please help me

[Spunkn]

Praying for you

 

[knw1991]

During prayer two people said that they strongly felt I was molested. One said by an uncle but I don't recall any memories unless I pushed them away. Every time I find hope it goes away. I'm giving up there is clearly no hope for me. Nothing can save me

 

[Spunkn]

I still believe there's plenty of hope for you

 

[knw1991]

There's not its just another burden to add
I give up

 

[knw1991]

Maybe if I stay away from real Christians and stop thinking I belong ill be ok. As soon as I just accept that I'll never be happy I can expect pain and it won't be such a disappointment. This may work

 

[knw1991]

Still can't sleep ugh lol

 

[Spunkn]

Maybe if I stay away from real Christians and stop thinking I belong ill be ok. As soon as I just accept that I'll never be happy I can expect pain and it won't be such a disappointment. This may work

Thinking that you will never be happy and that you'll always be in pain won't make you happy.

Stay away from Christians, doesn't that sound like something Satan would tell you to do?

 

[knw1991]

i dont belong and im not one, it just sets me up for more rejection and disappointment to think theres hope and then it fades away.

 

[Spunkn]

I don't believe that's true.

 

[Javanwarbler]

i dont belong and im not one, it just sets me up for more rejection and disappointment to think theres hope and then it fades away.

Remember that satan doesn't like it when we get closer to God and will try his darndest to make it really hard for us...the closer we step toward God the harder satan tries his tricks...he wants us to think we don't belong to God or are counted among His people


I'll be still praying for you too!

 

[knw1991]

Thank you Javanwarbler, you're right. I just want to be free from the burden of rejection, but I don't know how to be set free.

 

[Javanwarbler]

Thank you Javanwarbler, you're right. I just want to be free from the burden of rejection, but I don't know how to be set free.

I don't believe ANYONE ever is totally free from rejection until they leave this sinful world and be with Jesus. Even the most likeable people will still experience some type of rejection in this life (ie being turned down for a job, not being invited somewhere, etc.).

Because we're imperfect, people will always disappoint us and let us down, but God never will, even though to us it SEEMS that way.

I hate rejection too and had my fair share of it. Lately, I've gotten a lot of it with employers.

Just keep talking (keep being real and honest with Him as you do, and literally pour your heart out to Him) to God and be specific, too, in what you say to Him. Meditate on scripture that offers hope and security and know HE will never reject you! Here are some specific verses about rejection that i hope will encourage you!
Psalm 27:10
“Even if my father and mother abandon me, the Lord will hold me close.”

2 Timothy 4: 16 – 17 “At my first defense no one stood with me, but all forsook me. May it not be charged against them. But the Lord stood with me and strengthened me, so that the message might be preached fully through me, and that all the Gentiles might hear. Also I was delivered out of the mouth of the lion. ”

Luke 12:6-7 “Are not five sparrows sold for two copper coins? And not one of them is forgotten before God. But the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Do not fear therefore; you are of more value than many sparrows.”

2 Corinthians 4:7-9 “But we have this treasure in earthen vessels, that the excellency of the power may be of God, and not of us. We are troubled on every side, yet not distressed; we are perplexed, but not in despair; Persecuted, but not forsaken; cast down, but not destroyed. ”

Deuteronomy 31:8 “It is the Lord who goes before you. He will be with you; he will not fail you or forsake you. Do not fear or be dismayed. ”

 

[knw1991]

I've poured out my heart before and sometimes there's no words to express how I feel. I keep giving up which is pushing God away and delaying healing. I was told that praise and worship needs to be done but I can't bring myself to do that. God just seems cold and distant and wants people to pursue him but what about the people who need assurance that they're loved and that they will make it.

 

[dhh712]

i am anxious and worried about my future. i dont know God's plan for my life, im pursuing becoming a physician assistant but im afraid i wont get accepted into a program because its very competitive. on the other hand im not even sure if im in God's will in pursuing a career as a physician assistant. at times i feel hopeless about my future. i wonder if i'll ever find the right man and get married and have a family, i also think of how broken my life is. im 22 and still single, i am still hurt by my father not being around and being nonchalant about the pain his absence in my life has caused me.

I'm sorry--I know not much to say for I feel our beliefs are vastly different concerning ourselves and the purpose of our relationships to God so I don't want to wound someone further when they are feeling down.

I share your concern in the paragraph I've quoted from you here. I'm 33 now and single though I don't wish to be. There are times when I really feel crushed being alone and--being that my life was going along real happily being alone before I was converted by God I sometimes wonder what the purpose of it is to place the longing for a family in me which I never wanted before now. Sometimes I think it is cruel (yet know that such thoughts are influenced by satanic forces).

Nevertheless, I must take comfort in how all things work to good for those who love God and know that sometimes we don't understand how it might be good for us, but that it is. And we must know that because we trust Him and not anything of this world.

Personally, I am beginning to see depression as similar to a mind being damaged by a stroke (though not producing the heinous physical incapacities which may result from such a terrible disease, so I do not wish to make that correlation). Last Sunday I was gifted to hear a lovely sermon which contained the thought that nothing can separate us from the love of God--even if a stroke should occur: the mind is damaged--but even that can not separate us from it because nothing can; even though our mind cannot know it, we are loved by Him.

I see depression as having a damaged mind that can't know the love God has for us for we feel so horribly about things which we really shouldn't be feeling because we are adopted children of God. It's a disease of chemical imbalances, but it still affects the mind and damages it in a way which makes us think corrupted things which aren't true.

I've hurried through my post for I have work to get back to, but I hope you are feeling better. My own depression occurs in vicious cycles where I am attacked by acute, rather severe cases, the last which occurred over the weekend. It gets better slowly, but up to now God has been gracious enough to eventually make it so that my mind can comprehend (as much as possible in this world) His enduring love for us.