The Coffee Shop (6)

[LovesEnduringPromise]

I'll get you some honey and lemon Katey

How are you Sabrina?

Im alright at the moment. Trying to stay positive in a negative world

 

[Arianna]

thinking positive is a great idea.

/me brews much coffee
..must work...must concentrate..

 

[BrokenForHim]

brrr I'm freezing, I could use some tea
I found this amazing stuff, its apple cranberry zinger(herbal tea) so yummy

 

[Arianna]

Good to see you Lindz - I'll make us some hot tea

 

[BrokenForHim]

I've missed you guys so much...still feeling bad that I haven't been on here for a while. I've been so busy with the doctor and all that, I'm so scared to get better...I want to keep lossing so badly, but I know that I can't because I don't want to be like this for the rest of my life...I wot get into a treatment place for up to # months, but my doctor said that at the rate I'm going I'll probably get in sooner because they willl keep bumping me up the list *sigh* which makes me feel bad because its not fair to the other people.

 

[shazabella]

Hi everyone,

my knee surgery is set for sometime in december ... and its now all seeming a little too real. I have a pre admissions appointment so the surgeon can organise when he's operating, which i got told will be in December.

can i have a hug or three ?

- Shaz

 

[Arianna]

We are just glad to see you Lindz
It is great you are getting help

/me makes morning coffee
..i am looking forward to today being over...

 

[Arianna]

Three hugs for Shaz

 

[BrokenForHim]

 

[BrokenForHim]

gahh my eyes are burning...they are bright red I guess that means I need sleep

tomorrow I have to go in for blood tests and an ECG...not looking forward to it...

opps the other post was supposed to say eight months for the waiting list

 

[katey]

for everyone. lindz hope u managed to get soem sleep, and the tests went ok. good luck with the appointment Shaz hope it goes ok, morning Ari how you doing?

my voice slighlty came bk yesterday just very very hoarse it managed to get me through what i neded it for though. i went to the locak walk in center because it got really sore and i got a temp plus my mate sort of dragged me, they said its laryingitus caused by the cold i had the other week. but as its spreading quite high up my throat i may get tonsilitus so i have to watch out for it. so we'll see.

a nice warm drink wil go down well i think its rather chilly here this morning.

Katey slips in from the cold brews up a nice pot of tea and sits by the fire.

 

[LovesEnduringPromise]

I've missed you guys so much...still feeling bad that I haven't been on here for a while. I've been so busy with the doctor and all that, I'm so scared to get better...I want to keep lossing so badly, but I know that I can't because I don't want to be like this for the rest of my life...I wot get into a treatment place for up to # months, but my doctor said that at the rate I'm going I'll probably get in sooner because they willl keep bumping me up the list *sigh* which makes me feel bad because its not fair to the other people.

Keep staying strong. Im with you on this. Im in recovery too. PM me anytime you like!!! Id like to help encourage you. I know how hard this is, I know the urges to lose weight, but you have to fight fight fight!!!! you can win this. Be positive and relax. Dont force and rush yourself. God bless you!

 

[MyaShane]

Hi all.

Thanks for the coffee Ari and how are you today?

Glad to see you Lindz and praying that you'll get into recovery soon!

Stay strong Bec! I really hope you're able to make it through that evening!

April I'm going to check that site out it sounds interesting! Is your semester going as fast as mine? I can't believe we're past midterm already! This should be my last tough semester (before entering the RN program that is) so I just need to keep on keeping on!

Mya is the "big girl" and loves school!! She's the one in the class that always raises her hand to answer every question because she wants her teacher to know how much she knows and wants her to like her. I'm just sure she won't be a perfectionist like me !! The "baby" is Shane and she's two and a half going on five like her big sissy. Every day is a great day to be living as far as she's concerned!

**Work is ssooooo slow right now and other than organizing my messy desk I have almost nothing to do. I should be catching up on more schoolwork. Must motivate myself.......**

 

[katey]

April, i use that site too. my mate showed it to me. its really good.

i'm slightly all over tha plce at the minute, apart from having a temperature or being freezing wich keeps happening right now. my heads all over the place so yeah not fab. xxx

 

[oneandlonely]

/me curls up in a ball by the fire to watch the fames dance and try not to think about today.

How is everyone today?

/me sips a raspberry tea in hopes of calming down

 

[katey]

hope ur ok oneandonly. did the tea help at all?

 

[BrokenForHim]

aww Bethers whats wrong??

I just got home from the hospital, they had to poke me a billion times before they could draw blood...it wasn't very fantastic feeling...the ECG wasn't bad at all, really cold haha but it was okay..now I just want to know if the results are good or bad, I wont find out until Friday when I go in for my weekly weigh in. In a way I want it to be bad, which is so stupid but I do and I don't know why..maybe its because if its okay then I'm scared they wont think I have a problem...even though they have made it clear that I do, it still creeps into my mind and thats all I think about... whats wrong with me

 

[Arianna]

I had a horrible day :-( :-( :-(
Pity it isn't over yet:-(

 

[oneandlonely]

It has taken me so long to admit that I'm not ok, that I can't do this on my own, that I needed help. It took me so long. It was huge for me to then reach out and get help.

I was with one of my friends today and she knows that I have an eating disorder (i can't believe that I can call it that now, that I've be "diagnosed") But she just... She doesn't get it.

I had a test today. So thought I would just go back to my room after chapel, eat a yogurt, and study for the test. She freaked out and thought I wasn't eating enough. So she forced me to get lunch. I got it to go. and I just couldn't eat. But while we were standing in line she flipped out on me. Told me that I have control over this, that I don't need to see a psych, I just need to start eating. I can't get her to understand that I can 't.

My counselor last appointment started talking about the few residential treatment centers around. I think she is throwing me hints. I told my friend this (before her flip out) because I'm am so scared. She laughed about it and said "what is that? Fat camp... only for skinny people?" I wanted to go sob.

It took me so long to get help. My friend told me today that its dumb and weak I can't just get over it and pick up some food. I wish it was that simple

I just want to lay in bed and cry. It hurt so much,

I brought my lunch back to my room and I just can't eat it. I'm to upset. But I forced myself to eat some yogurt.

This day... this week... needs to end

 

[BrokenForHim]

Ari, doll face..what made it so horrible? Beth know that I'm praying for you, we can beat this. I know your stronger then you think you are, you are going to defeat this, God already won the battle you've got victory over this..