Support thread for ED/SI/etc ... come on in! *poss. trig* (4)

[the_box_of_giggles]

I hate feeling huge. Next week I just have to watch what I eat little bit more. It's just I thought I'd be fine if i splurged on monday but it's screwed with me all week.

 

[Arianna]

hi,
how is everyone today?

Katey - i think being safe is the most important, so that is definitely the right decision. keep us updated on what's going on.

Sabrina - that's great that you talked it through with DH, and it sounds like you have really resolved to try to work on things - that's fantastic and really brave. Have you thought about what kind of help your going to get? having lots of support should be really useful.

How are you, Kerin? It is my course that is really overwhelming me... there has just been a crazy amount to do and no time to sleep. Things should start to calm down a little for a few weeks now though...

 

[beckybooiloveu]

katey... i agree with ari, being safe is the most important...

 

[the_box_of_giggles]

hi How are we today?

 

[beckybooiloveu]

i seem to be turing to alcohol alot lately to numb my thoughts and feeling... i think im slowly killing off my liver...

 

[LovesEnduringPromise]

*hugs* bec, stay strong. The alcohol only numbs out pain temporarily...its only a quick fix...one that doesnt last...you need to find strengths in other areas....and to deal with the pain instead of silencing it for a couple hours...b/c doing that youll only want the alcohol more b/c the pain is still frequent

 

[beckybooiloveu]

hmm... *sigh*

 

[chava]

Whoops.

 

[LovesEnduringPromise]

Calm down Chava! *hugs* Its okay, how tall are you?

 

[chava]

I just had my son in July and was one-seventy-one so I completley flipped but now I'm just gaining it back slowly.

 

[LovesEnduringPromise]

Are you small, medium, or large framed. If your small that means you can put your your index finger and thumb over your wrist and overlap them...medium is just touch the two fingers..and large you cant touch the two fingers

 

[chava]

Small

 

[LovesEnduringPromise]

Well for your height and weight your in a normal range....I know that can be hard to take for us with ED's but its best for your body...its best for you. Your thin and healthy, you should try and appreciate that to its full extent and dont let those loud ED voices over crowd your head.

 

[chava]

Easier said than done.

 

[LovesEnduringPromise]

I know Chava, I have struggled seven and a half years, this year fully over will be eight w/ anorexia/bulimia/EDNOS....its a looooong hard struggle. Its not easy to overcome any of this, its an addiction....but however its one you can take control of. YOU CAN REGAIN POWER IN YOUR LIFE FROM THIS! It says you have a little girl, dont you want to be happy and healthy for her? Dont you want her to see her mom in good spirits and not going through this nightmare? Its well worth trying to come past this...its not an overnight cure, but you can always find a right attitude to kick this thing in the bum. Im going into treatment because this has controlled me so long, now I need to STEP up and control this thing..and leave it in the dust. It will always haunt me Im sure, but I dont want it consuming me anymore. I ask the Lord to take this in his hands, its no longer mine, but his.

 

[beckybooiloveu]

*cries*

 

[LovesEnduringPromise]

*hugs* becky, hold on!!!

 

[chava]

I figure as long as it's not killing me I can can be strong for my son. But I just can't weigh more than what I think I should it kills me. If I could weigh # I would but that's unrealistic.

 

[the_box_of_giggles]

That kind of thinking gets you started down the path. Skipping meals or using laxatives will kill you. We all know how loud the ED voices can seem, and how good they sound to us in moments of weakness. Stay strong.

I hope everyone else here is going well

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Allie

 

[beckybooiloveu]

can laxitives kill you?