Please give me a reason to live!!

[breadbox]

I know exactly what you are going through and it is very, very painful. My husband lied and cheated and then left me 5 days ago, but you musn't lose hope! Pray for a miracle! Pray without ceasing. The Lord has heard my prayers and he will hear yours too. Even if it looks like there is no hope, sit still, pray, and watch. You may get anxious, and nervous, and worried, and angry and sad but these are all feelings we feel when someone we love has abandoned us. I would know, I am an orphan. God has given me wondeful friends that are much like family and I am so grateful. Ask God to soften her heart so she may hear him, continously pray and fast and show God you are willing to do his will and he will bless you.

I know this is silly, but I am crying as I write this because it reminds me so much of what I am going through.

Someone once told me, when God takes something away, it's because he has something better in store for you.

Ask what God has in store for you, it may be something really amazing, sometimes it just takes time.

"Heal the brokenhearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives, and the opening of the prisn to those who are bound...To comfort all who mourn, to console those who mourn in Zion, to give them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; that they may be called trees of ritouesness, the planting of the Lord, that he may be glorified."

Isiah 61:1-3

 

[ChristianMama84]

 

[TragicKingdom]

Thanks for the support and prayers. They are needed.

Troy

 

[janripe]

Don't give up Jesus loves you.

 

[Onlythingavailable]

Praying.

 

[chosenpath]

Where in God's word does it say if you put off the former conduct and are renewed in the spirit of your mind you are doing wrong. No where so why are you blaming yourself. Be very careful of satan's maledictions.
Psalm 38:20
Those also who render evil for good, They are my adversaries, because I follow [what is] good.

Romans 12:9,21
[Let] love [be] without hypocrisy. Abhor what is evil. Cling to what is good.

Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.

I'm praying for you and your daughter. Keep strong so she will recall to her mind the former things she has been taught.

1Corinthians 15:33
Do not be deceived: "Evil company corrupts good habits."

 

[Criada]

I am glad you bumped this thread, Troy.. thanks.
I am still praying for you and yours brother.
How are things going?

 

[TragicKingdom]

I Am not sure of any direction for my spiritual life. I seemed to give up on that part of my life because when I clung to it and to god, it seemed that every bad thing that could happen did happen. No matter how much I prayed, how much I cried out to god, all that happened was things got worse.

I ended up in therapy after trying to end my life, and just could not endure the pain any more. I know that it says that god will never give you more then you can handle. But I could handle no more. and it was not getting better. Maybe I am just a weak man. But when I quit praying and quit asking for help from my father in heaven then things quit hurting as much.

I do not understand, but I have not the stregth to go back to the pain that I was in, but have lost my way in this dreadful world at the same time. I fear for my walk and everlasting, but know not where to turn, as I cannot endure what I went through again.

I know that this is just a short time, and that the rest lasts for eternity, but why would he not have taken me home to be with him when I had nothing left, and allowed me to continue on as a man walking without his faith. Life is empty but painless now...if you can understand that.

I do not see gods hand in everything and have to look to see joy in my world. So what is the trade off, a life without joy in exchange for a life without horrible pain? How can I choose horrible mental anguish and the desire to die to walk with god, and why must that be my fate? I cannot turn around to see that pain, and write about it now in anguish that I do not feel much any more because of my lack of faith and turning from God.

What am I to do? How do I live like this? Why would God want this for me?
I am getting depressed just writing this down, but I need someones help on here to find my way.

 

[Stephanie7]

Could it be that God carried you through your difficult time?

I can't say I have all the answers because I don't, I've been through some difficult times myself, all I know is that God doesn't give up on His children, He promised to help them when they cry out and He asks that we believe in Him, so all I can think is that God is still silently working on the answer even though it still isn't evident to you or anyone else. Keep the faith, believe until the answer is evident and You know in Your heart that God has answered. Sometimes God's answer comes in the form of "Wait, Yes, or No" When we pray, God will give us absolutely what is best for us even if that means no to our prayer request. If the answer is "no" then don't worry He has something much better planned for your life. Or He may choose to tell you to wait, maybe He needs time to change your heart or the other person's heart or maybe He needs time to change circumstances before He can answer.

I really don't believe that God wants any of us to suffer unless it be allowed by the most High God, but usually suffering is satan's work. Don't give up, have faith and wait on God.

Father God, as I said I don't have the answers. You know this person's circumstances and You know what is best for him. I pray that it be in thy Will that he will have his prayer answered as he has requested, but if the answer is "no" then I ask that You will restore him and give him Your best so he will have a happy and peaceful life. Bless this one today, In Jesus Name, Amen

 

[scjohnson1973]

Will be praying for you brother. Please don't give up on God. God knows what is best for you. He will carry you through these difficult times. Trust in him and give it all to him

 

[Orris]

I can not begin to imagine the pain you live with. But I do know God's word is true. What does it say about you?
ficm.org/whoiam.htm

I know a Christian counselor who you could talk to (whose wife left him). Would you like to connect with him?

 

[mom_one]

you are in my prayers

 

[OpenDoor]

praying for you

 

[gracechick]

I Am not sure of any direction for my spiritual life. I seemed to give up on that part of my life because when I clung to it and to god, it seemed that every bad thing that could happen did happen. No matter how much I prayed, how much I cried out to god, all that happened was things got worse.

I ended up in therapy after trying to end my life, and just could not endure the pain any more. I know that it says that god will never give you more then you can handle. But I could handle no more. and it was not getting better. Maybe I am just a weak man. But when I quit praying and quit asking for help from my father in heaven then things quit hurting as much.

I do not understand, but I have not the stregth to go back to the pain that I was in, but have lost my way in this dreadful world at the same time. I fear for my walk and everlasting, but know not where to turn, as I cannot endure what I went through again.

I know that this is just a short time, and that the rest lasts for eternity, but why would he not have taken me home to be with him when I had nothing left, and allowed me to continue on as a man walking without his faith. Life is empty but painless now...if you can understand that.

I do not see gods hand in everything and have to look to see joy in my world. So what is the trade off, a life without joy in exchange for a life without horrible pain? How can I choose horrible mental anguish and the desire to die to walk with god, and why must that be my fate? I cannot turn around to see that pain, and write about it now in anguish that I do not feel much any more because of my lack of faith and turning from God.

What am I to do? How do I live like this? Why would God want this for me?
I am getting depressed just writing this down, but I need someones help on here to find my way.

I don't know that I can offer much more wisdom then has already been given, but know that my thoughts and prayers are for you my brother. I am incredibly sorry you are facing all of this. Indeed none of us know from one day to the next what may happen in our lives. Even Jesus said don't try to take anymore then one day at a time as each has its' own individual trials and heartaches.

I have in a way been where you are so I would encourage you to find a group of Christians that meet and discuss marriage and relationship problems. Also maybe go to your local Christian book store and ask for recommendations along the lines of your need.

Don't run or hide from those around you that are willing to pray for and support you as that is a major lifeline. Sometimes just opening up you will be suprised how many marriages have gone through similiar circumstances and many of these people have survived it all and continue to run the race.

I will never forget that time in my life when I said God why? I cannot carry this weight anymore and what have I done to deserve what has happened in my life? Not only were we struggling financially, someone whom I trusted had started a horrible lie about me and on and on the problems went.
Suddenly I see this picture of Jesus in my mind. I see his head bowed with the crown of thorns and His hands nailed to the cross. Then the Lord said You don't have to carry it, because I am. That was a life changing moment.

Keep your focous on Christ, because the devil is nothing but a lieing and stealing machine that cares nothing for anyone. he lives for dragging any soul into hell he can dig his claws into as he does not want to lord it over and empty waste land when Jesus puts him in his rightful place.

Keep pressing on as each day we are one day closer to being with Jesus. And there is No ONe that loves and can heal and help you like the Lord

 

[TragicKingdom]

Thanks for your words of support, it is just so hard to want to even run the race anymore, as it is more like a gambit we are running where everyone is trying to stop you and beat you down then a race where it is you and the road heading to the finish line.

Races are supposed to be something where you know where the finish line is at andyou head there with the intention of crossing it no matter what. Not to have bystanders jump out at you and try to kill you in route to the end, or to have the race officials change the rules/route half way through.

This race is too much, it has no peaceful part to it anymore, and all I see is pain when I run it.

I hope that everyone understands what I am saying.

 

[Criada]

Troy, I am glad you are back, but so sorry things are so hard. I don't have any answers... I have sent the last few weeks in a psychiatric hospital myself, and know how dark things can feel.
But, somewhere, I am sure that there is a plan, and an end, or at least a lessening of the pain. I keep going back to the anguish of some of the psalms... written by 'a man after God's heart', who knew despair, but was mightily used by God, and rejoiced after his despair.

It's just words, I know. And the fact that they are true words doesn't make it easier, but, perhaps, it is something to hang on to.

You are, as always, in my prayers, brother.

 

[Philothei]

Thanks for your words of support, it is just so hard to want to even run the race anymore, as it is more like a gambit we are running where everyone is trying to stop you and beat you down then a race where it is you and the road heading to the finish line.

Races are supposed to be something where you know where the finish line is at andyou head there with the intention of crossing it no matter what. Not to have bystanders jump out at you and try to kill you in route to the end, or to have the race officials change the rules/route half way through.

This race is too much, it has no peaceful part to it anymore, and all I see is pain when I run it.

I hope that everyone understands what I am saying.

Prayers TK. I had years of trials myself I know how it is .... it is not fun but there is a purpose to it. Like Job we are suffering but the evil one never prevails... Christ is next to you my friend even if you canno feel Him TRUST HIM

 

[gracechick]

Brother don't let the prize become dim as Jesus neever fails. And He is with us and we will be like Him in the end in a world that there is no comparison too. Hang on.

 

[IamGodsProperty]

I am here if you want to talk. I've been where you are before, and i thank God that He showed me the purpose for my life. Please, we're all here for you. God has a wonderful purpose for your life

 

[pixies27]

I am praying for you Troy I have been where you are right now and I can relate to your apin and sorrow but please know that God does love you and has a purpose for you in time he will show you but taking your life is not the awnser ,it will only serve to hurt the one's who love you the most and from what I am reading you have alot to live for trust and have faith in God he is always with you in times of pain and sorrow and joy and happiness he is always there for you if you feel you need to talk some more please feel free to pm me or I am on the prayer team if you would like I can say a prayer for you and ask my fellow prayer team members to pray for you as well. May God Bless you everthing will work out for the best