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Severe depression - Need prayers
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PearlsofWisdom
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Draw Jase close into Your heart, Lord Jesus, may he not feel so lonely in that place with you...minister to him there...
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NostalgicGranny
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Hi Criada, sorry I haven't responded sooner. Been very busy and this thread got pushed pretty far back in the prayer forum.Still praying for you, Jase.
how are you doing?
I've been in really bad shape lately, and today I got hit with some job news that makes me feel like my whole world just collapsed.
I mentioned earlier in this thread that I made 2 new good friends at work. We've been trying to become managers of this tennis club I work at. The general manager, however, who is probably the worst manager imaginable has decided to ignore us, and hire a 22 year old with no experience to take the new position. If we don't get along with this new 22 year old GM, we all get fired. I'm now going to be out of a job, because my current position there does not pay enough and I have no where to move up now in the company.
This also means my friends are most likely going to be quitting too. One of them may end up moving out of the state to find a new job. This most likely means I will lose him as a friend because we won't be able to hang out or keep in touch much. This is upsetting me to no end. I know it was mentioned here that coworker friends usually don't last, but due to all my other issues, I've struggled to make friends my entire life. These 2 people are the best friends I've ever had, and the idea of losing them is so upsetting.
Of course, all this trouble and stress from work only makes the problems that prompted me to start this thread even worse. I've become suicidal again, and I feel so lost and in despair. How do I continue to believe God cares when he lets me suffer so much?
I try so hard to live my life righteously and with as little sin as possible. I know i'm not perfect and I'm sure there are people more righteous than me, but I'm so much different from anyone i've ever met. I feel like an outcast in almost every way imaginable. No one understands me. I'm also a very emotional and caring person, but I feel like I can never care about people enough. I almost feel somewhat empathic, because of how I end up feeling for people.
But the reality is, I really have no one. I have hardly any family, these 2 friends that i'm about to lose, and no relationship to speak of. My friend and I talk about how I'm suffering for the sake of others. My entire existence involves me loving and caring for people that I can never even tell how I feel. For example, my friend called me today to say he's really sick and can't come to work. Most people would say, sorry to hear that, get well soon. I, however, got upset and hurt over it, because I love him and can't stand the thought of my friend suffering. My first instinct was to wish God would bless me with the ability to heal people so I could make him better. I really wish I could help him more than saying hope you feel better soon. Does this make any sense to you? I don't understand why I'm like this. Is it because I suffer so much, I hate the thought of anyone going through even a fraction of what I have to endure?
I've felt like God brought my 2 friends and I together at this job so I could care for them, and try to bring them closer to God. I've talked to them a little about my faith, and one of my friends has even tried to curb some of his bad habits (cussing) because he's so amazed that I never ever cuss.
But now God is taking it all away. Our job plans fell through, and I probably won't see them much anymore, if at all. Don't I ever get a break? Doesn't my committment to living righteously and loving people so much mean anything? Why does God refuse to help me in anyway? Why when I finally have a glimmer of hope does he shatter it? I deal with so many mental/emotional issues not many humans could ever fathom the amount of torment and pain I endure on a daily basis. What does it take to get God to care? I've prayed to win the lottery, even though I know money shouldn't be a priority. But if I won that, I could help my friend open up his music business and we could run it together. That wouldn't solve all my problems, but would give me a fair amount of relief. But even something like that seems too much to ask of God. I just can't get a break. The pain never ends.
Anyway, this ended up being a lot longer than I thought. I get the feeling if God exists, he chooses some of us to just suffer for our entire lives for some higher purpose i'll never understand. Apparently I've been chosen for that, because there is absolutely no relief in sight.
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Hey Jase,
I'm sorry to hear that things went down the drain at your workplace. You've had a lot of things thrown at you, but you are still standing. You might not realize it, but you are strong. Suicide won't solve anything, though, it will only cause pain and suffering in those who care about you. I know you feel many don't care about what happens to you, but you do know that your friends and family care.
I wish I knew why you have it so awful, but I don't. I do know that it isn't God that makes this world a terrible place, it's sin. God gets no pleasure from seeing you suffer. The strength you have gained from this all might be God's work, but not the suffering.
By reading your post, I get the picture that you are a wonderful and responsible employee, and I don't believe you will have trouble finding new work. You made friends, who you have no reason for losing contact with just because you don't work at the same place, at this place and you will new make friends. I know it sucks to start "fresh", but you aren't as helpless as you might believe!
Feel free to PM me if you want to talk. I'll be checking this thread to see how are you doing too.
I'm sorry to hear that things went down the drain at your workplace. You've had a lot of things thrown at you, but you are still standing. You might not realize it, but you are strong. Suicide won't solve anything, though, it will only cause pain and suffering in those who care about you. I know you feel many don't care about what happens to you, but you do know that your friends and family care.
I wish I knew why you have it so awful, but I don't. I do know that it isn't God that makes this world a terrible place, it's sin. God gets no pleasure from seeing you suffer. The strength you have gained from this all might be God's work, but not the suffering.
By reading your post, I get the picture that you are a wonderful and responsible employee, and I don't believe you will have trouble finding new work. You made friends, who you have no reason for losing contact with just because you don't work at the same place, at this place and you will new make friends. I know it sucks to start "fresh", but you aren't as helpless as you might believe!
Feel free to PM me if you want to talk. I'll be checking this thread to see how are you doing too.
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Springrain
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Come quietly, and sit with Me awhile, and let Me encourage you today. All is not lost; all is not hopeless.
Through overwhelming tragedies and prevailing circumstances, Jeremiah felt as though his prayers were blocked, encased in hewn stone. Pierced to the depths of his soul, filled with bitterness, broken, bowed down in ashes and ridiculed by his people, he cried out as his strength and hope perished. Then He remembered Me. He remembered My mercies. He remembered My compassions fail not. He recalled these things to mind, acknowledging My great faithfulness. He knew when all else failed, or abandoned him, I remain. He depended on My goodness and in all humbleness, waited for the salvation he knew I would surely bring. He came with a heart of repentance and positioned himself before Me. You see, I am faithful when you are faithful and when you are faithless (2 Timothy 2:13).
“Because of the LORD's great love we are not consumed, for His compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is Your faithfulness. I say to myself, ‘The LORD is my portion; therefore I will wait for Him.’ The LORD is good to those whose hope is in Him, to the one who seeks Him” (Lamentations 3:22-25).
Therefore, have hope in Me, and await my salvation in your circumstances. Be like Jeremiah, and remember the Father’s mercies are never consumed (John 1:2Lamentations 3:22-25). The very fact that My life was laid down for you verifies this. My mercies are endless for you, My beloved. With complete trust in the character and mercy of My Father, I endured, carried with steadfast, unwavering hope the entire weight of sin for the hope which sat before Me: you (Hebrews 12:2).
Oh, how I love you, My beloved. I am your portion and your faithfulness. Goodness is My nature, My character. I change not. Even if I wanted to change, which I don’t, I couldn’t (Hebrews 13:8). You can take this to the bank and cash it in. It is a check without limits in your life. I am your portion. Therefore, wait and hope in Me. Wait at My feet; pour your penitent heart out to My merciful one until you hear the words, “Arise and shine, My glorious one” (Isaiah 60:1).
Lord, I receive Your great mercies as I trust in Your faithfulness, Your goodness. You are the delight of my soul in the land of the living. I surrender all my circumstances this day into Your capable hands. I confess my tendency to let my circumstances prevail, therefore, robbing my joy and hope. Jesus, You are my Hope, my Strong Tower, my Deliverer in whom I trust. Thank You for giving Your life that I might live and have abundant life, not a hopeless one. I give myself to Your encouragement.
Let me know in the deepest parts of my being that You remain when everything else I have trusted in departs. You stick closer than a brother. You are an ever-present help in times of affliction. I return Your love by trusting You. My hope is in You, Lord, my Everlasting Rock. I love You. I wait upon You this day for wisdom, guidance, hope, and enduring love. I love You. Amen.
Through overwhelming tragedies and prevailing circumstances, Jeremiah felt as though his prayers were blocked, encased in hewn stone. Pierced to the depths of his soul, filled with bitterness, broken, bowed down in ashes and ridiculed by his people, he cried out as his strength and hope perished. Then He remembered Me. He remembered My mercies. He remembered My compassions fail not. He recalled these things to mind, acknowledging My great faithfulness. He knew when all else failed, or abandoned him, I remain. He depended on My goodness and in all humbleness, waited for the salvation he knew I would surely bring. He came with a heart of repentance and positioned himself before Me. You see, I am faithful when you are faithful and when you are faithless (2 Timothy 2:13).
“Because of the LORD's great love we are not consumed, for His compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is Your faithfulness. I say to myself, ‘The LORD is my portion; therefore I will wait for Him.’ The LORD is good to those whose hope is in Him, to the one who seeks Him” (Lamentations 3:22-25).
Therefore, have hope in Me, and await my salvation in your circumstances. Be like Jeremiah, and remember the Father’s mercies are never consumed (John 1:2Lamentations 3:22-25). The very fact that My life was laid down for you verifies this. My mercies are endless for you, My beloved. With complete trust in the character and mercy of My Father, I endured, carried with steadfast, unwavering hope the entire weight of sin for the hope which sat before Me: you (Hebrews 12:2).
Oh, how I love you, My beloved. I am your portion and your faithfulness. Goodness is My nature, My character. I change not. Even if I wanted to change, which I don’t, I couldn’t (Hebrews 13:8). You can take this to the bank and cash it in. It is a check without limits in your life. I am your portion. Therefore, wait and hope in Me. Wait at My feet; pour your penitent heart out to My merciful one until you hear the words, “Arise and shine, My glorious one” (Isaiah 60:1).
Lord, I receive Your great mercies as I trust in Your faithfulness, Your goodness. You are the delight of my soul in the land of the living. I surrender all my circumstances this day into Your capable hands. I confess my tendency to let my circumstances prevail, therefore, robbing my joy and hope. Jesus, You are my Hope, my Strong Tower, my Deliverer in whom I trust. Thank You for giving Your life that I might live and have abundant life, not a hopeless one. I give myself to Your encouragement.
Let me know in the deepest parts of my being that You remain when everything else I have trusted in departs. You stick closer than a brother. You are an ever-present help in times of affliction. I return Your love by trusting You. My hope is in You, Lord, my Everlasting Rock. I love You. I wait upon You this day for wisdom, guidance, hope, and enduring love. I love You. Amen.
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NostalgicGranny
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Lottery isn't the answer Jase. All that will usually get you is a few buck less in your pocket.
Maybe you won't lose your friends simply because they move or change jobs. My son still has a couple friends from college. He's 26 and very - very - very much like you. It's just a new season in your relationship. If it is truly friendship it will withstand the test of time and distance.
While we are on the subject of seasons, it sort of sounds like you are in a season of 'testing'
Grab hold of God tighter and tighter every time things start to get overwhelming.
Nahum: 1:7 The Lord is good, a stronghold in the day of trouble; and knoweth them that trust in him.
Last Sunday I caught a preacher on TV who said two things about Depression. 1) Reach out and help someone else - it is hard to feel sorry for yourself when you are busy helping others. 2) Call those things that be not as though they are. (Declare that today you will not allow depression to rule your day.)
One more thing. Satan came to kill, crush, and steal, and destroy - not God. Are you sure it's not him who is trying to stand in the way of your job and friendships? Because if it is than God truly is the answer.
Today I am praying that God shoves Satan out of your path, and takes your hand and leads you to the light.
Maybe you won't lose your friends simply because they move or change jobs. My son still has a couple friends from college. He's 26 and very - very - very much like you. It's just a new season in your relationship. If it is truly friendship it will withstand the test of time and distance.
While we are on the subject of seasons, it sort of sounds like you are in a season of 'testing'
Grab hold of God tighter and tighter every time things start to get overwhelming.
Nahum: 1:7 The Lord is good, a stronghold in the day of trouble; and knoweth them that trust in him.
Last Sunday I caught a preacher on TV who said two things about Depression. 1) Reach out and help someone else - it is hard to feel sorry for yourself when you are busy helping others. 2) Call those things that be not as though they are. (Declare that today you will not allow depression to rule your day.)
One more thing. Satan came to kill, crush, and steal, and destroy - not God. Are you sure it's not him who is trying to stand in the way of your job and friendships? Because if it is than God truly is the answer.
Today I am praying that God shoves Satan out of your path, and takes your hand and leads you to the light.
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Still praying, Jase.
God is working in all this, and He will bring you through.
Don't listen to the lies that the enemy will tell you... you are a precious child of God, and He has plans for you.
The times when we can't see Him or understand are hard, but they are often times of growth as we come to maturity in Him.
Hold on , brother... it's hard, but it will have an end!
God is working in all this, and He will bring you through.
Don't listen to the lies that the enemy will tell you... you are a precious child of God, and He has plans for you.
The times when we can't see Him or understand are hard, but they are often times of growth as we come to maturity in Him.
Hold on , brother... it's hard, but it will have an end!
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Well, it's been a couple months since i've been here, thought I'd revisit this thread. I need some major help. I feel like my depression is getting worse and worse. I'm so lost and helpless, I don't know what to do. I live with emotional torture every single day, and there is no way to make the pain go away. I can't stop crying, it's hard to breathe. It got so bad a few days ago, I had a gun to my head. It wasn't loaded, but I kept pulling the trigger wishing there were bullets in it. All I keep doing is begging God to help me over and over. He won't, no matter how bad it gets. Is there any reason for me to continue believing in him? What good is it doing me? I try so hard to bring people closer to him and live my life as pure as possible. My nickname is "Angel." Yet God will not help me or bless me in anyway. He won't give me any peace, comfort, or reassurance. Apparently God wants me to kill myself, because that's where my life is headed. I just can't function. The kind of problems and pain I live with is beyond what any human should ever have to endure. Why is God doing this to me? 
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Jesus, I lift up Jase (Angel) to You. Give him Might in the power of the Holy Spirit. Protect his life and help him with his depression and loneliness. Jesus, he needs Your love and comfort and support. Please be there for him. Amen.
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God isn't doing it to you, brother, honestly.
He loves you, so much.
Still praying for you, Jase.
He loves you, so much.
Still praying for you, Jase.
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[FONT="]Jase, if you were my son – I would say - Yahweh isn’t doing this to you – the enemy is (John 10:10). You’re a smart kid – recognize him for who he is then focus on Yahweh and recognize Him for who He really is. [/FONT]
[FONT="]Pure? Well, I know some of us try not to sin - knowing that we’re going to sin - yet not using that as an excuse to sin. Do we fail? Heck yeah, Christians should have a t-shirt that says “Not Perfect, Just Forgiven!” We (I’ve fought similar battles) focus on our unrighteousness, screw ups, etc. You know that verse about renewing our minds? He wants our thought life – thinking about His righteousness, His everlasting strength and love, etc. etc. etc. [/FONT]
[FONT="]His Blessings to you? from your profile I see that you’re blessed and blessed and blessed --[/FONT]
[FONT="]-you’re a believer – that is no small thing; [/FONT]
[FONT="]-you live in the US – a land that was dedicated to God and He continues to bless us; [/FONT]
[FONT="]-you have musical abilities and language capabilities – talents/skills that not everyone has; [/FONT]
[FONT="]-you play tennis – again not everyone can do that; etc. – [/FONT]
[FONT="]I’m not saying these things to make you prideful – I’m pointing out that He is helping and blessing you. In what way do you want Him to bless you? With peace – here's how ---[/FONT]Isa 26:3 “Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on thee: because he trusteth in thee.”
Here are your assignments – seriously, I want you to read – “The Purpose Driven Life” and “How to Hear from God in a Noisy World.” Also, locate 8 scriptures that you would recommend to a friend who wanted Yahweh to touch their lives.
Waiting for your post.
[FONT="]Pure? Well, I know some of us try not to sin - knowing that we’re going to sin - yet not using that as an excuse to sin. Do we fail? Heck yeah, Christians should have a t-shirt that says “Not Perfect, Just Forgiven!” We (I’ve fought similar battles) focus on our unrighteousness, screw ups, etc. You know that verse about renewing our minds? He wants our thought life – thinking about His righteousness, His everlasting strength and love, etc. etc. etc. [/FONT]
[FONT="]His Blessings to you? from your profile I see that you’re blessed and blessed and blessed --[/FONT]
[FONT="]-you’re a believer – that is no small thing; [/FONT]
[FONT="]-you live in the US – a land that was dedicated to God and He continues to bless us; [/FONT]
[FONT="]-you have musical abilities and language capabilities – talents/skills that not everyone has; [/FONT]
[FONT="]-you play tennis – again not everyone can do that; etc. – [/FONT]
[FONT="]I’m not saying these things to make you prideful – I’m pointing out that He is helping and blessing you. In what way do you want Him to bless you? With peace – here's how ---[/FONT]Isa 26:3 “Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on thee: because he trusteth in thee.”
Here are your assignments – seriously, I want you to read – “The Purpose Driven Life” and “How to Hear from God in a Noisy World.” Also, locate 8 scriptures that you would recommend to a friend who wanted Yahweh to touch their lives.
Waiting for your post.
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NostalgicGranny
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I agree with everyone else Jase, God isn't doing this to you the enemy is.
If you had a gun to your head - loaded or unloaded, then it is time to reach out for some help. It could be something simple like a misfunctioning thyroid, or a chemical imbalance. There is no shame in asking for help. Please go talk to someone. A doctor, your parents, or clergy.
I know the nearest church/synagog (of your religion) is quite a drive from you, but it is worth the drive to go talk to someone who can guide you religiously.
I am praying for a mighty movement of God in your life spiritually, physically, and emotionally. And that the Lord places a protective hedge around you.
If you had a gun to your head - loaded or unloaded, then it is time to reach out for some help. It could be something simple like a misfunctioning thyroid, or a chemical imbalance. There is no shame in asking for help. Please go talk to someone. A doctor, your parents, or clergy.
I know the nearest church/synagog (of your religion) is quite a drive from you, but it is worth the drive to go talk to someone who can guide you religiously.
I am praying for a mighty movement of God in your life spiritually, physically, and emotionally. And that the Lord places a protective hedge around you.
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pixies27
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Jase you are not alone and God has always been there for you he is ever present in our lives and he has heard your prayers trust in him he will see you through this tribulation and if you need someone to talk to I am always available I to suffer from depression and have since I was a young child ,without God in my life I to would be where you are right now and our choices are never easy so please ,talk to someone anyone you feel comfortable with and like I said before feel free to pm me at anytime,I will continue to pray for you 
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If he loves me so much, why does he let me suffer beyond what any human should ever have to endure with absolutely no chance of relief? I just don't get it. What does it take for God to actually help me?God isn't doing it to you, brother, honestly.
He loves you, so much.
Still praying for you, Jase.
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Springrain
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Prayer for my friend in his suffering.
Almighty and Merciful God, Our Father we are grateful that by your tender love for the human race you sent your dearly beloved Son our Savior Jesus Christ to take upon himself the nature of man, and to suffer until He gave His Spirit up to death, giving us the example of his great humility and sacrifice: Mercifully grant that we may walk in His Light, and also share in His resurrection; according to Your Holy Will.
Father, with this prayer, I lift up to You, our friend and all those among us who are experiencing anxiety and other afflictions. I ask You to give them the grace to put aside the worldy ways and the ways of our fallen nature and triumphantly abide in the presence of Your Will... with all of their fear, pain and suffering being resolved within the comfort of Your Love and Mercy. I see my friend rising up to high places, standing in the presence of our Dear Sheppard who is the Lamb of God, Our Comforter and Protector.
Amen.
Almighty and Merciful God, Our Father we are grateful that by your tender love for the human race you sent your dearly beloved Son our Savior Jesus Christ to take upon himself the nature of man, and to suffer until He gave His Spirit up to death, giving us the example of his great humility and sacrifice: Mercifully grant that we may walk in His Light, and also share in His resurrection; according to Your Holy Will.
Father, with this prayer, I lift up to You, our friend and all those among us who are experiencing anxiety and other afflictions. I ask You to give them the grace to put aside the worldy ways and the ways of our fallen nature and triumphantly abide in the presence of Your Will... with all of their fear, pain and suffering being resolved within the comfort of Your Love and Mercy. I see my friend rising up to high places, standing in the presence of our Dear Sheppard who is the Lamb of God, Our Comforter and Protector.
Amen.
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