Post here when you feel like cutting

[IKTCA]

As soon as I finish typing, I will kneel and start praying.

Rupert

 

[lexidoodle]

I am not doing too good. I am one day0 meaning I cut today. I want to cut again. There is too much going on. I want to give up. I want to die.

 

[IKTCA]

That's all you get when you cut. Now you know it (though you knew it already), don't do it again. Admit you made a mistake to Jesus. That's all you need to come out of the depression. Don't dwell in misery. It's as bad as cutting. The more you delay admission of mistake to Jesus, the longer you will be in depression.

Rupert

 

[Mirelys]

My thoughts are not staying where they should. I do not want to injure myself, so I am trying to keep things in perspective.
Anyone have something cheerful I can think about? I try to pray, but if I pray too long my thoughts go where they shouldn't so I need other tactics for this battle.

 

[madison1101]

I am having a hard time tonight. I am tempted to cut, and fall off the wagon. I haven't cut since March of last year. Problem is, I have gotten rid of all my old behaviors. I don't drink, or binge, or anything else that I used to do, so I am really tempted to hurt myself now.

I am going to go to bed and cry, and pray.

 

[IKTCA]

Madison,

Someone said Jesus is a cry away. If you feel like to cry, I suggest that you do. I will pray for you as soon as I turn off the computer.



I have no suggestions for Mirelys. Someone can help her?

Rupert

 

[jesuschickseven]

Praise and worship music helps me. Sing it at the top of your lungs (if you won't disturb any one and let every word sink in. It is hard to keep your thoughts on prayer I used to have a hard time with it especially at church (there was a really cute guy in youth group )

You just have to pray that God will help you keep your thoughts on him and have faith that he will. It will take time and practice until you learn to discipline your own mind.

Ask someone else to pray for you

 

[katey]

i am new on here, but this caught my eye. i have been cutting for over year now for one reason or another. and today has been so hard and was thiking about it before i came on here which was the main reason i came online anyway.this wekk and l;ast week have been really bad and had to get treatment during the week because i got that upset and stressed. dperession is gettin me down so much aswell as other bits. i don't think i can cope with it much loger. i have tried praying but it doesn't seem to coem out right or soemthing distracts me. even listening to worship music isnt helping any more. please help if any one can.

 

[Judy02]

I feel like cutting right now. I don't know why. I just feel sad all of the sudden... I thank You for the sky, I thank You for my Mom, I thank You for my sister, my brother, all of my family... I thank You for music, I thank You for flowers and snow and everything good. I thank You for my friends on Christian forums, I thank you Father that you love me and care about me, that you sent you only son to die and rise again for me. I thank You for Your tender mercies, I thank You for Your loving kindness. I thank You for my puppy Mercy. I thank You for watching over me. For helping me daily. For helping me live. I thank You for our apartment for not many always have a home, I thank You for the food You give us for nourishment for many have very little, I thank You for Christmas for peace and hope was born, I thank You for beauty. I thank You that I am never alone. I thank You that You always provide a way out for us. I thank You for Your Holy Spirit. I thank You for Your Holy word. I thank You for being my Father, for being there for me, for never deserting me. I thank You for Spring, Summer, Winter, and Fall. I thank You for all that You have done, are doing, and will do in my Life. I thank You for all who seek out Your will in their lives. I thank You for those who are struggling as I am to do the right thing. I thank You for hearing me in my distress and for holding me in Your arms. I thank You for the stars Father, I thank You for the sea. I thank You for poetry and self expression. I thank You that we are in a country that is free. I thank You for our leaders. I thank You that we can sing and dance and worship You, Lord. I thank You for providing for us because You never had to. I thank You for Your grace because I don't deserve it. I thank You for Your Holy Kingdom, Your Holy angels... I thank You for always protecting me and comforting me. I thank you for being the Lord of the universe and the restorer of my soul. Be with me now oh Lord. I thank You for this day and days to come. In Jesus name, Amen.

I REALLY feel better now... I don't feel like it anymore. This is great. Thanks for having this!!!!!!!!!!!! My joy is back!!!!

Hi lily, ur prayer was beautiful! J and really encouraging 4 me. It takes a lot of strength to praise god, and lift up ur voice to him when ur feeling so low, and life is hard. It made me feel better reading that, and just remembering who god was, and how much he has done for me in my life before. Just reminded me how lucky I am to know god and have him to talk to…as so so many don’t have this, and we are so lucky. Our names are written in the book of life and we are guaranteed a place in heaven! Praise god. Thanx 4 ur encouraging post, I hope ur feeling a bit better at the moment. Huge hugs! Judy xxx

 

[Mirelys]

I have other people praying for me, but hearing or saying prayers triggers me really really bad
Have been listening to instrumental music though. That helps some.

 

[lexidoodle]

haha...I really really want to cut right now...I have made so many attempts at suicide...in the past 2 weeks I have OD'd on many kinds of drugs. I am not having a good time.

 

[Judy02]

haha...I really really want to cut right now...I have made so many attempts at suicide...in the past 2 weeks I have OD'd on many kinds of drugs. I am not having a good time.

I am praying for u lexidoodle, and that god will give u a desire to live!! He loves u and has a purpose for ur life.
has anything happened to make u feel like this? xx

 

[katey]

help. im not doing good at all. have had a really bad day and just want to end it all. some one said to me today that it my fault am still stuck here that am not getting over the things that happend to me. well guess what they were right its all my fault how am feeling now. what happened to me everythingas my fault. maybe it would just be better if i wans't here at all.

its not fair. am scared. i don't klnow what to do.

 

[iwillfollow]

praying for you katey and all here

Nice of that person to 'clarify' the situation by assuring you it was all your fault.

Jesus said in effect, "It's all my fault." You know, as in 'He became sin for us' on the Cross, and so on.

Matthew 7:1 Judge not, that ye be not judged.

So if that person blames you, blame is judged back on them by God, and they are to blame. If you don't judge, you won't be judged.

Not that it matters when you're thinking about cutting. I think all compulsion to do any kind of sin, cutting included, falls at least to some extent under James 5:16 Confess your faults one to another, and pray one for another, that ye may be healed. The effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much.

So it's like, people here or at Prayer Requests are confessing sins, asking prayers, asking 'What do I do about it?' and 'How do I stop?'

According to James 5:16, you're doing it. People are confessing and asking prayer, just like it says, and that's all it says there. So then they ask, Help me, tell me how to find an answer.

I'm thinking, they're telling about it, praying and asking prayer, so they're doing what James said to do. That is; talk and pray about it.

So I would say, keep on talking and praying about it. Every time the impulse hits you, get on CF and talk abouit and ask prayers, or offer prayers to others. If the impulse hits you repeatedly, then you need to come to CF and do that talking and praying or asking prayers repeatedly. There is no one-time magic instant cure; like a spiritual Scrubbing Bubbles for sin. But there is CF, and PMing CFers, and all that. Does that make any kind of sense, or am I babbling (sometimes I wonder)?

Furthermore, we're all Christian soldiers. Christ said, 'If My kingdom were of this world, then would my servants fight.' Soldiers never fight alone, if they can fight in formation. So we should not try to fight satan alone, but 'in formation', like this; . Or like here on CF in a forum thread.

Besides, we were never meant to face the world alone. We were intended to be eternally indwelt by the Holy Spirit, surrounded by other believers. So this points back to James 5:16 about talking about it and praying and asking prayers.

And then you say, 'But I'm still doing it', and that's where I say that I think coming here and posting about it is plugging right into James 5:16. And like I say, if the urge keeps hitting you, I'd say keep coming to CF, or going to a minister who knows what a Bible is for besides looking religious for photo sessions, and talking about it.

Every time you share with someone, you're putting the image of that person into your memory. Each time you get an impulse to cut, you strengthen the image of that good person's counsel in your heart and mind, by telling them about it every time. And that's plugging into James 5:16 too. It's got to be someone who will listen, not condemn, and who is trustworthy not to talk it around loosely. If you can get '2 or 3 gathered together' who are like that, there's a Scripture praising that too. But even if it's just you and one other Christian, that's two, and so Christ is in your midst. If He said it, you can believe it.

I'm 'not' an expert or professional. I honestly and sincerely hope my words here may help more than they offend or hurt or confuse. May our Risen Lord Jesus never leave you nor forsake you in your grief and sadness.

help. im not doing good at all. have had a really bad day and just want to end it all. some one said to me today that it my fault am still stuck here that am not getting over the things that happend to me. well guess what they were right its all my fault how am feeling now. what happened to me everythingas my fault. maybe it would just be better if i wans't here at all.

its not fair. am scared. i don't klnow what to do.

 

[jesuschickseven]

i am new on here, but this caught my eye. i have been cutting for over year now for one reason or another. and today has been so hard and was thiking about it before i came on here which was the main reason i came online anyway.this wekk and l;ast week have been really bad and had to get treatment during the week because i got that upset and stressed. dperession is gettin me down so much aswell as other bits. i don't think i can cope with it much loger. i have tried praying but it doesn't seem to coem out right or soemthing distracts me. even listening to worship music isnt helping any more. please help if any one can.

First of all I am praying for you! Secondly you need to find some supportive christians to pray for you, if you don't know any ask God to place some in your life and then go explore some local youth groups.
It is obvious that the devil is trying to distract you and drive you into the ground. He not only wants to hurt you by seperating you from God and making you feel terrible, but he feels threatened by you. He fears what you could do if you stood strong on your faith and rebuked him. He fears what great work you might do for God. He's afraid you might lead other people to christ and help many suffering people. He is afraid of what you could become. Therefore, he will do ANYTHING AND EVERTHING to hurt you make you feel miserable and distract you from God.
It is NOT your fault how you feel! This is a spiritual battle against satan and you can only win by saying:

"In the name of Jesus I rebuke you Satan and the hold you have over by thoughts. In the name of Jesus I bind you away from me and you will not distract me from God anymore!"

Believe in the power of prayer and have faith that god will rescue you! Pray your hardest and when your mind starts to wander pray some more!

Pm me anytime I'm praying for you!

 

[eastside9008]

ive really got the urge right now. i havent been feeling emotionaly well lately, and i feel like im at my lowest point. i feel like i have nothing more to give to this world. i dont know what to do. the urge is so strong...i just wanna be happy again but i feel like thats not gonna happen and i dont know how much longer i can take it. its been around 3 months since i last cut, and i dont i can hold on much longer until i can no longer resist the urge

 

[katey]

things arent going great still. last thursday i had a really bad day and people were gettin my down all day and it wasn't helping ho i was feeling and i felt really low throughout the night and i was stupid. i nearly took and od. but i didn't and i realsied that God's telling me i needed to get the help i had been putting off for so long. so i did it. and i have the help at the moment its short term because i see the crisis team everyday. my mum found out and has kicked me out of the house which made things a lot worse. this is my last option before i go into hospital. am scared because i don't trust myself.

 

[Mirelys]

Yuck. Haven't done so well this week. I went to my sister and my close friend for support, which got me in trouble with my DH, but helped a lot. Now they know that I'm struggling with this and will help keep me accountable not to hurt myself.
Still struggling though, struggling a lot. Yesterday I made hospital plans as a last resort, so that I have a last resort before hurting myself, you know? Then I don't feel so trapped.
I am so confused. These are new problems for me.

 

[BLESSED_KiSSY]

i have quit cutting, and i havent been cutting for about two weeks and six days now....

....the temptation is coming back though.

 

[katey]

am really strugling right now. i don't know what to do. my minds a mess aswell as my feeling and thoughts. i'm trying my best to resist the temptatiosn but am so low at the moment. i cnt even get hold of the people who can help me beause my mobiles playing up