I have nearly lost faith in those who give prophecy. Nearly, that is, just nearly, there are a few I still trust... But then again, I can't be sure about my own thoughts and feelings.
I cannot say that I have ever heard a word that I felt was real. Though I always say, 'Thankyou', and say something to support the idea that it is a real word... I do not truly feel it, I am not truly sure of it. To be honest, I do not want to hurt the faith of others. I lie, basically. "It is real" I say outloud, but inside I do not believe.
Nothing ever "hits" me... Everything seems generic, easy to say. I hear wonderful things, surely, usually wonderful, sometimes bad, but never quite hitting me where I need it to hit. I sense no confirmations, and I find no confirmations. My thirst grows all the more desperate with each prophetic word I receive, and I find no satisfaction anywhere I go. Perhaps I have itching ears, in search of a teacher who would say what I want to hear? Maybe... Or maybe I have never heard anything that has addressed the question I have, that constant question, that overwhelming question that consumes me like fire every single day!!
Really, has there ever been a prophetic word that has not increased my despair? And how many others suffer as I do when they hear wonderful words, only to find later that they were lied to? The best way, I know, is to hear God directly... But then the question... If all these prophets were false, why would I ever hear from God? Is there no one in the world who hears God? How... How can they? So many contradictions... One prophet says one thing, another prophet condemns it... Benny Hinn has his words, people find gold dust on their teeth, everyone claims something... Everyone... What is real?
These are the thoughts that have developed since I was introduced to "prophecy". I came searching for something more, answers to questions that could only be answered by an omniscient and omnipotent God... Yet here I am, after all this time, with that dark pit of despair still growing inside of me! The dark pit, it suspects that there is nothing real, and it wants to be filled up with meaning... But maybe, nothing was real all along, maybe it was all delusion.
My advice... If you do not want to end up like me, seek not after prophets to give you the answers you need. Seek God, and Him alone. My faith, it has disintegrated, I feel like I am dying... So many boundaries in my way to hearing God... And I myself placed them there.
i just wanted to encourage you and to say that i have been in your place, feeling that i could not trust anyone who said that they had a "word" from the Lord...because of some things that happened to me a long time ago that i am just now understanding. much of it was because i had not learned how to hear from God for myself, and i was not really living according to God's word as i could have, consistently. BUT it does not mean that God does not use people to speak words that are from Him.
i will say, that a true word from the Lord will not bring despair, it will not carry darkness, confusion, doubt, grief, delusion, death, or anything that is contrary to the Bible. a true word from God always brings light! light to your situation, good or bad. light because the entrance of God's word brings light. God is light, and there is no darkness in Him at all. (Ps 119:130; I John 1:5) God can send somebody to correct if He wants to, but it will be done in the spirit of love, and there is always a solution (look all through the Old Testament) and a way out of the problem. God is Love!
true prophecy does not contradict itself, because there is only One God, one Holy Spirit who is speaking through those who prophesy. ( I Cor. 12, Eph. 4:5) God is not the author of confusion, but of peace!
i believe that it is a mistake to seek a man or a woman in this day, looking for a word without going to God first. that is when we end up following people who will lead us down the wrong path to despair and dark places. as far as gold dust and gold teeth, i don't see that in the Bible, so i leave that for those who believe in it.
i believe that God wants you to really talk to Him about how you feel, and to pour your heart out to Him. the Word says that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him, and if you come to Him, he will not run you away. that is the truth. (Heb. 11:5, John 6:37)
may i offer a prayer? that is what i do.
Lord Jesus look on Katana, you know and see the despair and discouragement that is in his heart, you know the depth of the pain in his soul. Lord we thank you that you came first, to give him life, and that more abundantly, according to your Word. we ask right now that you would strengthen him in his inner man to know your voice, give him the comfort that only you can give, in a way that only you can give it. give him a hunger and a thirst to read your word, and to get to know you through its pages. we ask that you would step into his life in such a way that the word becomes alive in his life, and that you would speak to him while he reads, until he is so aquainted with your voice that he would know it with clear distinction.
God you said that you sent your word, and healed them, and delivered them from all of thier destructions, not some of them, so we thank you for deliverance from darkness, from pain, from unbelief, from wavering, confusion, deception, depression and despair, we ask that you would release the oil of joy, the overflowing blessings of your spirit, and the garment of praise. let him shake the dust of the past from his feet and walk on to greater places in you, because you intend for him to be seated with You in the heavenly places, with the enemy under his feet. we thank you for increasing his faith as he hears your word, we thank you for new beginnings, we thank you for restoring the joy of his salvation because his faith will be in the power of God, and not in the works of man. we thank you and we praise you for all of your blessings and all of your works in his life. we thank you that goodness and mercy will follow him, all the days of his life, and that he will remain in your house forever,
In Your Name we pray,
Amen
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