Sorry just having a bad night here and needed someone to talk to and as it is 12:30am here (and 1:30am back home in Aus) I am thinking that calling someone is not wise.
However, I do believe I am loosing my mind. I have lost some pulsa (pre-paid telephone money), my remote control for my air-con (something that I still need to use even though it is winter) and some money from my room. But then it may not have been lost. It could have been stolen (which would not be the first time) by some of the local staff. Then again, I don't want to think like that but I can't afford not to because that is what happens!
I am living in a catch 22 situation at the moment and all I want to do is run away or cry. Or both which sounds like an even better plan though there is no where to run to.
Ok so maybe I need to start by breathing first. But sometimes it is so hard to try and keep the control over yourself. I know I can't control everything around me but I should at least have self control (after all it is one of the fruits of the Spirit). Moments like these require all the control I have (and that is not much). I am not sure why I am writing this. Maybe I just needed to talk some sense into my self.
Anyway God gave me this verse to reflect upon "For this God is our God for ever and ever; He will be our guide even to the end" Psalm 48:14. It just jumped out at me. I guess I just need to remind myself that, although I can't see the see the forest for the trees, I can rest assured that He is my God and that He will guide me through all these small dramas to the bigger dream at the end.
However, I do believe I am loosing my mind. I have lost some pulsa (pre-paid telephone money), my remote control for my air-con (something that I still need to use even though it is winter) and some money from my room. But then it may not have been lost. It could have been stolen (which would not be the first time) by some of the local staff. Then again, I don't want to think like that but I can't afford not to because that is what happens!
I am living in a catch 22 situation at the moment and all I want to do is run away or cry. Or both which sounds like an even better plan though there is no where to run to.
Ok so maybe I need to start by breathing first.
But sometimes it is so hard to try and keep the control over yourself. I know I can't control everything around me but I should at least have self control (after all it is one of the fruits of the Spirit). Moments like these require all the control I have (and that is not much). I am not sure why I am writing this. Maybe I just needed to talk some sense into my self. Anyway God gave me this verse to reflect upon "For this God is our God for ever and ever; He will be our guide even to the end" Psalm 48:14. It just jumped out at me. I guess I just need to remind myself that, although I can't see the see the forest for the trees, I can rest assured that He is my God and that He will guide me through all these small dramas to the bigger dream at the end.
