I am saved by grace. Through faith. Don't know about the alone part. The gospel is necessary, I would say.
I do believe the responding or receiving in faith is the part I do, God doesn't do that for me. that's why its a relationship. its not one sided. He loves me, so I can love him back. He did this through Jesus. I don't believe I could have gone on any longer on the path i was on without him in my life, because only he has the truth. I called on him, he answered. His plan was for a holy people from the foundation of the world, I responded to that plan. He wants to transform my character and adopt me into his heavenly kingdom. I have a long way to go, but I know whom I believe. And that same destiny is available to whoever hears and believes the gospel. Anyone. Jesus saved me from my sins. I don't have to thank him for making me a believer, I thank him for giving me hope of eternal life when I first believed.
Your testimony sounds like you believe God picked you specifically for no reason, predetermined your salvation. mean I don't disagree that God can do whatever He likes but I'm sure he had reason rather than just to make up the numbers for his kingdom. Who knows, it could be random. I just don't understand how you could be unwilling, as well. IN my experience, God never forced me to believe. Surely he was showing his mercy on you, but then how did you actually come to know the truth? What is the nature of your relationship? If you were individually elected before the world began, at what point did you know this? MY view is this doesn't bring glory to God, it just makes out you won a divine lottery. Lucky you. You dont have to do a thing. You thank God you are a believer or that you have a belief system? Salvation is random? Equally, is condemnation is random? Then what is the point of judgement day? Good and evil don't matter?
Of course no sane person would believe this, but you credit this God with grace to make you believe, according to you, he controls even your belief.