I think you're just being paranoid, Ari.
But I understand your concern. No one in my family/friends knows who I am on here (except for my fiance, whom I met here!), and thankfully they aren't the nosy type. But anyway, sharing some is good.
Finding a job is lovely! and I
will respond to your PM soon, I promise!
I just have to think up enough interesting things to talk about. ;-)
Kerin, I'm sorry that things are a struggle for you too. EDs are horrible things, and what's worse is that when you think you've got control over your ED, it turns out that you really don't. That gets me every time. What choices have you limited yourself to? (Oh, and if you want good vegetarian recipes I can get quite a few, thanks to my nutritionist!) And btw, thanks for the heads-up on the MorningStar products, they are quite delicious and I love them - so much better than Boca burgers!! I also know what you mean about if you can't find anything you want to eat, then just not eating. That makes complete sense, to anyone really, I think. That's why I've really been working at getting some new recipes together, because I just
don't care about eating or drinking anymore, and that could put me in a VERY bad place (not even thinking about the ED aspect of things, just reactions with meds). But I hope that things get easier for you (and I'm sorry for rambling on about myself... :o). *snuggles*
The lunch went okay. I only had a yoghurt with some granola, but she was okay with that - she had a heads-up about my ED so that was good. We talked a lot about mental illness stuff actually; she said that she could get why I'd have an ED and SI issues, cos they are a lot about control and in lessons I was a lot about control in playing, but she really didn't get where the bipolar came into it. Apparently she hasn't seen the bipolar II before, with the less huge mood swings. And she said that her husband (who works on the campus that I go to) had noticed me losing weight, back when my ED was REALLY bad, and had been concerned. I thought that NO ONE had noticed, that it hadn't been noticeable. Now that I know that it had been noticed, it makes me feel even huger now. :-( Which is a
horrible feeling.
But the thing that she said that [bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse]ed me off the most was that Jarrod and I shouldn't get married until I am twenty-five!!! That would mean that he would be thirty-one, and I am sorry, but that's too late. I refuse to wait that long - that's another six years, and I can't do that to him and I can't do that to me. He wanted to be married to be six months ago. I want to be married to him next year. (Neither of which is probable, haha... obviously!
) So... that was an ARGH thing.
But I'm glad that I went. It was fun, and it looks like I'm going to be getting more violin/piano students come fall this year/spring next year.
And that is exciting.
How is everyone doing this evening?
I hope not.
