Hi! I’m new here. I feel like I’m at a point where I just need help praying. I pray every day but nothing about my situation changes. I have several things I need help with praying for if that’s okay.
One is about my really bad anxiety. Fear of the unknown mostly. I sometimes come across things that trigger it online and trust me, I’ve taken it as a sign to not be online so much but there are times where I’m not even online and my mind is like “what if” whatever I read is true and is gonna happen? My mind tells me one thing and there’s another part of me that tells me another. It’s been a constant battle for years.
Another is my marriage. I’ve been married for 16 years. My husband is a good man but he has his issues. Mostly anger. He doesn’t take it out on me physically but over the years I can say verbally and emotionally, yes. Only to me. Not my kids. Though I do fear that them listening to him rant will affect them in some way. I stay because I’ve been told it’s a sin to divorce. I pray for him to change but he doesn’t. He always threatens every year that he’s tired and is gonna leave but he then pretends that he didn’t just go on a 10 minute rant and just apologizes and moves on. I’ve tried sitting down with him and having conversations but nothing changes. It does for a couple of weeks and then it’s back to having to hear him insult me or my family or blaming me for whatever. In the beginning, I would be sad and cry and pray. Now, I’m just tired. I do still pray but at this point, I don’t care if he leaves but I still pray for a change. I just want to be with someone who I feel truly loves me and I don’t feel that with him but as it’s a sin to divorce, I ask for your prayers.
Another prayer request is for my youngest who is nonverbal and has a learning delay. I stay home and take care of him and my other two kids who are homeschooled. I know God can heal him. If only for him to understand basic things would be the biggest blessing.
And my last prayer request is for my living situation. We lived in a house for many years where we were surrounded by inconsiderate neighbors who would party hours into the night. Play loud music until 6am sometimes. We were able to move last year and for 6 months, we were so at peace but then a house went up for sale and it was sold to a company who rents it out. I prayed for good neighbors but it’s just my luck, not two weeks when they moved in, they had a loud party. I believe the cops were called twice to their house and they still wouldn’t turn it off completely until 5am. They don’t have parties every weekend but when they do, it’s the same thing with the noise. My window is directly behind their house so it does affect my sleep.
Then the house next door went up for sale. Same thing, I prayed for good neighbors. And just my luck, it was a young couple who, the guy has modified loud truck and four wheelers and who would start parking their four wheelers on our side of the property. I’m like “ok you know what? That’s fine as long as they aren’t loud partiers like these other people” and they haven’t lived that long there to find out. But they are indoors all day and start coming and making noise starting around 7pm and they sometimes don’t go in until 2am. There have been two days where I got woken up to them screaming at the top of their lungs outside to each other at 1am. That just shows they don’t care about their neighbors because if I was new, I sure wouldn’t be acting that way. The guy revs up his four wheeler at 9am sometimes. I do pray every night for God to put it in their hearts to be a little more considerate but just as I was typing this, the renters put their music up super loud. I just want peace. Nobody in the neighborhood is like this at all. Everyone is quiet but I get surrounded on both sides by people who are disturbing my peace.
I just can’t seem to catch a break. With every aspect of my life, I just feel sad and like half of my life is over and I’ve lived it in such a sad way. I pray but it’s so hard to have hope and faith that things will change and maybe that’s my problem. So I’m asking for help. Please pray for me.
One is about my really bad anxiety. Fear of the unknown mostly. I sometimes come across things that trigger it online and trust me, I’ve taken it as a sign to not be online so much but there are times where I’m not even online and my mind is like “what if” whatever I read is true and is gonna happen? My mind tells me one thing and there’s another part of me that tells me another. It’s been a constant battle for years.
Another is my marriage. I’ve been married for 16 years. My husband is a good man but he has his issues. Mostly anger. He doesn’t take it out on me physically but over the years I can say verbally and emotionally, yes. Only to me. Not my kids. Though I do fear that them listening to him rant will affect them in some way. I stay because I’ve been told it’s a sin to divorce. I pray for him to change but he doesn’t. He always threatens every year that he’s tired and is gonna leave but he then pretends that he didn’t just go on a 10 minute rant and just apologizes and moves on. I’ve tried sitting down with him and having conversations but nothing changes. It does for a couple of weeks and then it’s back to having to hear him insult me or my family or blaming me for whatever. In the beginning, I would be sad and cry and pray. Now, I’m just tired. I do still pray but at this point, I don’t care if he leaves but I still pray for a change. I just want to be with someone who I feel truly loves me and I don’t feel that with him but as it’s a sin to divorce, I ask for your prayers.
Another prayer request is for my youngest who is nonverbal and has a learning delay. I stay home and take care of him and my other two kids who are homeschooled. I know God can heal him. If only for him to understand basic things would be the biggest blessing.
And my last prayer request is for my living situation. We lived in a house for many years where we were surrounded by inconsiderate neighbors who would party hours into the night. Play loud music until 6am sometimes. We were able to move last year and for 6 months, we were so at peace but then a house went up for sale and it was sold to a company who rents it out. I prayed for good neighbors but it’s just my luck, not two weeks when they moved in, they had a loud party. I believe the cops were called twice to their house and they still wouldn’t turn it off completely until 5am. They don’t have parties every weekend but when they do, it’s the same thing with the noise. My window is directly behind their house so it does affect my sleep.
Then the house next door went up for sale. Same thing, I prayed for good neighbors. And just my luck, it was a young couple who, the guy has modified loud truck and four wheelers and who would start parking their four wheelers on our side of the property. I’m like “ok you know what? That’s fine as long as they aren’t loud partiers like these other people” and they haven’t lived that long there to find out. But they are indoors all day and start coming and making noise starting around 7pm and they sometimes don’t go in until 2am. There have been two days where I got woken up to them screaming at the top of their lungs outside to each other at 1am. That just shows they don’t care about their neighbors because if I was new, I sure wouldn’t be acting that way. The guy revs up his four wheeler at 9am sometimes. I do pray every night for God to put it in their hearts to be a little more considerate but just as I was typing this, the renters put their music up super loud. I just want peace. Nobody in the neighborhood is like this at all. Everyone is quiet but I get surrounded on both sides by people who are disturbing my peace.
I just can’t seem to catch a break. With every aspect of my life, I just feel sad and like half of my life is over and I’ve lived it in such a sad way. I pray but it’s so hard to have hope and faith that things will change and maybe that’s my problem. So I’m asking for help. Please pray for me.