Wow! You are comparing my traditional views of marriage and gender(which I believe are firmly based in Biblical teaching) to suicide bombers. That is incredible.
That's what you got from that? No, I was not comparing you to a suicide bomber. I was comparing your steadfastness in what might be incorrect beliefs. Iow, the idea that you are steadfast in itself is fine, but the idea that you might be steadfast in faulty belief system is what is not so good about steadfastness.
That and Gods grace are the only things that keep me going.
And maybe some of your wife's grace....please, give credit where credit is due.
Contrary to what you all have imagined goes on in my house, I am a very loving husband.
I don't think anyone accused you of being a lousy husband. That's your interpretation. But what others here are doing is trying to get you to see your marriage from her perspective, to have a deep sense of empathy for your wife in her particular beliefs, mind-frame, and situation. You seem to have a hard time doing that...
I don't agree with what she is doing, living her life on the couch. Neither does her mom, or her sister or her doctor. You say I have to just understand her, I am sorry but wrong behavior is wrong behavior period.
And this is part of the problem. It's not about her behaviour. It's about understanding why she is not doing behaviour that you want and expect her to do. Your vision of this is very narrow - all you see is what she is and is not doing, and how it affects you, your kids and your home. Iow, that is very self-centred thinking. A lot of us here are saying that instead of focusing on her behaviour alone, maybe go beyond that and see the underlying dynamics.... iow, there are a myriad of values, beliefs, grief, and other factors that drive behaviour. So get beyond the behaviour itself and see things for what they really are instead. In fact, you have a huge gap between her values and yours. You also have a huge gap between her expectations and yours. You have a huge gap between your beliefs and hers. There is also a real disconnect with her pertaining to empathy for her pain, her grief, her change in circumstances.
Those are the things you need to focus on....not the behaviour, and not your own frame of reference. What you see and experience is not what she sees and experiences. So suspend your own for a while to try to understand hers. When there is increased understanding, there is often more compassion....more compassion leads to a soft heart, positive thinking, and a humble, serving heart.