Pushing myself...

[Criada]

((((((((((((Court)))))))))))))
Praying that today is a good day - for Andrew and for you.
Also praying that the dog recovers quickly

 

[BlondieLashes]

Thanks Criada! The vet does not know what is wrong with the dog. She has a slight fever, blood in her stool and a tender abdomen. They gave her a shot to stop the vomiting and medicine that I am to give her starting tomorrow to help her pass anything if she ate something she shouldn't have.

I am going to go to a Fall Party in Andrew's class here shortly. I am looking forward to seeing him and I pray he has a little fun. I am also praying that his morning went well. He really needs it.

Praying this afternoon and evening goes well. Last night was pure chaos starting with the flooding of the bathroom. We need a peaceful night (well at least I do!).

Thanks for caring!

 

[BlondieLashes]

The party went fairly well. I think Andrew had fun (minus all the candy, caramel apples and cupcakes that were being handed out). He was happy to see me and show me his class! I adore his teacher. She told me that she spoke to the lunch attendant that "yelled" at him yesterday and explained his situation. I appreciate that so much.

Sunny (our dog) is still sick. I wasn't even sure if I should leave her to go to the party, but she did okay. Hoping she will feel better tomorrow.

Here's praying we all have a safe, peaceful weekend!

 

[paul becke]

It's been heartening to read that things have been going a little more happily for you, lately, Court. And I know that means 'happily for Andrew', as far as you're concerned!

 

[BlondieLashes]

It's been heartening to read that things have been going a little more happily for you, lately, Court. And I know that means 'happily for Andrew', as far as you're concerned!

Thank you so much Paul!

Andrew seems to be happy this morning and the dog seems to be feeling better! Hoping for a nice weekend!

 

[Criada]

Praying that you all have a great weekend, sweetie

 

[Criada]

Praying that all is well and you are enjoying time with Andrew, sweetie

 

[BlondieLashes]

Praying that all is well and you are enjoying time with Andrew, sweetie

Hi Honey! Thanks for your prayers! This weekend has been up and down. I love Andrew to pieces and have been enjoying being with him...It's been hard with my husband. I think he is just really stressed out and over-worked. He just wants to be left alone and of course Andrew doesn't understand that and just wants to be around Daddy. Andrew has been acting up just for attention. The combination is enough to drive me crazy!

 

[Criada]

Why is it that it always falls to us mothers to try to work out all the family relationships and make excuses to people for one another? I know how it can feel like you're walking on eggshells waiting for someone to explode or say something hurtful
Praying for you all... Andrew knows how much he is loved, sweetie, and that will get him through

 

[BlondieLashes]

Thank you so much Criada! Yes, family dynamics are difficult. I just want everyone to get along. I guess I am the peacemaker...or at least I want to be.

Poor Andrew was up early worried about going to school today. I just wish he liked it. It's also snowing lightly here and I don't know how to drive in snow (none of it's sticking so far, thank God!). I'm still a CA girl at heart! I am really nervous about driving Andrew to school this morning!

 

[Criada]

Praying that the drive is easy and the snow doesn't settle, sweetie. Also that Andrew has a good day!

 

[BlondieLashes]

Thank you Criada! Just made it home from dropping Andrew off and going to the store. The snow was very light and didn't stick!

Andrew shattered my heart this morning. Mondays are so hard! He was holding me and crying and saying he was afraid that if he went to school that he would never see me again. I have the same fear and I don't know if he is picking up on my fears. It makes me feel like it's my fault. That my fears have become his.

I need him to be safe today and have a good day. I need to trust God so I can get through this day. I was driving home from the store with tears streaming down my face because I am so concerned about Andrew. I pray this stress will pass for both of us.

 

[rowantree]

((((((((((((Court)))))))))))
I think you could do with one of those. I am so sorry to hear how sad and distressed you are feeling. I so understand it, and wish I could come give you a big safe hug in person. Your love for Andrew is so great - and each of his pains, whether small or big, are your hurts too. That is how God is with us - that all of our hurts are His hurts too. And so God knows and feels all of your hurts and fears for precious Andrew. Andrew is precious to God too, and you are precious to God as well. Your husband is precious to God too and I just pray that he starts to become a little more sensitive and loving towards you and Andrew, and to play his part. I pray that he realises how much Andrew needs him and that he needs him to be a daddy. Andrew has a GREAT mom in you, and he will be OK because of that and especially because you are teaching him about Jesus too.

You did soooo well to drive today Court, with the snow and everything even if it was only light and didn't stick. Driving in snow freaks me out too and we live on a hill which makes it worse. we get cut off very easily as we face north and it never gets the sun on the road outside our house. So I do know how you must have felt this morning Court.

I am praying that the rest of the day, Jesus will help you to feel calmer and that He will comfort you and assure you that Andrew will be OK in the end. So many kids are like this with school and then they start to settle more. The school will soon get to know Andrew's particular problems and his sensitivity too, and they will help him - especially if his regular teacher is a Christian as seems likely.

You are very precious Court, and God's wonderful grace and love is in your life, and you will come through this. It is OK to cry though - tears are healing, and even Jesus cried.

Praying for you a lot today Court. Will watch for you posting again to see how you are getting on. Praying for better, calmer days for you. xx

 

[BlondieLashes]

Thank you so much rowantree! I appreciate the time you took to reply and also your prayers!

I'm a mess today. I keep crying and my stomach is really upset. I know I'm just worried about Andrew. He was just so scared and sad this morning. I've had a fear of losing him since I was pregnant with him. He's simply the one good "thing" that has happened in my life. I love him so much. It's kills me to think of anything bad ever happening to him. I pray that god will release me of this fear so I can live life. As it is right now I am pushing myself to eat today. I can barely breathe. I know this is not what God wants.

 

[Jo1]

Thank you so much rowantree! I appreciate the time you took to reply and also your prayers!

I'm a mess today. I keep crying and my stomach is really upset. I know I'm just worried about Andrew. He was just so scared and sad this morning. I've had a fear of losing him since I was pregnant with him. He's simply the one good "thing" that has happened in my life. I love him so much. It's kills me to think of anything bad ever happening to him. I pray that god will release me of this fear so I can live life. As it is right now I am pushing myself to eat today. I can barely breathe. I know this is not what God wants.

awww sorry to hear that sweetheart. Praying for you and Andrew. Much LOVE Joxxx

 

[rowantree]

Oh Court. My heart goes right out to you. I so understand about Andrew and how you feel about him. Part of me feels so glad that you have him, and the other part feels so so sad that you have had so little in your life that is as good as him.

I don't know what else to say because I feel your feelings with you, and understand them. I wish there was more I could do and say. I wish I was there to comfort you and give you a hug. This sounds like such a bad day for you. I am so sorry Court.

I will go on praying for both you and Andrew. I am lost for words, but want to say something helpful. Please, if my words are lacking, know that I care and want to send you so much love, and that I am feeling all of this with you.

(((((((((((((((((Court))))))))))))

 

[BlondieLashes]

Thank you Jo1 and rownatree. I really appreciate the prayers. rowantree- I truly know you care and it does help. Thank you. I just wish I could pull myself together. I get to leave to go get Andrew soon. I think that will help. I have a parent-teacher conference with his teacher tonight so maybe she will have some wisdom as to how to help Andrew overcome his anxieties about school. Lovely- my dog is barking at my neighbors outside. I have to go get her before I leave. Thanks again for the prayers and friendship!

 

[BlondieLashes]

I feel a bit ridiculous for all of my worry today. Turns out Andrew had a "fabulous" day! I thank the Lord! Thank you for your prayers!

 

[rowantree]

Awwww, thankyou Lord. I am so so happy for you Court. Don't you worry about seeming ridiculous. You are not. You just love Andrew so much and he is so precious to you. God bless the both of you. xx

 

[paul becke]

I feel a bit ridiculous for all of my worry today. Turns out Andrew had a "fabulous" day! I thank the Lord! Thank you for your prayers!

You're a terror, Court!