several times, and nothing happened; they still didn't believe any of it was the truth. My response to that claim has always been this, “If, when you read the bible, you really don't believe you are going to discover that it is true because deep down inside you really don't expect to find that it is true, well, you probably won't believe it is true.
So, leftright, my point is that you will never be convinced of the truth about the bible, about Jesus, or about God by asking Christians or others about these spiritual matters. Yes, Christians can give you good advice like some of these posters have done, but the only way you will find the answers to your questions, and that you will know you have found the truth is to search for that truth in the way described by Jeremiah 29:13, while believing that God will show you whatever it is that you need to know so that you will be convinced that you have found the truth.
Finally, I agree with aiki's posts & with ninken's post but I want to add another scripture to ninken's post which is Romans 10:14. Verse 14 tells us that we must “believe” in Jesus before we can call on Him.
John