Regret_Living
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The amount of condescending answers in this thread is astounding. Like this one:
I wish this site has a dislike button, but then what do you expect from a religous website. I like how this just implies that all of your happiness and achievement has to be attributed to god, yet every bit of sorrow or any misfortune you cannot blame to him as well, because obviously he only gave good things. That's like a child who make the most ridiculous rule to make themselves win.
I'll tell you this though, Hisprincess710, you took the words out of my mouth and i've never seen my own jumbled thoughts put to words so beautifully.
In the end, therein lies the tragedy of human life in christianity. Their purpose is to glorify a being who created them, put them into this world for a lifetime game of survival and depending on your choices either gets to spend the rest of existence worshipping him or be thrown to the depths of hell. Being a christian is understanding you are nothing, you're expendable and a plaything for a divine being. Is it really a question why so many media these days often potrays the idea of defeating 'god', and that the 'god' observed somehow always held close resemblance to the one i recognize?
Like you, i do not think i will ever be able to truly escape my belief. I have been indoctrinated since young and ideology is not very simple to shake off when all of your community and life always revolved around it. My fate, like many human and not just religious ones, is just to surrender. Not in that beautiful poetry like depiction of surrendering life to god in so many songs i couldn't bring myself to ever sing these days because of how phony i felt, but actual, frustrated and dejected surrender to the definite winner.
We are all weak creations of an egomania, and just for writing this, for expelling all of my frustrations, i may receive my punishment for disobedience. It might not be death like i so crave, it'll be something else to make my life worse i'm sure. Something to make me grovel like a child punished, to supposedly make me regret. Ain't it just grand?
I remember once being told that my religion's god is actually abusive. 'You cannot do well outside of me', 'you will never find happiness outside of me', 'only i can give you all you want', 'submit', all classic abuser lines. I was young and a wide-eyed naive who has been taught since you to never question anything that comes from my god. I am now older, more jaded, has a lot of question and finally understands what was told. Yet still, i cannot find it in me to escape.
I wish this site has a dislike button, but then what do you expect from a religous website. I like how this just implies that all of your happiness and achievement has to be attributed to god, yet every bit of sorrow or any misfortune you cannot blame to him as well, because obviously he only gave good things. That's like a child who make the most ridiculous rule to make themselves win.
I'll tell you this though, Hisprincess710, you took the words out of my mouth and i've never seen my own jumbled thoughts put to words so beautifully.
In the end, therein lies the tragedy of human life in christianity. Their purpose is to glorify a being who created them, put them into this world for a lifetime game of survival and depending on your choices either gets to spend the rest of existence worshipping him or be thrown to the depths of hell. Being a christian is understanding you are nothing, you're expendable and a plaything for a divine being. Is it really a question why so many media these days often potrays the idea of defeating 'god', and that the 'god' observed somehow always held close resemblance to the one i recognize?
Like you, i do not think i will ever be able to truly escape my belief. I have been indoctrinated since young and ideology is not very simple to shake off when all of your community and life always revolved around it. My fate, like many human and not just religious ones, is just to surrender. Not in that beautiful poetry like depiction of surrendering life to god in so many songs i couldn't bring myself to ever sing these days because of how phony i felt, but actual, frustrated and dejected surrender to the definite winner.
We are all weak creations of an egomania, and just for writing this, for expelling all of my frustrations, i may receive my punishment for disobedience. It might not be death like i so crave, it'll be something else to make my life worse i'm sure. Something to make me grovel like a child punished, to supposedly make me regret. Ain't it just grand?
I remember once being told that my religion's god is actually abusive. 'You cannot do well outside of me', 'you will never find happiness outside of me', 'only i can give you all you want', 'submit', all classic abuser lines. I was young and a wide-eyed naive who has been taught since you to never question anything that comes from my god. I am now older, more jaded, has a lot of question and finally understands what was told. Yet still, i cannot find it in me to escape.
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