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I've had lots of thoughts, typically of an intrusive, OCD-like nature, to leave the faith. I don't really want to do that. But thoughts like "Maybe God's not real", "Maybe Jesus didn't resurrect", "Maybe I'm hurting myself psychologically by following this" sometimes pop up in my head, especially at vulnerable times (stressed, tired, etc.) I know this is mainly a psychological problem.
But lately it's gotten me to do some self-examination on what I say to counter those thoughts--the big reason for why I'm a Christian.
I came to the faith at the age of 19 on October 6th, 2014. I felt lost, alone and confused in the world, and I pleaded for comfort. God gave me love and acceptance and took me in.
I've come to see God as my Father. I gravitate towards the fatherly symbolism because I'm not particularly close with my dad. My mindset is that I remain a Christian because I need Him as a father figure, and because I long to be united with Him in Heaven, where I'll be loved and will never feel unloved again. I know that without Him, under a mindset that He didn't exist, I'd just indulge in time-wasting activities and have no motivation to do anything worthwhile.
The thing is, though, I know that there are other reasons to believe in God and be a Christian. I know I should feel guilt over my sins (I do) and want a relationship with Jesus (I do). I admit that there are sometimes things I have trouble giving up, and sometimes I don't quite know what all of those things are, but I'm wondering if maybe I should understand my relationship with God in a different way because He wants something else for me besides just Him being my "real father".
But lately it's gotten me to do some self-examination on what I say to counter those thoughts--the big reason for why I'm a Christian.
I came to the faith at the age of 19 on October 6th, 2014. I felt lost, alone and confused in the world, and I pleaded for comfort. God gave me love and acceptance and took me in.
I've come to see God as my Father. I gravitate towards the fatherly symbolism because I'm not particularly close with my dad. My mindset is that I remain a Christian because I need Him as a father figure, and because I long to be united with Him in Heaven, where I'll be loved and will never feel unloved again. I know that without Him, under a mindset that He didn't exist, I'd just indulge in time-wasting activities and have no motivation to do anything worthwhile.
The thing is, though, I know that there are other reasons to believe in God and be a Christian. I know I should feel guilt over my sins (I do) and want a relationship with Jesus (I do). I admit that there are sometimes things I have trouble giving up, and sometimes I don't quite know what all of those things are, but I'm wondering if maybe I should understand my relationship with God in a different way because He wants something else for me besides just Him being my "real father".