Struggling~~

[Theresasjourney]

I am going through one of those periods where I am really struggling with feeling down and just absolutely hating my life!
And when I get this way I don't believe for one moment that anyone really cares!
I really do hate my life! For many reasons. Most of the time I can keep the neg thoughts at bay and roll with my life anyway.
I just get so caught up in the fact that nothing will change till God calls me home and I can't wait for that day to be free!
I feel so alone and empty~~feel disconnected from God. **tears**
At times I am angry with Him for making me stay in this life~~what I call my living hell.
So much of it has to do with my dixs and the choices I have made in life out of my dixs. Life is just so very hard for me and its one of those times where I am feeling very overwhelmed by it and very down!!
So I said all of this to ask you to pray for me~~k

 

[lilymarie]

I care, I really do! But, I know that is not the same as someone to come and give you a hug and listen to you in person.

Just know that I will be praying for you k!

 

[Bamboo_Chicken]

I'm praying Beautiful . I don't know your story and so i won't say any more, but yes, I am praying.

 

[newbeliever02072005]

I was browsing around the forums and ended up here for some reason.

I just read your post and I just want you to know that you are not alone. God is with you! You have people here at CF that is a PM away. If you need to talk, please don't hesitate to send one to me. I'm willing to listen and lend a shoulder.

My prayers are with you!!!

God bless,
Newbeliever

 

[lilymarie]

Theresa, here are some words of encouragement for you. I hope you will be feeling better today!

Isaiah 61

1 The Spirit of the Sovereign LORD is on me,
because the LORD has anointed me
to preach good news to the poor.
He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted,
to proclaim freedom for the captives
and release from darkness for the prisoners, 2 to proclaim the year of the LORD's favor
and the day of vengeance of our God,
to comfort all who mourn,
3 and provide for those who grieve in Zion—
to bestow on them a crown of beauty
instead of ashes,
the oil of gladness
instead of mourning,
and a garment of praise
instead of a spirit of despair.
They will be called oaks of righteousness,
a planting of the LORD
for the display of his splendor.



The Lord will give you a crown of beauty in place of your ashes. (((hugs)))

And remember "faith is taking the first step even when you don't see the whole staircase yet."

 

[Theresasjourney]

Theresa, here are some words of encouragement for you. I hope you will be feeling better today!

Isaiah 61

1 The Spirit of the Sovereign LORD is on me,
because the LORD has anointed me
to preach good news to the poor.
He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted,
to proclaim freedom for the captives
and release from darkness for the prisoners, 2 to proclaim the year of the LORD's favor
and the day of vengeance of our God,
to comfort all who mourn,
3 and provide for those who grieve in Zion—
to bestow on them a crown of beauty
instead of ashes,
the oil of gladness
instead of mourning,
and a garment of praise
instead of a spirit of despair.
They will be called oaks of righteousness,
a planting of the LORD
for the display of his splendor.



The Lord will give you a crown of beauty in place of your ashes. (((hugs)))

And remember "faith is taking the first step even when you don't see the whole staircase yet."

Thank you so much my sisters!
I am feeling a bit better~~;o))
The Lord put someting on my heart and I am meditating on it.
Lily~~
You have no idea but God gave me Isaiah 61 a very long time ago while I was on my healing journey. He must of thought I needed reminding~~lol. Thank you for being obediant and posting it~~;o))
hugs to all~~keep praying~~k

 

[lilymarie]

Thank you so much my sisters!
I am feeling a bit better~~;o))
The Lord put someting on my heart and I am meditating on it.
Lily~~
You have no idea but God gave me Isaiah 61 a very long time ago while I was on my healing journey. He must of thought I needed reminding~~lol. Thank you for being obediant and posting it~~;o))
hugs to all~~keep praying~~k

Hi Theresa,

Yesterday was the first time I read Isaiah 61. (I'm not all the way through reading the Bible yet -- about halfway).

The Lord showed me that yesterday and my Spirit inside me said "this is for Theresa".

But, you know what Theresa, God wanted me to have it yesterday, too. So you gave me a great gift by leading me to that verse.

That's the amazing grace of God working for both of us!

Still praying for you!

 

[Theresasjourney]

Hi Theresa,

Yesterday was the first time I read Isaiah 61. (I'm not all the way through reading the Bible yet -- about halfway).

The Lord showed me that yesterday and my Spirit inside me said "this is for Theresa".

But, you know what Theresa, God wanted me to have it yesterday, too. So you gave me a great gift by leading me to that verse.

That's the amazing grace of God working for both of us!

Still praying for you!

That chapter has alot of powerful things to meditate and pray on~~wow!
Its awesome he spoke to you also~~;o))
God is good!
hugs!

 

[lilymarie]

Yes, God is amazing grace and he loves us so much!

I hope you are feeling better today.

A gift for your reBirth Day.

 

[Theresasjourney]

Yes, God is amazing grace and he loves us so much!

I hope you are feeling better today.

A gift for your reBirth Day.

Yes I am feeling better ~TY for asking~~;o)
And thanks for the adorable picture~~;o))
hugs!

 

[Alcamo]

Hi Theresa,

It's wonderful to see people encouraging you and I hope what I have to say is an encouragement as well. I relate to much of what you're saying, as I'm sure we all do. Of course, I'm completely unfamiliar with what you have dealt with in your life, but a couple things came to mind when I read your post that I hope are helpful to you.
You said you sometimes hate your life and feel angry at God for forcing you to continue living it. I have often felt this way myself, but is it really "life" you hate, or do you hate the experiences you've had that have caused you pain? Is it "life", or is it the long term damage left in the wake of those who've devalued and mistreated you (and perhaps still do)? It is so critical to make a distinction, because as long as "life" is the issue, we face a problem too vague to direct our intentional recovery process toward. Does this make sense? If I hate "life", what do I confront and change? If I recognize, however, that one of the things I really hate is specifically the way a certain person bulldozes my boundaries, I suddenly have something specific I have power to confront and change. By overgeneralizing, we give up our power to change.

You've expressed anger at God, which I also relate to and is a normal part of the recovery process, but what about anger toward the abusers? I've learned that we really need that anger to bring about healthy changes. Sound strange? When we experience abuse, we feel very deep pain and we "learn" that we are powerless to stand up against it. Unresolved pain becomes unresolved anger and can come out in unhealthy ways, but the anger at how we've been treated can come out in very healthy ways, too, providing the emotional energy we need to begin setting appropriate boundaries and refusing to be mistreated. In this way we suddenly see that we are not powerless. We are filled with a sense of healthy power: power to change those things that for years have beaten us down and power to experience life the way God intended. So much of the negative emotions we deal with come not only from the past but also from failing to set boundaries with people or with ourselves in the present, which is something we all struggle with!

God bless you in your journey.

 

[Alcamo]

Hi Theresa,

It's wonderful to see people encouraging you and I hope what I have to say is an encouragement as well. I relate to much of what you're saying, as I'm sure we all do. Of course, I'm completely unfamiliar with what you have dealt with in your life, but a couple things came to mind when I read your post that I hope are helpful to you.
You said you sometimes hate your life and feel angry at God for forcing you to continue living it. I have often felt this way myself, but is it really "life" you hate, or do you hate the experiences you've had that have caused you pain? Is it "life", or is it the long term damage left in the wake of those who've devalued and mistreated you (and perhaps still do)? It is so critical to make a distinction, because as long as "life" is the issue, we face a problem too vague to direct our intentional recovery process toward. Does this make sense? If I hate "life", what do I confront and change? If I recognize, however, that one of the things I really hate is specifically the way a certain person bulldozes my boundaries, I suddenly have something specific I have power to confront and change. By overgeneralizing, we give up our power to change.

You've expressed anger at God, which I also relate to and is a normal part of the recovery process, but what about anger toward the abusers? I've learned that we really need that anger to bring about healthy changes. Sound strange? When we experience abuse, we feel very deep pain and we "learn" that we are powerless to stand up against it. Unresolved pain becomes unresolved anger and can come out in unhealthy ways, but the anger at how we've been treated can come out in very healthy ways, too, providing the emotional energy we need to begin setting appropriate boundaries and refusing to be mistreated. In this way we suddenly see that we are not powerless. We are filled with a sense of healthy power: power to change those things that for years have beaten us down and power to experience life the way God intended. So much of the negative emotions we deal with come not only from the past but also from failing to set boundaries with people or with ourselves in the present, which is something we all struggle with!

God bless you in your journey.[/quote]

 

[Alcamo]

Sorry for that posting twice! I made a mistake while trying to do something else. I'm new to this.

 

[Theresasjourney]

TY Alcamo~~
I am feeling some better. Its life circumstance I hate~things I cannot change. Things I am stuck with no matter what~~
I am not angry at God persay~~I just wish He would hurry up and take me home~~don't we all wish that?
I made some very life changing decisions out of my unhealthiness yrs ago~~things I can't change even though I am now healthier. In my healthiness I would not of made those choices.
So now I live the rest of my life stuck in a place I hate b/c of those unhealthy choices. But I know if I keep my eyes on my foundation He will see me through.