For more than 7 months I've been researching the spirit realm. I've watched more than 300 (and counting) testimonies including even whole books with hundreds of pages each. Take a look at the testimonies I've watched in this link (work in progress).
At the same time, I've been seeking a personal encounter with God all along. Unfortunately, all I receive is silence. The silent treatment.
What can I do? On the one hand, I've come across astonishing mind-blowing powerful supernatural testimonies of the spirit realm, but on the other hand, I only receive silence, and it's been like that for 7 months now.
I just don't understand what's the matter. This paradox between astonishing testimonies vs null personal experience is driving me crazy.
I feel like getting myself enclosed in a room for 10 days straight for full-time praying and fasting (like the apostles in the upper room), but frustratingly and sadly I just don't have the privacy and the time to do it (I'm burdened with the responsibilities of studying a PhD). I really wish I could.
What can I do?
At the same time, I've been seeking a personal encounter with God all along. Unfortunately, all I receive is silence. The silent treatment.
What can I do? On the one hand, I've come across astonishing mind-blowing powerful supernatural testimonies of the spirit realm, but on the other hand, I only receive silence, and it's been like that for 7 months now.
I just don't understand what's the matter. This paradox between astonishing testimonies vs null personal experience is driving me crazy.
I feel like getting myself enclosed in a room for 10 days straight for full-time praying and fasting (like the apostles in the upper room), but frustratingly and sadly I just don't have the privacy and the time to do it (I'm burdened with the responsibilities of studying a PhD). I really wish I could.
What can I do?
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