Is there anyone there?

[Anhelyna]

Bumping this up so we can all continue to keep her in our prayers.

Life is very difficult at present and she's feeling very isolated

 

[Stabat Mater dolorosa]

Continued prayers...

 

[Michie]

Praying and thinking of her daily.

 

[Winter]

I think about and pray for her every day. I hope she stops by soon so she doesn't feel alone.

 

[anjelica]

Good norning. Thankyou for your continued prayers. They certainly are needed.
I had a very bad day yesterday. I am very up and down. I felt hopeless and upset because I went to Mass and it seems that no one can understand that I am blind (the ophthalmologist states that I am even though I can still see shapes and a bit of faded colour) and I struggle to get from the front of the Church to the back and out of the door. Incannot see anyone to ask them for help but I know they are all gathered in groups talking to each other but do not talk to me. It makes me feel very very alone.

Additionally, if they do speak it is to ask about my husband, worrying if he is ill or domething, when Social Services are trying to get me separated out from him because of his abuse. I can't tell them that though, and he appears to be a really good man in pyblic, whilst at home he will not give me food, gets angry, etc etc and I am confined to the bedroom. He will not do the things the Blind Rehabilitation man stated was necessary, or allow equipment for me re my blindness. Nthe house is a death trap for me. I am scared.

I am now much more frightened than I was but maybe that is because I am so very very isolated. It is hard. My yeart rate was up to 160 at times yesterday and my oxygen was down to 82 which is scary. I am keeping a log for my doctor.

 

[Michie]

Good norning. Thankyou for your continued prayers. They certainly are needed.
I had a very bad day yesterday. I am very up and down. I felt hopeless and upset because I went to Mass and it seems that no one can understand that I am blind (the ophthalmologist states that I am even though I can still see shapes and a bit of faded colour) and I struggle to get from the front of the Church to the back and out of the door. Incannot see anyone to ask them for help but I know they are all gathered in groups talking to each other but do not talk to me. It makes me feel very very alone.

Additionally, if they do speak it is to ask about my husband, worrying if he is ill or domething, when Social Services are trying to get me separated out from him because of his abuse. I can't tell them that though, and he appears to be a really good man in pyblic, whilst at home he will not give me food, gets angry, etc etc and I am confined to the bedroom. He will not do the things the Blind Rehabilitation man stated was necessary, or allow equipment for me re my blindness. Nthe house is a death trap for me. I am scared.

I am now much more frightened than I was but maybe that is because I am so very very isolated. It is hard. My yeart rate was up to 160 at times yesterday and my oxygen was down to 82 which is scary. I am keeping a log for my doctor.

I'm so sorry angelica. I would suggest though, to stop covering for your husband. It just enables the abuse. I'm surprised that nobody at Church helps you! I wish you had an advocate there to help you. That is one of things I used to do for residents. I'm continuing to pray for you angelica! **hugs**

 

[Winter]

 

[anjelica]

Thankyou all. And thankyou Michie for what you have said re my hysband. It will work out, but it is both difficult and slow. I have to tread c arefullu. I have lst Cjurches through trying to let people know about him and. I do not want to lise my. Church again. Mi could not cope with that.

Lts has happened today but I heed a rest now so will maybe pist later. You are all verymkind. Hugs back at you all

 

[RKO]

I'm praying for you.

 

[Stabat Mater dolorosa]

So am I.

 

[Michie]

I'm just curious angelica... Is there assistance you can get there where someone can check in? Help you with basic needs, cook, make sure you eat?

Thankyou all. And thankyou Michie for what you have said re my hysband. It will work out, but it is both difficult and slow. I have to tread c arefullu. I have lst Cjurches through trying to let people know about him and. I do not want to lise my. Church again. Mi could not cope with that.

Lts has happened today but I heed a rest now so will maybe pist later. You are all verymkind. Hugs back at you all

 

[anjelica]

Michie, we hav e someone who cleans twice a week.

The problem is that my husband cancels things that are offered t o me .

I have no way of deali ng w ith this through being unable to see.

The police tried to see me. They couldnt and when he found out they s topped trying to see me.

It is a c omplicated story so wont bore you with it but you would need to understand total control to understand. I used to be totally independent but am not now because of my gealth. Best not to go there too my
Uch. Mit distresss me

 

[benedictaoo]

Good norning. Thankyou for your continued prayers. They certainly are needed.
I had a very bad day yesterday. I am very up and down. I felt hopeless and upset because I went to Mass and it seems that no one can understand that I am blind (the ophthalmologist states that I am even though I can still see shapes and a bit of faded colour) and I struggle to get from the front of the Church to the back and out of the door. Incannot see anyone to ask them for help but I know they are all gathered in groups talking to each other but do not talk to me. It makes me feel very very alone.

Additionally, if they do speak it is to ask about my husband, worrying if he is ill or domething, when Social Services are trying to get me separated out from him because of his abuse. I can't tell them that though, and he appears to be a really good man in pyblic, whilst at home he will not give me food, gets angry, etc etc and I am confined to the bedroom. He will not do the things the Blind Rehabilitation man stated was necessary, or allow equipment for me re my blindness. Nthe house is a death trap for me. I am scared.

I am now much more frightened than I was but maybe that is because I am so very very isolated. It is hard. My yeart rate was up to 160 at times yesterday and my oxygen was down to 82 which is scary. I am keeping a log for my doctor.

Just know that I emphasize with you. I know you need us to keep a vigil and keep praying for you, that you'll be strong spiritually. Keep believing God is close to you. Keep believing God loves you and He'll deliver you in His time, in His way. His way is perfect. We're all going through dark times. There will be a resurrection for us all. We just have to trust and believe. All my love goes out to you. My poor prayers go up.

 

[anjelica]

Bless uou bene. I do know that you understand and can empathise.

I am having another very bad day today. I feel so alne and as if no one understands me and often I get blamed for things that I can't help. I don't do it how ppl want me to do t and I then lose them.

Today I gave isolated totally. I am angry, crying, feel no one cares ( here where I luve, I mean). Life seems impossible. I am almost blind now -!it is going more every day. My husband has aken over our cleaner lady and they are dealing with my clithes and my stuff and I cannot see what they are doing and I want to shout 'STOP - those are MY things." They do not care. Mi am stripped of everything. I talked t a friend from my writing group yesterday and we got close - but the conversation made me lise my faith, for the very first time. So I did not go to Mass today. I knew noone there would help me.

I am sad, angry, hopeless, and sorry for myself.

I have been searching the net to see if it is really true that I cannot have an anaesthetic because I need my eyesight back so I can keep control of my life somehow and not be at the mercy of others. All that I find tells me that indeed it s very Dangerous. But I mught risk it anyway if the anaesthetist will let me. At present he will Not but I am going to reopen it maybe. I fe e l I am not even a person any more. I cannot even write my,poetry Any more. B ecause my faith has gone. I guess it is not God I have lost faith in, but ppl.

This is the very first ti m e I h ave lost faith. I beed to be ab le to write my poetry. As it is all i have to do all day

 

[RobNJ]

You are in my prayers

 

[Anhelyna]

I can't help feeling that the being ignored in Church could be dealt with - but it needs to be done by YOU.

You need to feel able to sit there , in your chair in the middle of the Church as folk are going out and say very very loudly

STOP !! I KNOW YOU ARE THERE - I CAN FEEL YOUR PRESENCE !
YOU MUST COME TO ME AND TALK WITH ME - I CAN'T SEE YOU.

I'M SORRY I MAKE YOU FEEL UNCOMFORTABLE - BECAUSE I'M ALMOST BLIND - THAT'S NOT MY FAULT. I CAN'T HELP BEING IN A WHEELCHAIR . BUT THIS IS WHO I AM NOW.

WHERE IS YOUR CHRISTIAN LOVE FOR THOSE WHO ARE IN NEED.

It would take a lot of courage to do that - but it could help

 

[benedictaoo]

Bless uou bene. I do know that you understand and can empathise.

I am having another very bad day today. I feel so alne and as if no one understands me and often I get blamed for things that I can't help. I don't do it how ppl want me to do t and I then lose them.

Today I gave isolated totally. I am angry, crying, feel no one cares ( here where I luve, I mean). Life seems impossible. I am almost blind now -!it is going more every day. My husband has aken over our cleaner lady and they are dealing with my clithes and my stuff and I cannot see what they are doing and I want to shout 'STOP - those are MY things." They do not care. Mi am stripped of everything. I talked t a friend from my writing group yesterday and we got close - but the conversation made me lise my faith, for the very first time. So I did not go to Mass today. I knew noone there would help me.

I am sad, angry, hopeless, and sorry for myself.

I have been searching the net to see if it is really true that I cannot have an anaesthetic because I need my eyesight back so I can keep control of my life somehow and not be at the mercy of others. All that I find tells me that indeed it s very Dangerous. But I mught risk it anyway if the anaesthetist will let me. At present he will Not but I am going to reopen it maybe. I fe e l I am not even a person any more. I cannot even write my,poetry Any more. B ecause my faith has gone. I guess it is not God I have lost faith in, but ppl.

This is the very first ti m e I h ave lost faith. I beed to be ab le to write my poetry. As it is all i have to do all day

No baby, don't lose faith. Don't let your husband take that too. Can you download an app where you can speak your text?

 

[benedictaoo]

I can't help feeling that the being ignored in Church could be dealt with - but it needs to be done by YOU.

You need to feel able to sit there , in your chair in the middle of the Church as folk are going out and say very very loudly

STOP !! I KNOW YOU ARE THERE - I CAN FEEL YOUR PRESENCE !
YOU MUST COME TO ME AND TALK WITH ME - I CAN'T SEE YOU.

I'M SORRY I MAKE YOU FEEL UNCOMFORTABLE - BECAUSE I'M ALMOST BLIND - THAT'S NOT MY FAULT. I CAN'T HELP BEING IN A WHEELCHAIR . BUT THIS IS WHO I AM NOW.

WHERE IS YOUR CHRISTIAN LOVE FOR THOSE WHO ARE IN NEED.

It would take a lot of courage to do that - but it could help

Or tell the priest to make an announcement.

 

[Winter]

Anjelica, you always have us. We may be far away physically, but spiritually we are together through Christ. You are in my thoughts daily as well as my prayers. I know that if many of us lived closer to you we would jump and help you at a heartbeat. I know I would. If there is anything any of us can do at a distance, such as finding information for you on the internet (see my PM about that), please let us know. At the very least you have our love, support, and prayers.

We all reach that point of despair when we are in pain or we are troubled. Seek that quiet place separate from the challenges that surround you. That quiet place is Christ. Do not despair. And do not be afraid. (((hugs)))

 

[benedictaoo]

Even Jesus cried, even Jesus fell beneath the weight of His cross.