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I had a weird weekend and I talked about it in group tonight. I went to a workshop given my the AA Intergroup here, and it was old-timers sharing what AA was like when they came in, 30-40 years ago. One of the guys sharing was a drinking buddy of my father, when Dad was alive, prior to this guy getting sober.
When I got home, I wanted to stay up late, and did not take my Risperdal at the right dose, as I also wanted to get up early for an AA meeting at 7:00 a.m. I was off my rocker most of the day Sunday, and ready for a melt-down. At group tonight, I shared about it and asked why do I self-sabotage so much? My counselor told me that I am addicted to chaos, and I am uncomfortable with the peace and serenity I have been experiencing. He also suggested that I probably miss my Dad, and seeing that old-timer stirred some of that stuff as well. Dad has been dead for 32 years.
Does anyone else relate to self-sabotage?
When I got home, I wanted to stay up late, and did not take my Risperdal at the right dose, as I also wanted to get up early for an AA meeting at 7:00 a.m. I was off my rocker most of the day Sunday, and ready for a melt-down. At group tonight, I shared about it and asked why do I self-sabotage so much? My counselor told me that I am addicted to chaos, and I am uncomfortable with the peace and serenity I have been experiencing. He also suggested that I probably miss my Dad, and seeing that old-timer stirred some of that stuff as well. Dad has been dead for 32 years.
Does anyone else relate to self-sabotage?