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I haven't heard of that either... mb I need to read an entertainment magazine or something!!!! I don't see many films either April!

(April, the animals in that last message really were causing me problems!)

I think mb i should go to sleep now, it's quite late...zzzz. ..zzzz..zz

 
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I read that book, Bec, but not watched the film.

I'm sorry about the animals, Ari. Maybe they wanted to be included in the discussion???


I'm feeling like crap again tonight, per usual. But my chest hurts like hell (I've got costochondritis - inflammation in my chest walls, where the ribs attach to the breastbone) and there really isn't any way to treat it, other than taking ibuprofen, which I'm not allowed to have because of lithium. :cry: And I'm feeling... uncomfortable talking with Jarrod, because I don't want to burden him with my problems when he's got problems of his own that he's dealing with. I don't want to totally block him off but it seems like everywhere I turn there's something else gone wrong. The contract at my uni is running up (my dad is a prof there) and if negotiations for a good contract aren't settled by first July, all faculty will go on strike. If they go on strike, it looks like they will lose all benefits. And we need those benefits. I still need SI, in a really bad way - I've found nothing to replace it, and I have no idea what to do about that. And I feel so freaking isolated here - I love being with my parents and I love the alone time, but I miss being around people my own age. It's been a week since I saw a friend - and then I only saw her for two hours. Before that, it was when I saw Jarrod that I last saw someone my age (close enough). And before that, it was fourteenth May that I last saw someone my age.

*screams*

And now that I've bored you all to death, you probably have nothing to say so it was pointless writing that all anyway. :mad: :cry:
 
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Hey guys...
Thanks for your prayers for my niece. They decided to go ahead and induce labor. Kyle and Missy were able to hold Alexis Jade before she passed away. If you would keep me and my family in your prayers I'd appreciate it.

Love y'all.


I'm so sorry to hear that GG - big prayers for you and your family!
 
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April, of course I don't know Jarrod, but if he's anything like my husband, he'd rather know what's going on instead of me keeping it to myself and him find out after the fact. That usually upsets him more.

I hope everything works out at the university! I thought you were involved in activites that keep you busy, no? Maybe you can take some of Bec's for her.:)
 
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hehe... im not as busy as i used to be now... only coaching rowing, soccer, one act play and work now... plus uni... but it doesnt seem to make me as busy ( i think because rowing is so early in the morning it doesnt disrupt the day... )

I just home from work (it is twelve thirty in the morning) im actually quite tired and my feet are killing me... but i got some good tips today.. which was good... yay...

anyway... *HUGE HUGS*
april, i hope your feeling better
 
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:hug: GG. I'll remember you in my prayers. I hope that your family is handling this okay. *snuggles*

:hug: Kerin. How are you doing? And I guess that he would rather know, but honestly, I don't feel like telling him. It's too much crap to offload onto him, I've done enough of that in the past, and right now he doesn't need the added stress of my worries and problems. We're going to be chatting later this week, and I don't know what I'm going to be doing as far as handling stuff and not talking about the things that are bothering me. I'll probably end up spilling and then feel horrid afterwards. :-(

I am involved with activities at my uni - during the schoolyear. Karate, ED support group, violin lessons (which I teach), a Greek organization, chem club, poetry group, and of course walks around town/hanging out with friends/gym time. But in the summer, everything is dead. I will be starting up karate again soon, I think, if my "sensai" (haha) gets in touch with me (or vise versa), and the poetry group is still happening (every two weeks), but other than that....... :-/

But how are you doing? *cheery smile* Haven't heard much from you as far as updates go... I miss hearing about you and your girls. :hug:

:hug: Bec. Sounds like you're pretty freaking busy, there, sis! Where do you work?? and how are things going other than all of that? *snuggles*
 
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Yes, there really MUST be. I just... can't think of anything. I've done all that people have tried, and you know the ice cube thing? Well, I learnt a "nasty" twist on that, which I won't mention here, but that's scared me away from using ice cubes, for fear that I'll do that trick thing.

:hug: I'm sorry that you're still having difficulty with it too. :-( Today is day three forty-two cut-free, and we're going to celebrate me being cut-free on nineteenth July (the day after I've taken my road test! :eek: )........ but I'm going to feel like a fraud since I've not been completely SI-free. Not yet. :sigh:
 
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April, the girls are lovely thank you for asking. Mya, my fiveyo has been asking to get her ears pierced (she's a girly girl!) so I took her Saturday thinking for sure she'd wimp out because she's a huge baby when it comes to pain. But she was determined to get them done and never even cried! I was so surprised and she really loves them (pink sparkly stones no less!). They are both enjoying their summer; they're so tan!!

Ari/April - I'm sorry you're struggling right now with the SI. It's so very hard to overcome a vice. I'll be praying for you both.

How are you Ari - we don't get to hear much about what's happening in your life. :)
 
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I am involved with activities at my uni - during the schoolyear. Karate, ED support group, violin lessons (which I teach), a Greek organization, chem club, poetry group, and of course walks around town/hanging out with friends/gym time. But in the summer, everything is dead. I will be starting up karate again soon, I think, if my "sensai" (haha) gets in touch with me (or vise versa), and the poetry group is still happening (every two weeks), but other than that....... :-/

:hug: Bec. Sounds like you're pretty freaking busy, there, sis! Where do you work?? and how are things going other than all of that? *snuggles*

well, its a bit less in the holidays which i am in now... I have a a rowing camp that im coaching on coming up, that goes for a week which should be good...
I work at a business mens club in the members dining room (men only, but there are female staff, the members just cant bring female guests into this dining room), I waitress there... its pretty flash and posh...

April, the girls are lovely thank you for asking. Mya, my #yo has been asking to get her ears pierced (she's a girly girl!) so I took her Saturday thinking for sure she'd wimp out because she's a huge baby when it comes to pain. But she was determined to get them done and never even cried! I was so surprised and she really loves them (pinky sparkly stones no less!). They are both enjoying their summer; they're so tan!!
wow... hehe, my mum didnt let me get my ears peirced until I was sixteen... and even then I had to put on a crying act about how much I really wanted them done... lol
 
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Wow Kerin, Mya must be wicked brave!! I got my ears done the first time for my seventeenth birthday, and then six months later got the second holes done. My parents (read: mum) were really reluctant to let me get the second holes done, don't know why - and now I've been asking about getting the third holes done (well, asked that awhile ago) and they practically said no. Haha. But I've got my cartilage piercings and two more to go if I feel like it, so I can be rebellious enough. ;) Just kidding...... it's not rebellion, it's just that I like the way I look with them. If that makes sense.

ANYWAY, that was a complete and total tangent. I'm glad that they are doing well! And I'm glad that they're enjoying the summer - I'm guessing they like to be outside and active a lot? What about you? are you managing your three classes okay, and still finding time to enjoy the summer? :hug:


Bec, that's pretty nifty about where you work. How long've you worked there? and do you enjoy it? And I'm glad that you're a bit less busy during hols.... if you were that busy year-round I'd be worried!! :) :hug:

How is everyone doing today?? *snuggles*
 
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Yeah, we’re probably going to get a lot of raised eyebrows from our families, but too bad. We figure if it’s something our kids want and it’s appropriate, important to them, and they’re just wanting to express themselves, we’re ok with that. We’re pretty open to that kind of stuff and for me it probably comes from having been raised in a big family where the same guidelines were set up for everyone even if it didn’t fit who we were. There were too many of us for my parents to have the time or energy to really understand us all that well, so the same rules applied to everyone even if they didn’t always make sense. So, I suppose I resented that a bit and want my girls to be themselves, even if that means earrings at five, or pink hair, or whatever (no tattoos though!). They’re really good kids and that’s what I’m most concerned with; still their grandparents will probably freak!!


Hey Bec! That sounds like a dream job!! ;)
 
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Hehe, you sound like a cool mum, Kerin. ;) I wonder what kind of mum I would be, were I to ever have kids (Heaven forbid!)... probably somewhat like that. :) I heard a quote once that said "When people don't express themselves, they die one piece at a time," and I totally take that to heart. I mean... I dress in black (or else 'interesting' shirts, like the one I have on today, light blue that says "I'll try to be nicer if you try to be smarter"), I have multiple piercings, and I used to have dyed black hair. (Natural color is blackish anyway, as seen in my pic.) But if my parents had absolutely forbidden me to do any of those things, I probably would still be SI'ing. It's another outlet for me, another way for me to let people know how I feel (although cutting wasn't originally intended as a 'cry for help,' it's kind of adopted itself into a "call me weird, I dare you" sort of thing, if that makes sense). ANYWAY... I'd better shut up before y'all start thinking weird thoughts about me... :sorry:

I had my nutritionist appointment today.... while I was sitting in the waiting room, these other girls were comparing notes on hospitalisations (Girl No_One:"I've been hospitalised twice" [said with pride] "have you ever been hospitalised?" Girl No.Two: "No, but I came awfully close once." Girl No_One:"They thought I was going to die. In fact, they were surprised that I didn't. Now I'm back to being huge again" [she was really quite tiny] "and I've got tons of extra skin, see?" [she stands up and pinches an inch off her belly]). It was driving me CRAZY. Talk about freaking triggering....... if those two are huge, when they are really NOT.... what am I!? :cry:
 
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dentist went fine... i was in and out within five minutes...
but im feeling really depressed and fat... a family friend gave my mum heaps of clothes for me... and my mum made me model them for her and she just had this look of disgust on her face about how fat i am and about how much weight i have put on... i felt like saying, "just say mum, tell me im obese, tell me i have put on alot od weight, i can see it all over your face" but i didnt... :(
 
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Aww Bec *snuggles* I'm sure that she wasn't thinking that - we see things how we want to see them sometimes, and we've got to be careful about that. Well, "want" as in what goes along with what we believe about ourselves. :hug: Not necessarily what we truly want. :p

Hell, I am tired. But I can't sleeeeep..... I'm going to my old violin/viola teacher's house for lunch tomorrow, whom I haven't seen in year and a half, and I'm scared. I have NO idea what we'll be eating, and she's not seen the scars at all (over a hundred total on both arms), and I've put on a LOT of weight since December two-thousand-five, which is when she saw me last. UGH. :cry:
 
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Awww Bec. *holds you* I don't know what to say to that as I can't seeee you right now ;) but I'm sure it isn't as bad as all that anyway. I mean.... it's NEVER as bad as we think it is in our heads. So... well, dunno if that's any consolation, really. :hug:

Allison (viola/violin teacher) knows that I was in treatment for an ED last summer, but other than that, nothing. She doesn't know that I'm on seven meds, that I've cut, that I've lost and regained heaps of weight, that I'm a vegetarian, that I have dietary restrictions due to meds, etc., etc. And now (on top of all that) I've got to decide what to wear (haha :p). What a huuuge decision :swoon: [/teenage drama]. :angel:

Arrrghhhh. This is going to be a crazy day!! Lack of sleep plus nerves..... not a good thing. Oh, and haha, from two am until six fifteen am I was lying in bed obsessing over things. Fantasizing about cutting, about OD'ing, worrying about next semester, and Jarrod moving here, and our wedding night, and the wedding itself, and getting the dress I want, and having it fitted.......... it just wouldn't stop!! It's so frustrating to know that if I had only taken those four pills, I would've slept so much better!! (Err, I mean, slept.)
 
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