starting partial tomorrow

[byebyebaby]

Oh goodness. This has all come on so fast. Yesterday I found out my insurance will cover IOP. Today I found out that the program I'm supposed to go to has merged with the IP/day program. So rather than going 3 nights a week, three hours a night, I'm there monday-friday 830am-230pm. This seems WORSE than inpatient. If I b/p, I'll still have to be there to eat breakfast, snack, and lunch. At least I wouldnt be able to b/p in IP. Oh AND I start tomorrow morning. Eek!

 

[goldenviolet]

you are so blessed. alot of us don't have insurance or medical cards to get help.

 

[Bamboo_Chicken]

Elyse, it's going to be ok. I know it's come up fast, but they're there to help you as much as they can. I'll be praying for you Sweetie - keep us update on how it goes, ok?

Shalom,
Steffi

 

[byebyebaby]

I like the program a lot. I havent b/p'd yet. Im there from 830am-230pm. The girls are great and so is the staff but it IS a hospital/psych setting. They take everything away and I feel like I'm in lock down.The groups are GREAT though. I definitely like have a lot of girls too. At Oceanaire, I didnt have enough for group therapy to be effective.

Most of the girls live very close to me so that will be nice once they are discharged. They all come from a variety of situations. Many have dual diagnosis' (other than depression) but its not easy to tell since they are on meds. Many of them have gone through physical and sexual trauma. EVERYONE is in a tough spot but we support each other. What else? Oh, there are girls of all ages:17-50ish. There are two in their 30s, one 39, and one that I'm going to guess is 50. The rest are in their teens or early 20s. Its a big eye opener for me because I wasnt in treatment with people so significantly older than me before. It opened my eyes to where this can go if I dont change.

I've experienced a lot of anger, sadness, and vulnerability since I've been there. Its really hard for me to hear about the physical/verbal/sexual abuse these beautiful and deserving women have gone though. I think that I will really get something out of this as long as I can get past the gross hospital food.

AND YES I AM BLESSED TO HAVE SUCH GREAT INSURANCE.
*I wont have it for long though. My step-dad lost his job today. We have it for another 2 months.

 

[Bamboo_Chicken]

How are things going Hun? We haven't heard from you in a while!