Hi all,
I'm new to the forum and needing help and advice. So let me start by saying I was raised baptist and I prayed the sinners prayer and desperately want to believe. I've seen what GOD can do and I myself seem to have had a lot of help along the way ( bad 4wheeler wreck). But I don't feel like a Christian. I do want to be one so bad I can't stand it. But it seems like I'll focus on god for little while then the focus shifts to something else and God goes to background. That and the fact that I have major doubts even in church there's a voice in my mind that says this is not logical. Gods not real. When I die they'll be nothing I'll just die. Etc. and even when I do try to focus on god I get nervous talking about him. Like people think I'm an utter Moran, even talking to my wife about him. I want to Change I've read the bible know the stories well but those doubts kill me. Anybody went through the same thing or have any advice on what I should do. I pray but seems like it goes up unheard
I'm new to the forum and needing help and advice. So let me start by saying I was raised baptist and I prayed the sinners prayer and desperately want to believe. I've seen what GOD can do and I myself seem to have had a lot of help along the way ( bad 4wheeler wreck). But I don't feel like a Christian. I do want to be one so bad I can't stand it. But it seems like I'll focus on god for little while then the focus shifts to something else and God goes to background. That and the fact that I have major doubts even in church there's a voice in my mind that says this is not logical. Gods not real. When I die they'll be nothing I'll just die. Etc. and even when I do try to focus on god I get nervous talking about him. Like people think I'm an utter Moran, even talking to my wife about him. I want to Change I've read the bible know the stories well but those doubts kill me. Anybody went through the same thing or have any advice on what I should do. I pray but seems like it goes up unheard