Yes i relate your question and for years i sought after the answer and found it both in the bible and inside my own heart.
The bible teaches that bad life found being inside of people after they believed a lie about God, themselves and other. Genesis 3:4. Just one loveless lie shattered the loving truth in which they had enjoyed paradise. This loveless lie multiplied evil right from the beginning bringing into life instantly shame, guilt, blaming and fear and the loss of their heavenly good life.
These spiritual realities have dwelt within humanity ever since and have multiplied satan's lies and its associated bad life a trillion billion million fold over the last 6000 years or so. Bringing bad life into existence within the human spirit and destroying God's good life all over the planet.
The bible teaches that evil comes out of our sinful desires which dwell in our hearts because of what lies we believe about God, ourselves and each other as well as Creation. James 1:13-15. Truly God's truth has been completely shattered by the lies ruling and it can be very hard to break free from even for someone who loves the truth of God. Only in the power of the Spirit can we break free from satan and his henchman.
It is for this reason that evil is still around, not because God's wills evil to be, but because humanity believes so many loveless lies about God, themselves and each other as well as Creation.
Therefore we best understand that it is God's loving grace that keeps this planet and everyone on it in existence. Honest we best be fully aware of that. For if our perfectly loving and truthful God would expose all of our lies dwelling within us in one instance nothing untrue or unloving dwelling in the human heart would survive His loving truth. It would mean certain death of most people in an instant.
It is for this reason that God has given us His Word to show us the truth about our sinful state and to offer us grace, love and forgiveness of our wrongs and a new truthful life in and with Him as solution to the problem of evil ruling this world.
Jesus Christ is the answer therefore. He is fully human and fully One with God. When we place our faith in His love we receive The Spirit of truth and then we can break free from the evils ruling down here and we can become truthful and loving. Once we are covered by God's loving truth also the sin of our own hearts are taken away, one after the other, while as ex sinner we receive a new life in and with Him. In this way we can be free from sin enslaving us and instead be free in God's loving truth. To be who we really always should have been. A child of God and again in His image instead of the likeness of sinful flesh.
Be of very good courage fighting evil lies and finding His loving truth to rule your life in freedom and love instead of sinful and enslaving and good life deadening desires.
It is great to have true life in Him and freedom from the evil lies ruling this planet. Be of good courage fighting the wicked lies and spreading His love.
Peace.
An invitation to The Chosen.
God's Love will not take or will
you to conform to rules or demand
which imprison, enslave, burn or kill you.
God's Love will not pervert what's Good
The Lord loves truthfully Wise and Good.
True Love was, is and always will be Good!
In God's Love you are free to be right!
In His love everything is good proper and kind.
He loves all who love good and true to rule!
His Love is caring, providing, and sharing.
His Love always enjoys and protects good life.
His love rules even when bad life has being in us!
Hear Jesus call - 'Come join up with us all!
Leave whatever ties you down and be free
loving good life with all God's own to be.'
To the rest in your heart God's asks
how long will you tarry in the darkness?
Please leave such bad existence within.
For life must not, no never should, or would, or could,
be forceful, rude, prideful, arrogant, selfish, lustful
or otherwise be untrue to God's loving truth.
Neither should life be hurting or ill,
hungry, oppressed, despised, hated
or otherwise have existence in wrong.
Please hand your Bad Life over to Jesus
Humbly ask for His Good Life back in return
and go love God, self and neighbour with Joy.
The Church knows that Jesus is coming soon
All bad life will be our shameful past then,
so please leave your bad life while you can!
Love