I can not grasp what that must have caused you to feel, but if there is anything I can help with let me know.
“do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”
Philippians 4:6-7 ESV
http://bible.com/59/php.4.6-7.esv
If possible, perhaps try to replace thoughts dwelling on those words with better things.
“Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things.”
Philippians 4:8 ESV
http://bible.com/59/php.4.8.esv
Psalms 23 I hope can encourage you, and that in any circumstances: “I can do all things through him who strengthens me.”
Philippians 4:13 ESV
http://bible.com/59/php.4.13.esv
“The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. He makes me lie down in green pastures. He leads me beside still waters. He restores my soul. He leads me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake. Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me. You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies; you anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life, and I shall dwell in the house of the Lord forever.”
Psalms 23:1-6 ESV
http://bible.com/59/psa.23.1-6.esv