I am new to Christian Forum as of today 6/15.
I really believe the lord has always been in my life but in the background, thats cause I just won't let him in. I always expect a flash of light, or a deep "Its time Ray" from the lord. This has never happened. I guess the lord is leaving this up to me. I wish it was the instant, easy way, but I believe now the lord will have me come to him. I will do a lot of reading on this fourm so I won't post much for now. I will be truthful, I am little nervous. Sometimes I think the lord won't really want ME, I waited so long, I believe he even has givin me signs, but I ignored them or did not see them.
I really believe the lord has always been in my life but in the background, thats cause I just won't let him in. I always expect a flash of light, or a deep "Its time Ray" from the lord. This has never happened. I guess the lord is leaving this up to me. I wish it was the instant, easy way, but I believe now the lord will have me come to him. I will do a lot of reading on this fourm so I won't post much for now. I will be truthful, I am little nervous. Sometimes I think the lord won't really want ME, I waited so long, I believe he even has givin me signs, but I ignored them or did not see them.

