I think since childhood, that other people talk bad about me. That I never can trust people. That everyone talks bad about me. That is where ever I go. There is not a safe place in this world for me.
At times it really stressed me out and of course broke my heart.
It is torture, a modern form of torture. So the medication helps to keep me less hurt and calm.
As usual I talk to God about my problems and yesterday he said or it came up in my head quite extensive in the foreground, that I should write a diary about it. "Because it should not be like this", that it is abnormal behavior. I thought then to write a diary, and write everything down even if it doesn't make any sense in order to find out how to heal it.
At times it really stressed me out and of course broke my heart.
It is torture, a modern form of torture. So the medication helps to keep me less hurt and calm.
As usual I talk to God about my problems and yesterday he said or it came up in my head quite extensive in the foreground, that I should write a diary about it. "Because it should not be like this", that it is abnormal behavior. I thought then to write a diary, and write everything down even if it doesn't make any sense in order to find out how to heal it.