Post here when you feel like cutting

[Debi1967]

afraid to even say anything anymore

s littlenova

 

[Leechness]

this time coming to this forum and reading other's struggles just makes me feel worse. nothing is actually worse.

ive managed to not commit any act last week. and tonight i went over to a friends to prevent myself, though i havent told them the craving has been there and has built up. i ended watching a television programme about recovering self harm teenagers - in the end i took a walk - and have just got back.

i gave in. and now im hiding? i hate having peope know about what i do. nothing changes.

 

[Celtic Camel]

ok... not much to say except the obvious - feel like cutting so bad... and what really sux is that the trigger tonight was that people were nice to me!
ARGH!!!
I hate this!
and except for having to admit it to my counsellor on tues if I stuff up, I don't know if I can enough not to...

anyway, prayers appreciated if you can be bothered...

ta...

ps... don't worry - I'll always be ok.

 

[Crunchy]

I have just done it after not doing it for 4 yrs... the urge is strong and I keep calling to God to give me strength to resist and I am at a bad place and I want to do more than cut but really slice myself open and I know it is because of the darkness inside, because of the abused me. I have pushed it to the back of my mind for 4 yrs as I couldn't live with knowing what was done to me, and now is the time to try again and resolve my pain.. for I need to in order to be free in Jesus, free to be vulnerable again, free to trust.

I just hurt

 

[Kristen.NewCreation]

I know it's difficult to hang in there and to stay strong against our feelings.

Crunchy, facing your past will be painful but the end result is worth it. Do you have a counselor you can work on things with?

Have you heard of the Bible Study Breaking Free? I did that study as it helps us to look at ourselves from Christ, rather than from our abuse. I'd love to do it again, but it's hard to find a study that works with my schedule.

Celtic, hang in there. I'll be praying for you. I hear what you're saying.

Leechness, it sounds like you've been doing what you know you need to do. At times we give in to the urges, but we get back up. You can do this!

 

[Crunchy]

Crunchy, facing your past will be painful but the end result is worth it. Do you have a counselor you can work on things with?

Have you heard of the Bible Study Breaking Free? I did that study as it helps us to look at ourselves from Christ, rather than from our abuse. I'd love to do it again, but it's hard to find a study that works with my schedule.

I don't have a counsellor as yet, I really want a Christian, I have found one that does email counselling, so I am discussing this with my Pastor.

I haven't heard of Breaking Free, but I had a look and it sounds great. Though I am just starting a Freedom In Christ course, so will wait until that is finished in a few months. I am using a book to work through that is for teens, but it helps me as it is written from a Christian perspective called A Safe Place by Jan Morrison, and I want a counsellor to help me as I work through this book- leaning on God when it gets so hard!

 

[berry2000]

Struggling again. Guess i'm relapsing. I've done once a month for two months yet. I know that doesn't have to mean i'm starting up again. But it feels like it.

 

[Kristen.NewCreation]

Crunchy, I hear that book is pretty good, but I haven't read it.

Berry, what can we do to help you? What can you to do help you?

 

[ChristInAction]

I cant do this.
every single night get harder.
& i dont have much will power left to keep fighting.

Never going to beat this

 

[Kristen.NewCreation]

I cant do this.
every single night get harder.
& i dont have much will power left to keep fighting.

Never going to beat this

You are in my prayers. I believe you can get past this even though it's difficult.

 

[TwilightCat]

He says he will never tempt us more than we can take, but I am so tempted right now.

I will be a month free on Sunday if I can keep going with this, it will be the longest I've been free in about 2 years.

But I am so close to giving up.

 

[Bamboo_Chicken]

He says he will never tempt us more than we can take, but I am so tempted right now.

I will be a month free on Sunday if I can keep going with this, it will be the longest I've been free in about 2 years.

But I am so close to giving up.

You can do it Hun . What sorts of things work for you when you're tempted? To almost make a month, you must have beaten the temptation before. What types of things have you used in those times? (We also have a list of ways to beat the temptation stickied here).

 

[Kristen.NewCreation]

He says he will never tempt us more than we can take, but I am so tempted right now.

I will be a month free on Sunday if I can keep going with this, it will be the longest I've been free in about 2 years.

But I am so close to giving up.

I agree with Steffi, you can do this. You're doing good - you've been doing it for 30 days now!

 

[flying_kiwifruit]

This is too much...

 

[Debi1967]

This is too much...

bella hun I hope all is well with ya

 

[flying_kiwifruit]

bella hun I hope all is well with ya

Thanks. Got through last night ok. But things are still hard.

 

[Debi1967]

Thanks. Got through last night ok. But things are still hard.

Sorry to hear that hun but you know you are stronger than you think and I know that you can fight your way through this. Sorry I couldn't talk last night to ya hopefully I can soon

 

[ChristInAction]

I just need some support right now.
everything coming appart & tomorrows gonna be really really bad.

 

[Kristen.NewCreation]

I just need some support right now.
everything coming appart & tomorrows gonna be really really bad.

Hang in there. Take it one day at a time... try not worry today over what will happen tomorrow. worry today about what you can do today.

Hold on.

 

[katey]

i'm really really struggling right now i'm not sure how much longer i can keep fighting.