- Dec 4, 2015
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I cant say all this in one post i just felt like I needed to get it out. I was one of those people that hated Christians, felt nothing, and rolled my eyes at them, thought they were wrong about everything and God could be found in other ways. This past summer and even for years actually, but it came to a head this summer, I was under strong spiritual attack and opression. I heard voices, my health was suffering, had been for years, i wanted to die. I was scared to death because they wouldnt leave no matter what I told them. I had been into new age and metaphysics for 15 years and thought I was this expert and pro on the subject. I believed in Angels and read all of Doreen Virtue books. thats what went wrong. I called on Angels to help and they turned out to be dark. When I turned against them, they went crazy. In August I made the mistake of going to a non denominational church and she thought she had moved Christ through my body to help me. I got home, thought I was going to pray and ask to be saved and instead a fake spirit pretending to be Christ moved into me instead! for two months he talked to me and I should have known something was up because he laughed sinister a lot, i had endless crushing migraines, fatigue, and by the end I finally figured out this was not Christ! I never got saved so i tried it again but h ad all these doubts. Did not take again, I thought it did. I went to my parents Indepdenent Baptist Church and listened to every word the preacher said for three months. Turns out I wasnt saved. I was still feeling darkness around me. I was putting a protection shield on me every day not understanding that was not of God.
December 1, the other day I went to talk to the Pastor Kevin Broyhill, great man. He was very simple and straight forward when he said..you can pray seven times, but if you dont truly believed he died on the cross for you, you are not saved.
So, right there in his office I tried it again, and this time I meant it. He sent me home with a bible study course and im scheduled for a Baptism in a week.
I didnt feel anything or notice much but last night I did big time. I was talking and praying and denouncing all the bad I had done in my life to God, and I had been asking him since I got saved what to do about being a lesbian.
I read online some sad story of a couple that was Christian that prayed for help in their relationship and was told by God in guidance they were wrong and needed to break up and end things. That pretty much hit me in the gut. Next thing i know im on the phone talking to my secular friend telling him im saved now, and I burst into tears and said I cant be gay anymore, its not right to God. And once it was out of my mouth, I knew it was true. Painful, hard, and horrible, i cried to God and poured out my feelings about it. I told him to please fill my head that night with hope of what I can have instead. I swear I felt a shift in consciousness, I can tell he is trying to restore heterosexuality in me. I also went through the house and denounced the demons in the name of God and I dont know if they will be back or not. Ive had to throw out so much stuff in this house and change my life completely. I have never been into darkness as deep as I was this summer. I truly looked into the mouth of Hell, the Abyss and almost did not come out of it. They tried to lie to me very well i might add on what God was, and how to get help, and all paths led back to them. They think they won this time, but they did not!
Now im trying to adjust as a believer and trying to put the pieces of my life back together and know God is there and is going to help me. Thank you for letting me share.
December 1, the other day I went to talk to the Pastor Kevin Broyhill, great man. He was very simple and straight forward when he said..you can pray seven times, but if you dont truly believed he died on the cross for you, you are not saved.
So, right there in his office I tried it again, and this time I meant it. He sent me home with a bible study course and im scheduled for a Baptism in a week.
I didnt feel anything or notice much but last night I did big time. I was talking and praying and denouncing all the bad I had done in my life to God, and I had been asking him since I got saved what to do about being a lesbian.
I read online some sad story of a couple that was Christian that prayed for help in their relationship and was told by God in guidance they were wrong and needed to break up and end things. That pretty much hit me in the gut. Next thing i know im on the phone talking to my secular friend telling him im saved now, and I burst into tears and said I cant be gay anymore, its not right to God. And once it was out of my mouth, I knew it was true. Painful, hard, and horrible, i cried to God and poured out my feelings about it. I told him to please fill my head that night with hope of what I can have instead. I swear I felt a shift in consciousness, I can tell he is trying to restore heterosexuality in me. I also went through the house and denounced the demons in the name of God and I dont know if they will be back or not. Ive had to throw out so much stuff in this house and change my life completely. I have never been into darkness as deep as I was this summer. I truly looked into the mouth of Hell, the Abyss and almost did not come out of it. They tried to lie to me very well i might add on what God was, and how to get help, and all paths led back to them. They think they won this time, but they did not!
Now im trying to adjust as a believer and trying to put the pieces of my life back together and know God is there and is going to help me. Thank you for letting me share.
