I'm Sorry CF : -(

[sissillee16]

Thanks all for your opinion :-D, but i for one am still stuck in the middle. At the age of 15/16, it's hard for me because i don't have anyone in my age group that i can freely talk to or care to share their similar thought with me on anything. Even the Christians at my church who are my age group are not really Christians they all just come to Church because they have to (mind you I go to 3 church). Everyone i referred to as friends are over 30 and close to my mothers age lol (i'm looked at as somewhat mature for my age). And to me they are all one sided and it is just tough for me, because i truly feel alone. Girls and Boys my age are out having crazy fun, "living life", and growing up their own way and when they reach their 30s or 40s that's when they will "find" God and get saved, and i can't escape my feeling and God and I'm scared. I cry almost everyday now because I'm alone and scared and i feel horrible about myself because i really do not like myself and believe I'm a sinner though in the bottom of my heart i have yet done anything sinful, (i hardly lie, and try to always tell the truth) and i don't drink, smoke, party, nothing.... but i still feel like I'm a horrible person and i don't understand why? plus I'm not even baptized.

i feel like I'm being watched and i seem to not really know who i am, i am at lost, not even those who i am well acquainted with for many years can truly figure out who i am, i'm said to be "Sissille you just Sissille"

plus i'm just lost someone 3 months ago really close to me, my best friend who i was close to like a sister, and i'm not grieving because everything happen for a reason right? and i should be happy, but i'm sure that her spirit might not be in happy place and that makes me sad, and now i feel scared and am crying at the moment and am very sorry i spam i didn't know i was spamming, i didn't read, i'm sorry.

i just wanted answer from all the groups that i saw about when i signed up. and I guess the reason my interest rose about all the other stuff is because i want to find an answer from God directly, i believe only my spirit can truly talk to God since my heart hasn't find the right answer. I just want a feeling of relief or "it's okay", or just go back to a day that i felt happy with that one friend of mine.

I mean i'm this young, if i'm not happy now i don't think i would want over the years to have this same feeling, I don't like that i have no way to escape this world. (don't worry i would never do anything against God), but i had truly believe that maybe meditation or some sort of other method that may not be against God can just give me a sweet relief. and well i'm sorry again i'm i guess i'm not going to be coming here anymore sorry again for the "spam" i didn't know

God Bless, and sorry if this don't make sense, i just wroted as i was feeling it, i don't want to read it back because i'll just deleted and i have to apologize. :-D sry

 

[Harry3142]

sissillee16-

Many of us have had loved one's die. The pain is there, but we go on. There are no 'shortcuts' to alleviating the sorrow, but it will mellow with time. And then when others have to face their own grief, you will comprehend what they are going through and be truly sympathetic to their suffering.

We christians have a code which we are to follow. But unlike other codes, it does not consist of rules and regulations. Instead, it tells us which emotions we are to see as contributing to living a more christlike life, and which emotions we are to see as detrimental to that purpose.

Here is the passage which I call 'The Christians Code of Conduct':

So I say, live by the Spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of the sinful nature. For the sinful nature desires what is contrary to the Spirit, and the Spirit what is contrary to the sinful nature. They are in conflict with each other, so that you do not do what you want. But if you are led by the Spirit, you are not under law.

The acts of the sinful nature are obvious: sexual immorality, impurity and debauchery; idolatry and witchcraft; hatred, discord, jealousy, fits of rage, selfish ambition, dissensions, factions and envy; drunkenness, orgies, and the like. I warn you, as I did before, that those who live like this will not inherit the kingdom of God.

But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law. Those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the sinful nature with its passions and desires. Since we live by the Spirit, let us keep in step with the Spirit. Let us not become conceited, provoking and envying each other. (Galatians 5:16-26,NIV)

Take a look at the first paragraph of this passage. There you see that it is not we oureselves who are fighting against our sinful nature. We can no more succeed in fighting our own sinful nature than we can succeed in pushing ourselves across the room by pressing our hands against our own chest. It's God's Spirit that is doing the fighting. The closest we come to the battle is to follow the Spirit's lead as he moves on ahead of us.

The second paragraph gives us a sobering look at the weaknesses we all have in common to a greater or lesser extent. If we are free from the entrapments of one 'act of the sinful nature' there are other acts which we are not so free of. The emotions listed there are especially subtle, and are to be recognized as detrimental to christian growth. It is these acts, including the emotions, which the Spirit himself is battling against.

But it doesn't end there. When we accept God's salvation we also receive the Spirit as a second reward, and he does not come to us emptyhanded. With him he brings 9 gifts which are called 'fruit' in the third paragraph. It is these 'fruit of the Spirit' which empower us as christians. Our borders are dictated by them. If our words and actions have as their reason for being these fruit as the core, then we can be confident that we are saying and doing what God wants of us. But if our words and/or actions go outside these borders and enter the 'acts of the sinful nature', then we have allowed our own interests and desires to take control of us.

This will happen occasionally. The acts of the sinful nature are weakened by the Spirit, but they are still alive within us. But when it does happen, instead of 'beating ourselves up' over it, we simply resolve to be more vigilant in the future. We know that as christians we are not perfect in and of ourselves. But we have been made perfect by God's own actions on our behalf. What we say and do in return is to be seen by us as showing our gratitude to God for his work on our behalf.

God bless-

 

[lucaspa]

am very sorry i spam i didn't know i was spamming, i didn't read, i'm sorry.

So now that's done. You are not the first one who unknowingly broke CF rules and got told by the monitors. I have had some warnings myself. Don't worry about it.

Being a teenager is tough. I don't know many people that would volunteer to go thru those years again. Oh, we'd like to if we got to know everything we know now. But be a teenager withoutthat knowledge? No way!

Cut yourself some slack. Everyone is different, but being a teenager is wanting very badly to fit in and most of the time feeling that you don't! I remember. So relax. You are who you are and you do things your way.

i want to find an answer from God directly, i believe only my spirit can truly talk to God since my heart hasn't find the right answer. I just want a feeling of relief or "it's okay", or just go back to a day that i felt happy with that one friend of mine.

It's very tough having having someone you love die. From those of us who have gone thru it, we can tell you that it does get better with time. Yes, you will cry a lot. Go ahead. It's OK. It's sad losing someone. You can go back to a happy day with your friend in your memories. Do so. Celebrate your friend's life! Remember everything good. Concentrate on remembering those good days. Yes, it will make you sad, but it will also give you comfort. Remember funny stories about your friend and laugh like you did when she was alive. Celebrate.

Your heart is in grief. It needs time to get over that. Talk to God and ask for comfort and strength to bear the grief. That's what God is there for: a friend in time of need.

For the rest, please stop worrying about whether you are doing your life "right". There is no one way to grow up or to be. If you enjoy the company of people in their 30s, then hang out with them. You know, the kids that are 15/16 will eventually be 30 and then you will want to hang with them.

Relax! It's OK. Thanks for the apology. Now forget about the spamming and enjoy yourself.

 

[drich0150]

Thanks all for your opinion :-D, but i for one am still stuck in the middle. At the age of 15/16, it's hard for me because i don't have anyone in my age group that i can freely talk to or care to share their similar thought with me on anything. Even the Christians at my church who are my age group are not really Christians they all just come to Church because they have to (mind you I go to 3 church). Everyone i referred to as friends are over 30 and close to my mothers age lol (i'm looked at as somewhat mature for my age). And to me they are all one sided and it is just tough for me, because i truly feel alone. Girls and Boys my age are out having crazy fun, "living life", and growing up their own way and when they reach their 30s or 40s that's when they will "find" God and get saved, and i can't escape my feeling and God and I'm scared. I cry almost everyday now because I'm alone and scared and i feel horrible about myself because i really do not like myself and believe I'm a sinner though in the bottom of my heart i have yet done anything sinful, (i hardly lie, and try to always tell the truth) and i don't drink, smoke, party, nothing.... but i still feel like I'm a horrible person and i don't understand why? plus I'm not even baptized.

i feel like I'm being watched and i seem to not really know who i am, i am at lost, not even those who i am well acquainted with for many years can truly figure out who i am, i'm said to be "Sissille you just Sissille"

plus i'm just lost someone 3 months ago really close to me, my best friend who i was close to like a sister, and i'm not grieving because everything happen for a reason right? and i should be happy, but i'm sure that her spirit might not be in happy place and that makes me sad, and now i feel scared and am crying at the moment and am very sorry i spam i didn't know i was spamming, i didn't read, i'm sorry.

i just wanted answer from all the groups that i saw about when i signed up. and I guess the reason my interest rose about all the other stuff is because i want to find an answer from God directly, i believe only my spirit can truly talk to God since my heart hasn't find the right answer. I just want a feeling of relief or "it's okay", or just go back to a day that i felt happy with that one friend of mine.

I mean i'm this young, if i'm not happy now i don't think i would want over the years to have this same feeling, I don't like that i have no way to escape this world. (don't worry i would never do anything against God), but i had truly believe that maybe meditation or some sort of other method that may not be against God can just give me a sweet relief. and well i'm sorry again i'm i guess i'm not going to be coming here anymore sorry again for the "spam" i didn't know

God Bless, and sorry if this don't make sense, i just wroted as i was feeling it, i don't want to read it back because i'll just deleted and i have to apologize. :-D sry

Good news the answers you seek can be found directly from God Through the works of the Holy Spirit. These Works and Words can all be found and written down in the bible.
Know If you do not want to seek God in the manner in which He has left for us then perhaps it is not God you seek. We can get direction in life through "feelings" but without a solid foundation in scripture, a soul can not properly discern God's will from the rest of the rabble. If you want an "answer from God" Then seek His word so that you may recognize it when you hear it. Who knows maybe He been trying to talk to you this whole time but you can not discern His words from your background "feelings."

 

[razeontherock]

Hugs for the OP. You have the fear of the Lord - don't lose that! Build on it. The way is straight and narrow, and not easy; but oh, so worth it!

 

[Mr Dave]

Thanks all for your opinion :-D, but i for one am still stuck in the middle. At the age of 15/16, it's hard for me because i don't have anyone in my age group that i can freely talk to or care to share their similar thought with me on anything. Even the Christians at my church who are my age group are not really Christians they all just come to Church because they have to (mind you I go to 3 church). Everyone i referred to as friends are over 30 and close to my mothers age lol (i'm looked at as somewhat mature for my age). And to me they are all one sided and it is just tough for me, because i truly feel alone. Girls and Boys my age are out having crazy fun, "living life", and growing up their own way and when they reach their 30s or 40s that's when they will "find" God and get saved, and i can't escape my feeling and God and I'm scared. I cry almost everyday now because I'm alone and scared and i feel horrible about myself because i really do not like myself and believe I'm a sinner though in the bottom of my heart i have yet done anything sinful, (i hardly lie, and try to always tell the truth) and i don't drink, smoke, party, nothing.... but i still feel like I'm a horrible person and i don't understand why? plus I'm not even baptized.

i feel like I'm being watched and i seem to not really know who i am, i am at lost, not even those who i am well acquainted with for many years can truly figure out who i am, i'm said to be "Sissille you just Sissille"

plus i'm just lost someone 3 months ago really close to me, my best friend who i was close to like a sister, and i'm not grieving because everything happen for a reason right? and i should be happy, but i'm sure that her spirit might not be in happy place and that makes me sad, and now i feel scared and am crying at the moment and am very sorry i spam i didn't know i was spamming, i didn't read, i'm sorry.

i just wanted answer from all the groups that i saw about when i signed up. and I guess the reason my interest rose about all the other stuff is because i want to find an answer from God directly, i believe only my spirit can truly talk to God since my heart hasn't find the right answer. I just want a feeling of relief or "it's okay", or just go back to a day that i felt happy with that one friend of mine.

I mean i'm this young, if i'm not happy now i don't think i would want over the years to have this same feeling, I don't like that i have no way to escape this world. (don't worry i would never do anything against God), but i had truly believe that maybe meditation or some sort of other method that may not be against God can just give me a sweet relief. and well i'm sorry again i'm i guess i'm not going to be coming here anymore sorry again for the "spam" i didn't know

God Bless, and sorry if this don't make sense, i just wroted as i was feeling it, i don't want to read it back because i'll just deleted and i have to apologize. :-D sry

Sorry to hear that. Losing someone so close to you must be difficult, I'll hold you in my prayers
It's extremely noble of you to stay on the straight and narrow whilst your peers are doing x,y,z. I know I've been there and I know it's not all that fun.
It's not a crime not to be baptised, I wasn't baptised until I was 18 when I felt it was really something I wanted for myself.

There's some nice imagery mentioned in this post about how God can make us feel better (and not 'feel horrible about ourselves for no reason')

Col. 1:9-14

For this reason, since the day we heard of this, we have not ceased praying for you and asking that you may be filled with the knowledge of God's will in all spiritual wisdom and understanding, so that you may lead lives worthy of the Lord, fully pleasing to him, as you bear fruit in every good work and as you grow in the knowledge of God. May you be made strong with all the strength that comes from his glorious power, and may you be prepared to endure everything with patience, while joyfully giving thanks to the Father, who has enabled you to share in the inheritance of the saints in the light. He has rescued us from the power of darkness and transferred us into the kingdom of His beloved Son, in whom we have redemption, the forgiveness of sins.

We pray this in the name of Jesus Christ, our Lord and Saviour, Amen

 

[zaksmummy]

I mean i'm this young, if i'm not happy now i don't think i would want over the years to have this same feeling, I don't like that i have no way to escape this world. (don't worry i would never do anything against God), but i had truly believe that maybe meditation or some sort of other method that may not be against God can just give me a sweet relief. and well i'm sorry again i'm i guess i'm not going to be coming here anymore sorry again for the "spam" i didn't know

You are so young, and as a teenager you have crazy hormones

When someone you care about dies it very natural to be sad, angry, confused - whatever other emotion you can think of - its called grieving and it can last quite a while. You need time to grieve and one day in the not-to-distant future you will be able to think about your friend and not feel pain at their loss. But that isnt in this minute, hour, day, or month, and maybe a little longer than a year.

When I have had problems in my life the person I can tell anything to is God, its called prayer. Jesus said "seek first the kingdom of God". This is what you do when you pray and tell him all you problems.

The thing I have learned is that he cares about me (and you), he wants you to seek him and tell him how you feel - no matter what it is you are feeling - He is a big God and he can handle all of your emotions - so dont be scared to tell him, and at some point in this process you will find him and get to know him. Reading the bible also helps, I have found the Psalms particularly helpful when Im upset, because the have all the emotions in them.

I hope some or all of this helps you to know you are not alone.