Relapse

[madison1101]

Hi,
I have been in outpatient treatment for my eating disorder for five weeks, and I have relapsed the past 24 hours and cannot figure out what triggered it. I am having trouble getting back on the horse, so to speak. I go back to treatment tonight, but really dread it.

Please pray for me, as I have had some victories, and have lost 8 pounds, which is great with my binge eating disorder. I just feel like such a failure right now.

Thanks,
Trish

 

[blessedmomof5]

OHHHHHH Trish,

I know how unhappy you must feel (((((HUGS))))))) But you have come along way and no one ever said there would ever be no slips along the way and look how far you went without one you shoud be PROUD of yourself.....go tonight and talk about it and maybe they can help you se what happened, sometimes people loooing in from the outside can see better then we can,.....

Keep up all that HARD work..i for 1 am proud of you.
Love Denise

 

[madison1101]

Thanks, Denice. The treatment team was really good about helping me work through the relapse. I learned I really can't do a lot of grocery shopping, as that is my big trigger. I had gone grocery shopping after receiving bad news. I set myself up for it.

 

[blessedmomof5]

ahhhh, thats like a kid in a candy store, well at least you figured that out . see are you feeling better now? back on track? I am praying for you Trish...

 

[madison1101]

Seeing all the food is triggering for me. When I am emotionally vulnerable, I set myself up for the big binges by grocery shopping at that time. I need to not go to the store and wait until I am better. Now I can shop online and have them deliver it to me. May cost more, but what the heck. My health is worth it.

 

[blessedmomof5]

ohhhh what a great idea!!!!!! shop online.... that really is a terrific idea!
trish do you try and do some form of exercise?take a little walk maybe? do they do that at the treatment place?

 

[bugg1]

Yesterday i heard on a christian radio station that its no wonder many american families end up over weight. With many tradtions of celebrating with a big feast or desert or rewarding with candy or some sort of food. Thats the part of the problem....then we become dependant on it when we go threw emotional trials. Then it becomes like a drug addiction. for one stay away from fast food if you cant then try wendys chilli or a grill chicken sandwhich without mayo and ask for bbq instead. after you go for the help seek a christian nutricanalist. they can ive you some ideas how toeat healthyer and eat foods that are more filling so you wont want to eat. seek a counseler and emotional distress.....all three of theses ,with the constant prayer to God will rid of this. I will also pray for you.

 

[bugg1]

sorry about the misspellings.....never get a cordless keyboard....sigh,lol.

 

[madison1101]

ohhhh what a great idea!!!!!! shop online.... that really is a terrific idea!
trish do you try and do some form of exercise?take a little walk maybe? do they do that at the treatment place?

I do exercise about 4 times a week. We do not have exercise at treatment as there are also anorexic and bulimic girls and ladies who are severely underweight and malnourished and the exercise would hurt them.

 

[madison1101]

Yesterday i heard on a christian radio station that its no wonder many american families end up over weight. With many tradtions of celebrating with a big feast or desert or rewarding with candy or some sort of food. Thats the part of the problem....then we become dependant on it when we go threw emotional trials. Then it becomes like a drug addiction. for one stay away from fast food if you cant then try wendys chilli or a grill chicken sandwhich without mayo and ask for bbq instead. after you go for the help seek a christian nutricanalist. they can ive you some ideas how toeat healthyer and eat foods that are more filling so you wont want to eat. seek a counseler and emotional distress.....all three of theses ,with the constant prayer to God will rid of this. I will also pray for you.

thanks, I have a nurtritionist at the treatment center who meets with me once a week, and also teaches nutrition classes. She has given me a very good food plan which is healthy. I do not do fast food, except for Wendy's salads and chili. I also have a therapist at treatment and one that I will return to after treatment is complete.

My eating disorder is a result of a lot of childhood traumas, and poor brain chemistry. I am on medications for the brain chemistry, and the therapy is helping me cope with the traumas.

 

[blessedmomof5]

Trish, i am allowed exercise, but only to a point, i think though once they well my dr sees me next week i can kiss that goodbye.....but my therapist my pdoc and reg dr all agreed exercise would do me good mentally......and for my bones, bc of my age........but i go to far.....

 

[CoolMom6]

Madison and blessedmom;
Just popping in to say hello, and let you know that you have folks praying for you that you don't even realize that they are...
I pray that God's mercy and grace abound in your lives and that you both feel the reality of His healing touch.
All my best to you friends;
CM4

 

[madison1101]

Trish, i am allowed exercise, but only to a point, i think though once they well my dr sees me next week i can kiss that goodbye.....but my therapist my pdoc and reg dr all agreed exercise would do me good mentally......and for my bones, bc of my age........but i go to far.....

I understand. The psychiatrist decides when the patients can exercise. One girl in the group is not allowed to go back to ballet classes till she is a certain weight.

Exercise is definitely good for the mind. I always feel better after I have exercised.

You are going to have to learn to limit yourself on the exercise. Someday you will become willing to submit to the doctors and do what is in your best interest regardless of how you feel.

Thanks.
Trish

 

[blessedmomof5]

thanks cool mom...thats always nice to hear....

Trish, oneday...i know

 

[madison1101]

Cool mom,
Thank you for praying for us. God is able to do what I cannot.

 

[Music4Hym777]

Oh Trish! I am sorry to hear that you had such a bad time with the relapse, but am glad that you despised it (when you can despise relapse, you know youre on the right track). I am also glad that you are back with it and know that your health is much more important than a little cash (thats what I am learning with my schooling).

's
Monica

 

[CoolMom6]

YOu guys; I wish I could say that God has totally taken it away in my life, never to return; it still does come back; like every other sin and the demons that run free on this earth. But over the years, it has less and less hold on me; I have given it over to Christ so many times. Do I still stuggle? Yes, but to a lesser degree. Healing is possible; it is there for the taking. But I have to be aware every day just Who is in control, and it is NOT me. There are many, many good days; more than bad. This is what I can aspire to in this life. We will not be perfect until we come face-to-face with the One who created us.
I do understand, and I do love you ladies, because in you, I see myself, and I lift us all up to our Heavenly Father to be the Strong One in all our lives.