Not strong enough

[knw1991]

Also a song by PLUMB called HOW MANY TIMES this one will show you that your feelings are normal. Tell me what you think after you listen

Yes I've heard of that song I listen to it on pandora, it's one of my favorite songs

 

[knw1991]

Thank you all for your advice and prayers, and the song suggestions. Those songs have been helpful to me in times of pain

 

[Kimmy77]

I'm watching u woman lmao.

 

[knw1991]

knw, if the future seems bleak, that's just an opinion. We don't know anything about the future, except one thing: God is in it.

The Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. (Deut 31:6)

Thank you, I'm just scared that even in the future things won't get better

 

[emilie mayer]

I use to think stuff like what if i live with these doubts and fears forever. What if my circumstances stay the same what ifs ran through my mind all day. I finally hit a point where i was tired of feeling down all the time. So one day I prayed dear heavenly father i am sick and tired of being sick and tired. If you keep me where i am for the rest of my life im either going to have to learn to be happy were i am at. Or stay miserable. Today heavenly father im going to start to be positive. No matter what. Amen. Do you know once I started to force myself to think more positive i actually started to feel more positive. I felt as If God new I was going to press forward no matter what. Then good things started to happen. Then I started to feel myself getting stronger and stronger....... so maybe you are just going to get tired of being tired . It all happens in Gods timing. Start praying for wisdom God will give it

 

[emilie mayer]

Knw1991 you are normal and going through what 80 percent of christians go through..... God will lift you out of were you are He promises not to leave us were we are at.

 

[emilie mayer]

You do sound like I did at one time and when people told me it would get better i doubted it. No ones reassurance helped anymore..... thats when I knew only God could help me

 

[knw1991]

I'm so alone at the party my cousin is having, I feel so worthless like a wasted body. I know I'm a mistake

 

[knw1991]

I use to think stuff like what if i live with these doubts and fears forever. What if my circumstances stay the same what ifs ran through my mind all day. I finally hit a point where i was tired of feeling down all the time. So one day I prayed dear heavenly father i am sick and tired of being sick and tired. If you keep me where i am for the rest of my life im either going to have to learn to be happy were i am at. Or stay miserable. Today heavenly father im going to start to be positive. No matter what. Amen. Do you know once I started to force myself to think more positive i actually started to feel more positive. I felt as If God new I was going to press forward no matter what. Then good things started to happen. Then I started to feel myself getting stronger and stronger....... so maybe you are just going to get tired of being tired . It all happens in Gods timing. Start praying for wisdom God will give it

I know but it hurts to think positive when nothing positive is happening for me. Everyday I get up I'm reminded of the pain I'm in. I don't want go on. Why did God let me get in this death trap depression. My mind is heavy and damaged.

 

[emilie mayer]

I know how you feel. When I was at my lowest point of depression my family had a family get togetjer and still felt lonely. All i wanted to do was be by myself. Picture Jesus sitting beside you because He is there with you . Start doing that start picturing Jesus right there with you.

 

[knw1991]

I use to think stuff like what if i live with these doubts and fears forever. What if my circumstances stay the same what ifs ran through my mind all day. I finally hit a point where i was tired of feeling down all the time. So one day I prayed dear heavenly father i am sick and tired of being sick and tired. If you keep me where i am for the rest of my life im either going to have to learn to be happy were i am at. Or stay miserable. Today heavenly father im going to start to be positive. No matter what. Amen. Do you know once I started to force myself to think more positive i actually started to feel more positive. I felt as If God new I was going to press forward no matter what. Then good things started to happen. Then I started to feel myself getting stronger and stronger....... so maybe you are just going to get tired of being tired . It all happens in Gods timing. Start praying for wisdom God will give it

It's not fair that I would have to stay this way. This all started with me wanting to be saved and because I had doubts I became depressed and everything else happened. I didn't go out party, get drunk and sleep around but hose people are better off than me. They are happy and don't fall into suicidal depression like I do and if they wanted to be saved they would be and would go on to live a meaningful life and won't have to deal with suicidal depression. But my life was a waste, a pathetic Life spent being the odd one out with no father. I can't keep typing what I want to say I don't want people to notice me crying at the party

 

[knw1991]

I know how you feel. When I was at my lowest point of depression my family had a family get togetjer and still felt lonely. All i wanted to do was be by myself. Picture Jesus sitting beside you because He is there with you . Start doing that start picturing Jesus right there with you.

Thank you I will start doing that

 

[emilie mayer]

I promise you are Gods prized posetion . He is jealous over you. Start thinking about how strong He knows you are because you are in a position to build up your faith. Because we face trials and tribulations that is a sure sign you are His child....

 

[Gracelands]

might be wrath though.

 

[emilie mayer]

Wrath?

 

[knw1991]

Well if I get wrath for wanting to be saved, for being born without a dedicated father, then there may be no hope for me. And if you don't have anything nice to say to someone that's battled depression for 2 years you shouldn't comment at all. I'm sure it's wreth anyway I don't belong to God no one would want me anyway

 

[Gracelands]

no you do you do as long as you're not a cat.

 

[prov1810]

Well if I get wrath for wanting to be saved, for being born without a dedicated father, then there may be no hope for me. And if you don't have anything nice to say to someone that's battled depression for 2 years you shouldn't comment at all. I'm sure it's wreth anyway I don't belong to God no one would want me anyway

If you want to belong to God, then you belong to Him. If you feel rejected by people, this has nothing to do with how God relates to you.

Your worth in life has absolutely nothing to do with being liked or wanted by others. Other people don't own your value. Other people don't get to vote on whether your life is worth something. They aren't God.

But God believes that you are worth something: unique, irreplaceable you. He created you in love, so that you could know Him and love Him.

I am so sorry that you are in pain, knw. But God's will is perfect, and He is making you strong through this.

 

[emilie mayer]

Knw no wrath honey. You want to be saved thats a good thing. Did you know that God draws people first. We dont seek him first. When God draws us thats when we feel we want a close relationship with Him.so you wanting to be saved is because God has called you sweetie. Isnt that good news? The moment you asked Jesus to save you He did. If you saked Jesus to save you its because God put it in you to do so.

 

[knw1991]

If you want to belong to God, then you belong to Him. If you feel rejected by people, this has nothing to do with how God relates to you.

Your worth in life has absolutely nothing to do with being liked or wanted by others. Other people don't own your value. Other people don't get to vote on whether your life is worth something. They aren't God.

But God believes that you are worth something: unique, irreplaceable you. He created you in love, so that you could know Him and love Him.

I am so sorry that you are in pain, knw. But God's will is perfect, and He is making you strong through this.

Yes you're right. I don't know what to do to get out of this. I want to love myself for who I am. I want to be free but I always choose to stay down because it's easy and familiar. I'll never get my 20's back. When will God do something in my life I've been depressed for 2 years. I just hope there will be a purpose for my life and something good that comes out of this