Support thread for ED/SI/etc ... come on in! *poss. trig* (4)

[Daysoni]

Yes I'm sure that there isn't an ED group here. I'm from a small town. We have groups for just about everythign else though. And I would be to nervous to start one of my own. I would be afraid that people would use it as a coaching into the lifestyle or disorder what ever you want to call it. This is a small town that isn't always so opened or excepting. I have been doing ok with my disorder. But there has been a man in my life for sometime now. And we have both put weight on and have decided to lose it. We are going to be going to the local gym together. But I'm scared. He doesn't know or get the impact that the ED has had on my life. Wether it be good or bad. And I am missing it so much right now. I do want to lose the weight but now that if it doesn't come off fast enough I will take matters in my own hands. I am having difficulties with it right now. I'm standing in the edge of to have it back or not.

 

[the_box_of_giggles]

Ugh I hate math. I have a test pray for me.

 

[GoGators]

I'm praying giggles.

My life is basically crap right now

 

[shazabella]

I'm praying giggles.

My life is basically crap right now

aww gators I'm sorry, whats up ?

- Shaz

 

[LovesEnduringPromise]

I miss my ED too. It's horrible, I agree, but... I don't know. It's familiar to me, I guess. And ana made me feel in control (and I have to admit that I was pro-ED for myself [but for no one else]... *hangs head*). I don't know... but yeah, I'm doing semi-okay now, although my weight is really bugging me as well, twenty-four seven also, Sabrina. I weigh WAY too much for what I'm "supposed to," and it is so frustrating because my body is so messed up from my ED that I can't lose weight. I just keep gaining, and it's so embarrassing... I'm getting stretch marks and it's disgusting because I'm retaining nearly a gallon of water, edema, and I feel so balloony.

Okay, rant over. How are you all? *plastic smile*

Same here. I knew someone else that was going through an eating disoder and I hated that for them. I tried to talk to them to getting help, which eventually they did, but I couldnt see that I needed help at the same time. I thought it was okay for me, but wrong for them.
I understand what your going through April, its a constant battle to fight everyday! Sometimes it gets so exhausting, so tiring and sometimes it feels like we should just give in. But we cant, we have to fight it. I know the struggles and the thoughts, its agonizing. It seems like it will never end. But there is hope, in Christ. If we just look hard enough for him we will find him, we will find recovery. We have to stop thinking of OUR weights, OUR food intake, OUR bodies, and focus on Christ.

 

[LovesEnduringPromise]

I'm praying giggles.

My life is basically crap right now

Dont starve yourself again. Its not a fix to your problems. Im here for you, PM me if you like. God bless you.

 

[Daysoni]

It sounds like some of us are in the same boat with our ED battle right now.. I wil be sending you all prayers and blessings to all of you.......

 

[Soulwings]

What's going on, GG? *snuggle*

And Sabrina, Shaz, and Daysoni

 

[the_box_of_giggles]

snuggle

 

[katey]

snuggles to everyone.

 

[Daysoni]

Hey all.....................

 

[beckybooiloveu]

hey daysoni... how r u?

 

[Arianna]

Hi,

How is everyone today?
xxx

 

[katey]

hey everyone.

i'm not good today apart from the fact my voice has completly gone now. which is rather annoying. my heads all over the place and lot of ed stuff going on right now and am struggling just a bit.

hey daysoni, bec and Ari how u all doiong and everyone else.

*big snuggles to everyone*

p.s n e one fancy lending me a voicebox for the weekend coz its urgently needed!

 

[LovesEnduringPromise]

Sorry Katey about your struggles *hugs and prayers* I understand them ###%, its so easy to want to get better, but its difficult following the routine to get better. Words are easier said than done.

 

[katey]

thankyou, hug and prayers back. it is pretty tough yeah, especially wen i dnt have n e energy to do ne thing right now

 

[Arianna]

Katey - I need my voice for Monday, but you are welcome to borrow it until then.

.... i really should be working ... I just did loads of cleaning to avoid it.. but now I think I need to panic about all the work I haven't done :-o

 

[katey]

thanks ari, i'm currently wondering around with a pen n a notepad. i need it for #morrow lol. i'm doing summit with my youth at church n am going # a production thingy in the evning with them so its gna b horrendous if its gone lol!
mind u will b quiet on the minibus lol!

thinking fo you while ur doing ur work ari. hope you mange to get soem done

 

[GoGators]

Thanks for the concern everyone.....my life has been crap because one: my issues with not eating, two: I feel like my parents expect me to be perfect...and because of that I'm way stressed.
Not to mention graduation next year and college applications and money for college

 

[LovesEnduringPromise]

Thanks for the concern everyone.....my life has been crap because one: my issues with not eating, two: I feel like my parents expect me to be perfect...and because of that I'm way stressed.
Not to mention graduation next year and college applications and money for college

Dont be so stressed. We all go through graduation and college applications. Yes, it is a stressful time, but its onyl as stressful as you make it. You can relax! You dont have to be perfect for anyone, in Gods eyes yoru perfect enough. He loves you as you are. You say you FEEL like your parents want you to be perfect, thats only YOUR feelings, its most likely not theirs. Take it one day at a time, dont rush into futuristic thinking. In the bible it says do not say 'for we will go here tommorow and there the next day.' You do not know if you will be here tommorow, take it easy. Enjoy life, live each day like it was your last. God has blessed you so much. Embrace that gift he has given you. Your beautiful!