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I was walking down the sidewalk, heading back to my dorm, passing a low-income apartment building. A couple maintenance guys were walking around the building, seemingly headed to the main doorway.
One of them stopped & stared at me.
I just said a friendly "Hello", and kept walking, hoping he'd just keep going into the building.
Instead, face completely blank, he walks towards me. The way he was walking, I initially thought he was drunk, but he wasn't struggling to keep his balance; his legs were just moving in strange ways.
I keep walking, keeping the same pace I was walking with before seeing this guy, avoiding eye contact, still hoping he'd just leave.
While walking towards me, he says, "Hey, [bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse], where you goin'?"
I say, "What?", thinking I misheard him, but keep walking.
"Hey, [bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse], where you goin'?" Now he's walking close enough to me that I can feel him on my right shoulder. And this is a rather large guy, a few inches taller than me, carrying a case of about a dozen wrenches over his right shoulder.
"To my dorm," I uncertainly replied.
"Why you goin' there?" His face is still completely blank, and I'm walking at a fairly quick pace, and he's still right on my shoulder. This is in broad daylight, right alongside a highway, about 5:30 in the afternoon.
"Because I live there," feeling less safe every second. I've felt a little unsafe around people before, but this was the first time I was actually reaching for my knife--which wasn't in my pocket.
"What are you gonna do when you get there?"
At this point, I'm just trying to give simple answers that don't give too much away; I realized I probably shouldn't have even told him I was going to my dorm, and just referred to it as my house, but this is a college town, right across the street from campus, so that probably didn't give anything away. "I'll drop off my trumpet [I was carrying it at the time], maybe do some homework, and go to supper."
At this point, the other maintenance guy he was with, standing in the doorway of the apartment building, is kind of laughing, saying, "Alright, cut it out, get over here."
At this point, I got a little relieved, because I figured I was just part of some really bad practical joke, but the guy who was following me still had a completely flat face, wrenches over his shoulder, just stared at me for a second before going back to the apartments.
I'm pretty sure he was on some kind of drug; the way he was walking was not natural at all, and his flat face was likely some mood-altering effect. Whatever it was, I was honestly scared that he was going to slam the wrenches over my head at any second, which would basically disable me for awhile, where he could strike a fatal blow. I honestly thought I was 2 hits away from death, at the hands of some druggie that really shouldn't be doing maintenance work.
This was Friday, today is Sunday, and I'm still shaken by it. I don't have anxiety, or I didn't, but I feel really uneasy, and I think I'm having nightmares about it. I just wake up, and have this image of the maintenance guy staring at me, blank face, and wrenches over his shoulder. It doesn't wake me up, or make me scream, but it makes me feel very uneasy. Of course, because this happened on a Friday after my classes were over, I can't talk to any of my psych professors who are trained as counselors about this until I see them again, which will be Tuesday.
Still, being a psych major, I know a certain amount about counseling & overcoming bad associations, so I've made sure to tell people about this, and walk past the apartments a few times, to remind myself that creepy druggies won't be there every time, and that's helped.
I don't know why my reflex was to fight; I'm built like a runner, and my years of playing tennis have made me a pretty good sprinter, especially considering the amount of adrenaline in my system.
Trying to work through this is hard; the time I've taken to type this has brought back adrenaline, and I kind of want to barf now, and my fingers feel funny as I try to type, but I know I need a huge amount of God right now, so I want to tell this story & ask for prayers.
All of this happened after I spent some prayer time on a bench behind my church, right across the street from these apartments. It's my usual prayer spot, and I go there at least once a day. But this time, I felt like it was time to go after only about a minute sitting there; I normally try to spend a significant amount of time there. But I sincerely believed God wanted me to go, so I walked away from there, about to take my usual route back to my dorm, but I felt very strongly that I should go alongside the apartment building. So, after brief contemplation, I took that route instead, which led me into this scary situation. But the whole time I was being followed, feeling very uneasy, there was some underlying sense of peace; something in me knew that nothing bad would happen. After the guy left, I was reminded of the psalm that goes something like, "I will walk through dangerous valleys & won't fear."
Today, I felt that I needed to go to the bench behind church again, but I was very scared to go there. I didn't want to go back to what led into being followed by this guy. On the way, I realized another dimension to what had happened; Satan can't get me to stay away from church by laziness or doubt anymore, so the enemy was trying to use fear to keep me back. After I prayed from the bench for awhile, I could see my reflection in the windows that aren't stained-glass; on one hand, I felt scared, saying "I don't want to go past there anymore! God, keep me away from there!", but on the other hand, a strong look, and "I trust You." I realized in that moment, looking at myself side with the side of strength & trust, that I've really been strengthened by this experience.
I need to go do something else now; this has taken awhile to write, and I want to think about something different.
Thank you for reading my long post.
Please pray for me, and more for the guy.
One of them stopped & stared at me.
I just said a friendly "Hello", and kept walking, hoping he'd just keep going into the building.
Instead, face completely blank, he walks towards me. The way he was walking, I initially thought he was drunk, but he wasn't struggling to keep his balance; his legs were just moving in strange ways.
I keep walking, keeping the same pace I was walking with before seeing this guy, avoiding eye contact, still hoping he'd just leave.
While walking towards me, he says, "Hey, [bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse], where you goin'?"
I say, "What?", thinking I misheard him, but keep walking.
"Hey, [bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse], where you goin'?" Now he's walking close enough to me that I can feel him on my right shoulder. And this is a rather large guy, a few inches taller than me, carrying a case of about a dozen wrenches over his right shoulder.
"To my dorm," I uncertainly replied.
"Why you goin' there?" His face is still completely blank, and I'm walking at a fairly quick pace, and he's still right on my shoulder. This is in broad daylight, right alongside a highway, about 5:30 in the afternoon.
"Because I live there," feeling less safe every second. I've felt a little unsafe around people before, but this was the first time I was actually reaching for my knife--which wasn't in my pocket.
"What are you gonna do when you get there?"
At this point, I'm just trying to give simple answers that don't give too much away; I realized I probably shouldn't have even told him I was going to my dorm, and just referred to it as my house, but this is a college town, right across the street from campus, so that probably didn't give anything away. "I'll drop off my trumpet [I was carrying it at the time], maybe do some homework, and go to supper."
At this point, the other maintenance guy he was with, standing in the doorway of the apartment building, is kind of laughing, saying, "Alright, cut it out, get over here."
At this point, I got a little relieved, because I figured I was just part of some really bad practical joke, but the guy who was following me still had a completely flat face, wrenches over his shoulder, just stared at me for a second before going back to the apartments.
I'm pretty sure he was on some kind of drug; the way he was walking was not natural at all, and his flat face was likely some mood-altering effect. Whatever it was, I was honestly scared that he was going to slam the wrenches over my head at any second, which would basically disable me for awhile, where he could strike a fatal blow. I honestly thought I was 2 hits away from death, at the hands of some druggie that really shouldn't be doing maintenance work.
This was Friday, today is Sunday, and I'm still shaken by it. I don't have anxiety, or I didn't, but I feel really uneasy, and I think I'm having nightmares about it. I just wake up, and have this image of the maintenance guy staring at me, blank face, and wrenches over his shoulder. It doesn't wake me up, or make me scream, but it makes me feel very uneasy. Of course, because this happened on a Friday after my classes were over, I can't talk to any of my psych professors who are trained as counselors about this until I see them again, which will be Tuesday.
Still, being a psych major, I know a certain amount about counseling & overcoming bad associations, so I've made sure to tell people about this, and walk past the apartments a few times, to remind myself that creepy druggies won't be there every time, and that's helped.
I don't know why my reflex was to fight; I'm built like a runner, and my years of playing tennis have made me a pretty good sprinter, especially considering the amount of adrenaline in my system.
Trying to work through this is hard; the time I've taken to type this has brought back adrenaline, and I kind of want to barf now, and my fingers feel funny as I try to type, but I know I need a huge amount of God right now, so I want to tell this story & ask for prayers.
All of this happened after I spent some prayer time on a bench behind my church, right across the street from these apartments. It's my usual prayer spot, and I go there at least once a day. But this time, I felt like it was time to go after only about a minute sitting there; I normally try to spend a significant amount of time there. But I sincerely believed God wanted me to go, so I walked away from there, about to take my usual route back to my dorm, but I felt very strongly that I should go alongside the apartment building. So, after brief contemplation, I took that route instead, which led me into this scary situation. But the whole time I was being followed, feeling very uneasy, there was some underlying sense of peace; something in me knew that nothing bad would happen. After the guy left, I was reminded of the psalm that goes something like, "I will walk through dangerous valleys & won't fear."
Today, I felt that I needed to go to the bench behind church again, but I was very scared to go there. I didn't want to go back to what led into being followed by this guy. On the way, I realized another dimension to what had happened; Satan can't get me to stay away from church by laziness or doubt anymore, so the enemy was trying to use fear to keep me back. After I prayed from the bench for awhile, I could see my reflection in the windows that aren't stained-glass; on one hand, I felt scared, saying "I don't want to go past there anymore! God, keep me away from there!", but on the other hand, a strong look, and "I trust You." I realized in that moment, looking at myself side with the side of strength & trust, that I've really been strengthened by this experience.
I need to go do something else now; this has taken awhile to write, and I want to think about something different.
Thank you for reading my long post.
Please pray for me, and more for the guy.