(Please keep in mind while reading this, that English is not my native language)
How shall I start....
Music has been a huge part of my life, and it has always had a huge impact on me. I've never been the basic "mainstream" kid, who only listens to music from the top-charts, and I love to look for and discover new music. Well, lately I've gotten really into rock music.
First it started with classic rock (like 60's 70's stuff) and it has gone more "hardcore" ever since. And the impact, that this kind of music has had on me has not been very good. First I got very depressed (it wasn't just because of the music, but I feel like the music had something to do with that as well)
I'm lucky enough to go to a christian school, so I asked my friends to pray for me, and I realized that I had to let rock go.
I deleted my rock-playlists from Spotify, and lived on happily
until....
I got depressed again. And this time it was much worse and those thoughts of harming myself sadly became actions.
One night I was sitting in my room crying, and God healed me. I don't remember much from it, but after that I've fought against depression, and I haven't had suicidal thoughts in months.
Well... I've gotten really in to rock again. And the way that it makes me feel is not very christian-like. It makes me want to rebel, it makes me want to do all kinds of inappropriate and violent things, that I'm sure shouldn't belong to a christian's life. It has also made me curse more.
Now I know what you might be thinking:
"Just stop listening to rock"
It's really not that easy. Trust me. When you're not only obsessed with the music, but obsessed with the people in the band.
"Just listen to christian rock"
The only difference between christian and non-christian rock are the words. Rock is a music style, that makes you want to rebel. Rock's original cause has been to rebel, and that's not what God wants. I know, that some people don't think the same way as I do, but I don't believe, that "christian" rock truly exists. Please help me! I don't know what to do. I'm starting to love this world more than God...
I'm truly thankful, if you read that whole paragraph/ramble.
And I'm reminding you once again:
I'm not an eight-year old, I'm just not a native speaker, so my English can be a bit tacky.
How shall I start....
Music has been a huge part of my life, and it has always had a huge impact on me. I've never been the basic "mainstream" kid, who only listens to music from the top-charts, and I love to look for and discover new music. Well, lately I've gotten really into rock music.
First it started with classic rock (like 60's 70's stuff) and it has gone more "hardcore" ever since. And the impact, that this kind of music has had on me has not been very good. First I got very depressed (it wasn't just because of the music, but I feel like the music had something to do with that as well)
I'm lucky enough to go to a christian school, so I asked my friends to pray for me, and I realized that I had to let rock go.
I deleted my rock-playlists from Spotify, and lived on happily
until....
I got depressed again. And this time it was much worse and those thoughts of harming myself sadly became actions.
One night I was sitting in my room crying, and God healed me. I don't remember much from it, but after that I've fought against depression, and I haven't had suicidal thoughts in months.
Well... I've gotten really in to rock again. And the way that it makes me feel is not very christian-like. It makes me want to rebel, it makes me want to do all kinds of inappropriate and violent things, that I'm sure shouldn't belong to a christian's life. It has also made me curse more.
Now I know what you might be thinking:
"Just stop listening to rock"
It's really not that easy. Trust me. When you're not only obsessed with the music, but obsessed with the people in the band.
"Just listen to christian rock"
The only difference between christian and non-christian rock are the words. Rock is a music style, that makes you want to rebel. Rock's original cause has been to rebel, and that's not what God wants. I know, that some people don't think the same way as I do, but I don't believe, that "christian" rock truly exists. Please help me! I don't know what to do. I'm starting to love this world more than God...
I'm truly thankful, if you read that whole paragraph/ramble.
And I'm reminding you once again:
I'm not an eight-year old, I'm just not a native speaker, so my English can be a bit tacky.