Support thread for ED/SI/etc ... come on in! *poss. trig* (2)

[xMMKayx3]

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[Soulwings]

Kay. It seems like all of us are stuck in a spiritual war thing ... even if we don't all notice it. I know I am. Satan is out to ruin us - and God can squash him. Just remember that. I'm here if you need to talk, okay?

And when was the last time you ate, sweetie?

 

[beckybooiloveu]

*HUGE HUGS* god can squash satan, but so can you with god's help! stay strong!

 

[Soulwings]

I've actually just written a post on that in my blog ... you inspired me, Kay. This is something that my fiance and I have been talking about a lot over the past few months. So anyway, if you care to check out our thoughts on the matter ... click away! And feel free to comment if you like. Hehe, no this isn't self-promotion. If you disagree with anything I said, come right out and criticise. I welcome honest criticism with open arms.

How are you all doing tonight?

 

[kathleenmary]

i cut again. im so sick of myself

 

[Soulwings]

Aww Kath. Instead of being sick of yourself, take a step back and look at the situation. What makes you feel like you've got to cut? (And like I told you before... nothing bad is going to happen if you don't cut.)

 

[beckybooiloveu]

*HUGE HUGS* look after the cut/s...
hmmm... well, this MORNING (hehe) im ok... tired but ok... lol... mum and i are going to look at new cars for her and dad today... it will probably be boring... lol... but it gets me out of the house!!!
HOw r u april?

 

[bumblebee62331]

Hey Bec!

 

[Soulwings]

Haha, morning, that's funny!!

I'm doing okay. Good tonight, much better than the last few nights. I think writing stuff out in my blog made some things really stand out in my mind.

 

[Soulwings]

Kate! *tackles*

How're you?

 

[beckybooiloveu]

thats good
Hey KAte!!!
hehe... im going car hunting today for my parents... fun fun... well actually it will probably be a bit boring... lol... but oh well...
ooo and mum and i put up family photos last night... we have a whole big wall crammed with photos of the family from about 8 years ago... lol... unfortunately it was abit triggering...

 

[Soulwings]

Aww, triggering isn't good. Are you doing better now with that?

I need to get off here and go do some yoga, before it gets too late!! So I will be back in a bit. Time to seek relaxation, focus, and peace of mind.

/me hugs everyone.

 

[bumblebee62331]

Hi April! I'm doing okay. I'm actually going into work today at 4pm to do some paperwork, then I officially start training on Saturday (I have an 8 hour shift, yay, money!) and then I work by myself on normal shifts starting Monday. I'm really looking forward to working for a number of reasons, but it also keeps me busy. It means I won't be on CF as much though. But RL comes first when it comes to work.

Bec you might get their old car!
Don't look at old photos as triggering Bec. They aren't you. We change every day. I look at old photos when I was thinner and I always find something that I have IMPROVED in, like I got my braces off, or I don't have pimples anymore, or my hair is nicer now. Try it that way. Trust me, it works. We are programmed by our ED's to look at the bad things. Well, defy that and look at a good thing. Pick one to start with. And don't say there aren't any good changes because there ARE. Just like with everyone. It's life, as we grow we change for the better.

On a side note, I started a blog again and I told my boyfriend about it and he bought me a domain name! I have a .com! I'm making it into a blog that is going to be for everyone but also my family and friends and all my relatives overseas. I'm going to have a public bit, then sections where family and friends can log in to see photos etc. It's going to be fun! I'm testing it out and trying to find a nice layout but once it's done I'll have to tell everyone.

I have a .com! haha

 

[beckybooiloveu]

ummm... well put it this way... i have to walk down that corridor to get to my room...

 

[beckybooiloveu]

no i wont get their old car... they are selling both of their cars... they are salary sacrificing to buy mums new car... and they are using the money from the sold cars to get dad a new ute... i have to buy my own car... my parents also dont think i need a car for like 2 years...
as for the triggering... i try to see good changes... but cant... as u say there probably are some... but i cant see them... ill keep trying especially since i will be seeing the photos so often... grr

 

[kathleenmary]

Aww Kath. Instead of being sick of yourself, take a step back and look at the situation. What makes you feel like you've got to cut? (And like I told you before... nothing bad is going to happen if you don't cut.)

i know. but i always forget to think about that b4 i cut. the other day this kid called me up on my fone cause of all thats happening with my old best friend. he was so mean and i want to beat him up but im nervous about doing it. ive never beat anyone up. but i really want to tomrrow. even tho it sounds really bad.

 

[Soulwings]

Kate. That sounds pretty awesome as far as... well, everything!! And yey, a .com! That's pretty cool. You'll sound official!!

Bec. There are good changes, gorgeous. There are always good changes. And you're beautiful now anyway. No matter what weight you are, no matter what the (damn) BMI says. You're beautiful. And I know it's hard to believe that, I know you think it's impossible for that to be true ... but just let that thought inside your head, okay? That other people think you're not fat or ugly or any of the things that you tell yourself. You're beautiful.

Kath. Just forget what he said. And what your best friend has said and done. What did he say, anyway? I know that it's so much easier said than done, but forgetting about it/not letting it bother you definitely the best way to go, rather than beating someone up. As my fiance says... be ducky. Let the bad stuff that people say and do just slip right off you like water off a duck's back. It's not worth getting angry about. It's all stupid stuff, you know it's stupid stuff, so why waste time on it? *hugs* Hang in there and remember that we're all here for you, okay?

 

[kathleenmary]

well he was like laura hates you now and she cant believe that u spread around something that wasnt true. he was like ur so obsessed with her. and he said other things too, just cant really remember.its so hard to forget everything. =[

 

[Soulwings]

Awww. I know that it's hard to forget things, especially hurtful things, but just try. It doesn't have to be perfect, it won't be perfect, but if you focus on something else other than that, the pain from his words will be less. Do something you enjoy to get your mind off it. When you find yourself thinking about it, imagine your mind being a room and those thoughts being intruders. Slam the door to that room and don't let those thoughts get inside. That helps me some. I imagine shoving whatever bad thoughts I've got in my mind's room out the door. And then locking it, and laughing happily because I've been stronger than those thoughts. God's with you on this. Without Him I wouldn't be able to do that.

 

[kathleenmary]

Awww. I know that it's hard to forget things, especially hurtful things, but just try. It doesn't have to be perfect, it won't be perfect, but if you focus on something else other than that, the pain from his words will be less. Do something you enjoy to get your mind off it. When you find yourself thinking about it, imagine your mind being a room and those thoughts being intruders. Slam the door to that room and don't let those thoughts get inside. That helps me some. I imagine shoving whatever bad thoughts I've got in my mind's room out the door. And then locking it, and laughing happily because I've been stronger than those thoughts. God's with you on this. Without Him I wouldn't be able to do that.

ill try doing that.

thats such a good idea! ill try that. thanks.