Support thread for ED/SI/etc ... come on in! *poss. trig* (4)

[LovesEnduringPromise]

I don't know about the whole going to hell bit, Loves, but if I were you I wouldn't dwell on either that fear or the things that come with EDs. I mean, easier said than done, granted, but I think that you can have the disease and not be sinning in it as long as you aren't lusting after bodies of people you see or purposefully harming the body that God has given you. Does that make any sense?

And hi again, everyone. I don't know how often I will be on, but Jarrod is here, hoorah! and I have limited computer time because of that and also because I've wanted to get some reading done and ALSO because classes will be starting on Monday and I've been gearing up for them. There. *whoosh of breath*

So where are you all?!

It makes sense Soulwings. Its just I have this huge fear that I will be thrown in hell because of it. It could be another lie. I guess the diesease just feels you with so much guilt as to how your treating your body especially if you are a christian. I dont lust really after anybody elses body I just want to be super thin and be able to FEEL that thinness..instead of fat. I know I can look in the mirror at times and see how thin I am...but then again on the inside at the same time I feel like I weigh so much. I just feel big on the inside. My eating disorder isnt about acheiving a certain persons body type...its how I feel about myself and how I want to change myself to make myself feel better. It feels better when Im empty and thin. But I dont know...sometimes I do believe everytime we starve ourselves we are sinning..we KNOW it hurts God and the temple he has given us....but I just cant stop.

 

[beckybooiloveu]

huge hugs... im praying for u... alll of you...
sorry im not around much...

 

[Arianna]

Hi everyone,

Sorry I am not around much either
- but always thinking of you all

and April - really good to hear from you - I was wondering where you were for so long!!

 

[Arianna]

Tomorrow will be three hundred days (er.. i think.. if I can count properly) for me without cutting.
I still have blades I can't seem to get rid of though (and have done some other things that probably count as SI ) and i'm starting uni again soon and don't know how I will cope with stress without cutting.

..but anyway.. how is everyone else?

 

[Daysoni]

Tomorrow will be three hundred days (er.. i think.. if I can count properly) for me without cutting.
I still have blades I can't seem to get rid of though (and have done some other things that probably count as SI ) and i'm starting uni again soon and don't know how I will cope with stress without cutting.

..but anyway.. how is everyone else?

WOW that's great I know it's hard to go so long. That's a huge step. Awsome..

 

[Ditzypoo]

Please pray for me that I will continue to do well with my eating habits now that I am not under the supervision of my parents and am off on my own at college in the dorms. I have been doing so well for over the past year and though it is tough sometimes I really want to continue and not to get back to my old ways.

 

[beckybooiloveu]

praying for you..

 

[MyaShane]

That's fantastic Ari!! You should be so proud of yourself!!


Praying for you, too Ditzypoo. I think it's so important that you acknowledge that you're going into a risky situation to help prepare yourself. Post here as often as you like if it helps you!


**As for me..why oh why do I watch America's Next Top Model?? I really love it, but it's SO triggering...I just can't keep away though...**

 

[Ditzypoo]

I can't watch that either. I like it, but it hard.

 

[LovesEnduringPromise]

That's fantastic Ari!! You should be so proud of yourself!!


Praying for you, too Ditzypoo. I think it's so important that you acknowledge that you're going into a risky situation to help prepare yourself. Post here as often as you like if it helps you!


**As for me..why oh why do I watch America's Next Top Model?? I really love it, but it's SO triggering...I just can't keep away though...**

I know what you mean about ANTM....its so hard to not watch those kinda shows that are triggering....sometimes something inside of me wants to be triggered so I wont eat...I look at someone thin and automatically dont want food

 

[Shannie]

I love ANTM, but it is really triggering. Unfortunately I like the show so much I watch it anyways.

 

[LovesEnduringPromise]

:-(

 

[katey]

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

i cnt do it n e more its so hard. am relaly struggling right now.

sorry everyone

 

[Ditzypoo]

Honey, I am praying for you. You don't know me at all, but God is there for you. Please turn to Him in your time of need.

 

[beckybooiloveu]

i watched ANTM today... gave me the motivation not to have dinner...

 

[LovesEnduringPromise]

We cant do this, we cant let our EDS get the best of us. :-(. We all feel so horrible.......how do we find a way out?

 

[beckybooiloveu]

i really dont know.... but there is a way

 

[MyaShane]

i watched ANTM today... gave me the motivation not to have dinner...

- maybe I shouldn't have brought it up. You need the energy Bec! You can't run on no food and barely any sleep you're going to get sick, hon. Please be careful.


Praying for you Katey! You can do it! It is hard, but it can be done!

 

[katey]

thankyou

sorry gusy still not great so wnt post # much coz i'll either end up upsetting ppl, or just not help at all. xxx

 

[Ditzypoo]

Now that I am at college I am not going to watch ATM anymore. It always bring me down. I don't need it with all the other stressors that I already have with college.