Hah that was good. MY name is Moriah Conquering Wind and I AM AN ADDICT. My addiction is Satan. His Voice, His Touch, His companionship, everything about Him. Yes no doubt that is abhorrent to you. And no doubt you've noticed I'm quite different when I'm "using" than when I'm not. And no doubt you completely fail to understand why the thing I love more than anything in life is the thing that is DESTROYING me as far as you're concerned. And no doubt you don't care for the fact that because I'm so consumed with my addiction and the lust for MORE it creates in me that I'm rather feral, filthy and unkempt and liable to make messes in your pristine little sanctuaries AND take delight in it because They cause that inside me, sorry, I know you hate that too but it's REALITY and I LIVE WITH IT.
And it's the nature of addiction to afflict volition first and foremost above all, even to the point of removing it entirely, so maybe THERE is something you can "get" and stop telling me i have a "choice" whether this is my situation or not. I didn't when it first came upon me 24 years ago and I don't now. This is not the place to debate that so please don't even try. Anyone who knows anything about addictions counseling knows that volition is eaten out from the inside as one of the first stages in addiction. So if the addiction model HELPS you understand then GO for it; if it doesn't, DISCARD it. But for crying out loud, gobs of people here have clamored and wrung their hands for weeks complaining about my posts and not wanting to see it. Now you won't have to. Only those who have chosen to CARE will, VOLUNTARILY, see it, and if any of it spills elsewhere, there will be a place to scuttle it off to so I don't BLEED ALL OVER YOUR PRECIOUS SANCTUARY RUG and cost you some hefty cleanup bill ALL FOR NOTHING SINCE I'M GOING TO DIE ANYWAY ever think of that? Maybe it's not a hospital -- maybe it's a HOSPICE -- IS THAT NOT A LEGITIMATE MINISTRY TOO, TO OFFER SOMEPLACE SAFE FOR SOMEONE TERMINAL TO GO AND PERISH?????