So, I have fallen a terrible deal that seems to be taking over true Christianity all over the world. Some of you will already know of this when i say it is the Sinner's Prayer. I myself a 17 year old fell into this trap in a conference at a local church on the street i live on. Now I'm not saying that it's wrong to say the Sinner's prayer cause it's not. It's just that I've been learning more about it and how preachers all over the world are using it today just to convince people like me, my whole family and just a bunch of other people that i know of to think that if they pray that just by saying it as they hear the speaker say it that they are saved.
It's made me realize that i'm not saved, and that just terrifies me. Not only does it terrify me but it makes me worry that my family might not be saved either. And it's because of this i have been in a miniature depression for the past 2 weeks now. From the time i wake up to the time i go to sleep i sit there and worry and doubt and frighten myself, and its making it very hard to live. So I've been searching the true way to be saved. I know of it now as having a personal relationship with God himself through Jesus Christ. I've been learning that in order to receive this is through Repentance and belief in the Gospel. So i thought, okay just stop all worldly activities and major sins and i did...somewhat. My day consists of waking up, occasionally reading the Bible, or watching more videos about people that are already saved and videos about how to be saved and just things like that, i barely even do my schoolwork anymore. I have however started to realize that maybe some of my problems are that i understand what must be done but i'm so worried about going to Hell that I'm not focused on living a life with a relationship with God. I'm trying to get past that but i just don't know what to do
Seeing as i'm still young-ish i am still at home, not on my own. So i'm sure you can imagine my confusion. God says to abandon all worldliness. I could do that if i was on my own but until i finish school get my license and move out I just don't understand how this is going to work. I mean i know that he says to trust him for everything and i am trying so hard to but for some reason i'm having a very hard time imagining how i would go from here if i just abandoned everything. My first thought is ya know, like a lot of people that don't finish school they end up on the streets. That's how i see my self if i don't finish school and to top it all off i'm worried that the Rapture could come sooner than expected so i get these worries that i may not have enough time
Adding to all of this i am a shut-in. I don't go anywhere so that's probably not helping either. I've also come to notice that i think i am becoming jealous of these testimonies that i watch. I urge for recognition that i am not going to Hell that i'm not focusing on what needs to be focused on. They say that "You don't find God, he finds you" I can understand that perfectly i mean if we were born without the ability to repent i can see how it can only happen if God makes it happen. But that makes no sense to me at the same time cause we know that he wants all of us to be saved. Is it me or is it THAT hard to realize how bad sin is. I mean trust me i feel bad but i'm not mourning over it like so many people have said that's what happens when you truly see how filthy we humans are.
I am just so confused and depressed i need someone to PLEASE give me something, i need moral support. I just don't know what to do
Edit: Most of my issues concerning this have already been answered below and on other pages of this thread, so i am content now. If you still wish answer this first post, go right ahead.
It's made me realize that i'm not saved, and that just terrifies me. Not only does it terrify me but it makes me worry that my family might not be saved either. And it's because of this i have been in a miniature depression for the past 2 weeks now. From the time i wake up to the time i go to sleep i sit there and worry and doubt and frighten myself, and its making it very hard to live. So I've been searching the true way to be saved. I know of it now as having a personal relationship with God himself through Jesus Christ. I've been learning that in order to receive this is through Repentance and belief in the Gospel. So i thought, okay just stop all worldly activities and major sins and i did...somewhat. My day consists of waking up, occasionally reading the Bible, or watching more videos about people that are already saved and videos about how to be saved and just things like that, i barely even do my schoolwork anymore. I have however started to realize that maybe some of my problems are that i understand what must be done but i'm so worried about going to Hell that I'm not focused on living a life with a relationship with God. I'm trying to get past that but i just don't know what to do
I am just so confused and depressed i need someone to PLEASE give me something, i need moral support. I just don't know what to do
Edit: Most of my issues concerning this have already been answered below and on other pages of this thread, so i am content now. If you still wish answer this first post, go right ahead.
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