OCD intrusive thoughts

[Rgrhm91]

Hello, my name is Rgrhm, and I've been struggling with OCD. The problem is that I keep having thoughts about the mark of the beast. For example: I'll do something, and when there is about to be a outcome, I'll get the thought: "I'll get the mark of the beast if X (replace X with an action) happens". Sometimes X does happen and I worry. I used to think thoughts of selling my soul when there was about to be a outcome, but I was able to get rid of those thoughts by telling my self that God owns me and there is no way that I can sell my soul. The thoughts stopped, but now I get thoughts about the mark of the beast and I've been obsessing over it constantly. I also get blasphemous thoughts about Jesus and the holy spirit. I have other thoughts, but these are the main ones I get on a a daily basis.

I tried praying, but it seems to not be working, or maybe I have to be patient, but I don't know. I understand you have the apply faith, but I've been lacking in that, or maybe I do have faith, and I don't understand. God, may of sent me a psychiatrist, but I don't want to think its the psychiatrist helping me, and not God. Sometimes I wonder if they are really my own thoughts because sometimes, by doing different actions, I'm able to trigger different negative thoughts.


I wonder, how do I know if some of these thoughts (like blasphemy) are really my own?

I feel distant from God a lot. Sometimes, I also have doubts about God. Its a huge struggle to read the bible because I end up doubting. Also, when I pray and repent, I don't feel like I'm being serious, and I wonder if I'm really saved, or if I did blasphemy.

 

[Bananagator]

OCD's a complicated thing - it makes you think things that you normally wouldn't and makes you question everything.
Since these thoughts are bothering you as much as they are, it sounds like it's just your OCD talking. God knows your heart, anyway. He knows what you're going through, try to be patient and keep asking him to help you

 

[redblue22]

knowing God is aware of the ocd helps me.

 

[Rgrhm91]

Thanks for the replies.
I've tried asking God multiple times, but it seems to not be working for me. Maybe I just have to wait, but I feel like things are just getting worse.


I hate these thoughts. Sometimes when I pray, I feel like a jerk to God, and I ask for forgiveness constantly. I also have a problem where I sometimes bite or punch my self when I keep having bad thoughts. It's a constant problem, but I will keep on waiting.

 

[Gods warrior 1]

Hi there

God understands. The thoughts are not sin no matter how scary. It really is OCD. Please read Grantley Morris scrupulosity and follow links. God loves you. Praying for you.

 

[dabro]

The thing that is in your favor is if like stepping on cracks makes you think your going to get the mark of the beast. Than step on cracks but do this with a therapist that is qualified in OCD.......God is working in you and thru you.....Patients is what i have had to learn and that's in anything......My OCD really doesn't bother me much anymore because I stop answering the questions my mind would always ask me.....Am I dead? so so. I just said oh well guess I am and moved on.....It takes a lot of practice don't get me wrong but you'll come to a place to where it just doesn't bother you anymore......Medication is useful but only for a short period even tho I'm on medication I have been thru a drug induced psychosis so I want to keep my mind stable......

 

[emilie mayer]

Ocd causes confusion,fear,anxiety,doubt ect. That tends to take our focus off of Jesus. Jesus died on the cross for all of our sins. Pray to God for wisdom about your situation. God promises if you ask for wisdom He will give it to any who ask without finding fault. A lot of christians are going through what you are going through. Ive gone through it. Believe it or not your faith can be strengthened from this situation. Have you ever heard THE TRUTH WILL SET YOU FREE? That is the truth. Once you learn who you are in Christ then anxiety seems to lessen. Im praying for you. Exposure therapy seems to help but pray about it.

 

[Rgrhm91]

Thanks for the prayers

 

[Guidance]

I get that a lot.

I was diagnosed with a very mild form of OCD when I was a bit younger. It was during a test of another sort.

One I really hate is when I am out for a run, to be honest. It has gotten me very healthy but I hate it because I can't stop when I want to. I force myself to run to certain landmarks in my area while I'm already exhausted.

I think the best way to deal with it is perhaps through distraction. If I'm distracted by music while on a run, say, I find it easier to stop and walk back. If you feel you get strength through prayer that is a good way too.

If it really worries you and you are okay with going to a doctor then in my opinion that would be a smart route.

 

[com7fy8]

God owns me

good to know . . . simple

I understand you have the apply faith, but I've been lacking in that,

So, you admit this and trust God.

I wonder, how do I know if some of these thoughts (like blasphemy) are really my own?

Either way, God can make you strong so it can not get the better of you. We will always have things which attack our minds; as we grow, we get stronger so things can't get us. And we need to be strong so the nicer things can't get us distracted, too.

those thoughts that come and me trying to change it made it worse because i was working

So, you know this . . . very good

Dont forget God in the good times and bad God is ALWAYS HERE.