people i need help!

[Kostilaks]

My brother asked my help for something.

Suddenly, an intrusive thought popped up that if I help him, it will count as a broken promise.

I got anxious and i was bored on the same time, so I decided not to help him. as i was keep doing my business, my subconscious was full of thoughts like

-oh no, i must not help my brother because of these intrusive thoughts-it will count as a broken promise- i must not help him- but they are just intrusive thoughts- (jokingly) what if meant it?-how it would look like if i was really meaning it? (at that moment, i imagined myself making the intrusive thought as a prayer)- oh no, now, i must not help my brother, hahahaha-

My brother kept insisting and i was forced to help him. i worry if I broke a promise because of my intrusive thoughts. it was not one. they were many that lasted about 7 seconds. i was just paying attention elsewhere and i did not stopped them. usually, i freak out and i stop them and pray that they are just intrusive thoughts. but this time, i just let them pass, i just ignored them and on the same time, i was having other thoughts as a joke. i do not know if these thoughts that popped up as a joke were meant or not. i worry because i did not feel worried when they popped up but i just make fun of them and i worry if, accidentally, meant them.

i should have said "no, they are thoughts without my will" but I kept making fun of my intrusive thoughts. why i did that? everything happened so fast. it lasted about 7 seconds. and now i am worried and confused. did i meant it or not?

instead of saying that they are just intrusive thoughts, i made fun of them and acted for a second, as if they count. why i did that?

 

[URA]

I really don't know what to say, but it seems like your heart is in the right place. Just try to do good & trust God with the rest. Far easier said than done, but "fight the good fight" would be a worthless phrase if there wasn't going to be struggles.

This video is more general than your particular issue, but I pray that you will find a bit of help from this reflection on the Apostle Thomas:

Peace & all good,
Alex

 

[eleos1954]

My brother asked my help for something.

Suddenly, an intrusive thought popped up that if I help him, it will count as a broken promise.

I got anxious and i was bored on the same time, so I decided not to help him. as i was keep doing my business, my subconscious was full of thoughts like

-oh no, i must not help my brother because of these intrusive thoughts-it will count as a broken promise- i must not help him- but they are just intrusive thoughts- (jokingly) what if meant it?-how it would look like if i was really meaning it? (at that moment, i imagined myself making the intrusive thought as a prayer)- oh no, now, i must not help my brother, hahahaha-

My brother kept insisting and i was forced to help him. i worry if I broke a promise because of my intrusive thoughts. it was not one. they were many that lasted about 7 seconds. i was just paying attention elsewhere and i did not stopped them. usually, i freak out and i stop them and pray that they are just intrusive thoughts. but this time, i just let them pass, i just ignored them and on the same time, i was having other thoughts as a joke. i do not know if these thoughts that popped up as a joke were meant or not. i worry because i did not feel worried when they popped up but i just make fun of them and i worry if, accidentally, meant them.

i should have said "no, they are thoughts without my will" but I kept making fun of my intrusive thoughts. why i did that? everything happened so fast. it lasted about 7 seconds. and now i am worried and confused. did i meant it or not?

instead of saying that they are just intrusive thoughts, i made fun of them and acted for a second, as if they count. why i did that?

How about if you want to help someone just do so and don't worry about it? If you can't or don't have a happy heart when you help someone then don't help them.

 

[Gkst]

Don't be worried much, it not good for your OCD. When the thought come, you might tell god in your mind likes "I'm sorry". And then, move on. Don't try to think about it. Because the thought that suddenly pop up, it actually OCD in my opinion. And it not your fault. But when you try to think about it, more thought will come, and you will feel likes it your thought because you focus and thought about those. Even which it might come from OCD also. And in the end of the day, you might spend time praying to God before you go to sleep.

I don't know if you searching about other peoples' OCD stories or not.But I suggest don't try to read others OCD stories. You can search for a ocd recovery tips, somethingslike that, but not about other people OCD struggle.Because base on my stories, My ocd get worst after trying to read others' stories. It semms like I started to get ocd struggle likes them.

*sorry for my bad english.