Isn't it written that Jesus said:
"Where two or more gather in my Name, I am there also"?
The earliest Churches were also brethren in Christ meeting in his Name.
These were no institutions with denominational creeds, where only one guy spoke to a silent crowd.But in the last century the yoke of institutionalised religion has lifted.
In countries where there is no 'organised Christianity' or where believers feel the established denominations have lost touch with the Word, people gather in his Name on their own too.
In fact, isn't that what we are doing right here too?

We all need discernment provided by the Spirit of Truth.
Anyway you approach this, there are controversies you bump in to.
It's just how it is..
You have and bring very good points. There was no churches during old times. Christians would just gather together and study the bible together and pray together. All of the denominations didn't exist, and Christianity, was just Christianity.
And, I don't affiliate with any religious denomination. My religion denomination has ALWAYS been the bible and God deep down in myself. I trust in God to guide my life to where It's supposed to be.
And God, has lead me on a difficult path but, is ultimately slowly bringing me closer to him. He was brought me happiness, and peace of mind. The more I continue to follow the path of God, the closer I become to him.
So, why do I even think that Church is necessary in the first place?
Maybe there are more Catholic parts to my soul left than I thought. I mean, I was raised that way, that church was necessary and you HAD to go to church. But, I also was to believe in Purgatory, I also was raised to pray to saints, and the virgin Mary, and all kinds of other deities. I also was raised in the wrong path. So, maybe there are still wrong path parts to my soul.
I mean, just my wife and I alone, would make a study group. We could have communion together, we could pray together. And, I don't even have to call what I'm doing church. There are plenty of biblical ways of taking the body and blood of Christ. Jesus never said, it had
He just broke it apart and said "Do this in remembrance of me."
Your words make me very happy and I believe you to be correct but, I can't just go off of the words of one brother I have to extensively . But, you gave me the hope that I WILL find the proper path I WILL find the proper path by the end of this. I'm confident.
There is a possibility that the Lord was calling you. But it's not at all a certainty, since it comes as you were feeling frustration over the lack of a congregation near you which you could join.
And if the Lord were calling you to the ministry, you can be certain that he was not calling you to take every shortcut that you described to us and to jump into the ministry without the tools to do the job. If you have a real call, you will become a church member, be admitted to ministerial training and Bible studies within that church body, and all of that.
By the way, what church body ordained you, considering that you appear to have no connection to any organized Christian church??
That's right. It checks the boxes but in a technical way only
No, I don't think it was my guilt and my subconsciousness, I mean what you said, made sense but, I do believe that it is God guiding my life and I do believe that it was a command from God.
You're right, this shouldn't be easy when everything else God has commanded me to do has been a hard difficult journey. Which, is why I'm questioning it. I need to go on this long and difficult journey to find the truth and find the true path of what God has told me to do.
I was ordained online through the Christian Harvest Church and was blessed by the lead minister there. So, legally I can perform everything I described, including baptism and marriage.
But, you might have a point that, it Isn't the same as being touched and ordained by a minister in person but, I thought that it was good enough for God that I was ordained in this way. There are a lot of ministers who are, and are fantastic and accurate ministers preaching the proper word.
I don't want to appear rude, but what Biblical training have you had? Do you know God's Word well enough to guide His sheep?
Pastor/Teachers are held to a high standard Biblically. You will be in a sense responsible to God for each of their spiritual growth and teaching. God is serious when it comes to shepherding His sheep.
Are you really prepared for that? Are you strong enough spiritually to do this for the rest of your life?
I'm just asking the questions that I would be thinking myself (although I'm not called to Pastor), but if I was these are a few questions I would ask.
I don't have any biblical training. I thought training and experience would come from God guiding my life and from reading God's word and studying God's word for the rest of my life. And from the training and guidance of fellow Christians.
After all, if I did a home church I'd only have to do mass once a week. I could spend an entire week studying and making sure my sermon was accurate.
I could be wrong though. I mean, you're right. I could take courses, and I wouldn't want to be preaching the wrong word for my entire life. Not just because of my soul and the souls of others, But, also I want to give off the right image of God. I love God, with all my heart. And, I wouldn't want to disgrace him in any way, shape, or form.
Yes, whether or not I want to be a minister I would have to extensively study the word of God anyway so, yes I know and, I am prepared for this kind of dedication. The last two weeks have been among the happiest two weeks of my entire life. The sermons that I wrote for practice, were good and beloved by everyone I showed them to and have made me indescribably happy. If this is possible? I'm going to be a minister. There's no way around it.
And, God probably told me to ask you guys so that I can find the right path for myself, instead of just asking him all the time. I'm supposed to find my own way to walk the path that God wants me to walk. And, THIS is the path. I have NEVER been this happy or excited in my entire life.