Uh, since when is it a crime to change one's mind? I don't have any doubt; I just haven't truly made up my mind on this issue yet. That post was me writing down my thoughts as they came to me. What--are you going to call me a "flip flopper"?
And since I highly doubt this hypothetical situation will ever arise, it isn't as though I need to hurry and make a choice. To be honest, I don't know what I would do. I'd like to think that I would not recant, but I hadn't considered the effect on my loved ones. To make a sacrifice out of love for my Gods would be the noble thing to do, but not if it means making others suffer as well.
You forget that I am not a Christian. My Gods would not punish or damn me if I were to recant. There's no salvation at stake here. It's a matter of honor and loyalty. But because I am loyal not just to my Gods but also to my loved ones, the issue becomes more complex.