I am beginning to think I am possessed or something. I mean so I have the battles in my head God is real no he isn't. No evidence helps it go away the doubt remains and I start thinking atheists are smarter etc but accompanied with that are these spiteful feelings. The feelings when I think Christians aren't as smart as athiests is what's weird. I have had those same feelings though on a different thing. I mean this is beyond fair. Even a chaplain in asked the chaplain more or less said I was going to hell. I guess I just deserve this I am a very sick person in a evil way so maybe I am just damned. Doesn't seem fair though when I did ask for any if the diseases if the mind I have or doubt or anything. I am starting to get angry anyone has to be this way.
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