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Let me tell you something that helped me think about "faith". I wrote this almost as a 'note to self' a little while ago.
"I was wondering the other day about artificial intelligence and where it all might head. The idea took me down an unexpected turn you might find interesting...
I imagined a science fiction scenario where quite unexpectedly in a future version of Halo on the X-Box 5 a computer generated character suddenly became self aware. This blue skinned computer generated alien suddenly found it was able to explore its world, gather resources needful for its survival, avoid conflict and even enjoy the views. In its own inexplicable way it has the idea 'I think, therefore I am!'
But where is our blue soldier? Simply composed of finely engineered machine code stored on a powerful machine, only re-activated when the console is switched on. This digital life is the only one our brave new artificial form knows. Soon he starts to ask questions of his environment. He finds his world is finite, obeys some predictable laws and in his own way he sets about becoming a scientist, measuring, documenting and understanding everything he can, within his reach. One figure he can't properly understand in the green human figure who sometimes appears, guns blazing. Occasionally he seems like an unstoppable foe, other times an easy target. His behaviour is quite erratic and different to everything else in his world. The way he fights follows none of the complex algorithms of the blue alien inhabitants. It is all quite inexplicable!
I became a Christian at an early age, so for me it felt very natural to see a world where God 'did things'. It was only years later that I came across atheists and humanists. It was later still that I was able to empathise with their view of the world in a way that I could articulate how those people would hold a perspective of a bitter struggle between science and religion. In a world of Richard Dawkins, Christopher Hitchens and even Scoobie-Doo, there is never any room for truth beyond the things we can predictably measure or fully understand.
In the same way our blue alien could conclude that despite the behaviour of that one strange human in his world, the idea of the 'beyond' was meaningless. It can't be touched, reached or even imagined. In short, our newly emerged intelligence could quickly become in his own small way, a scientific materialist. If he did, he would be wrong!
Pushing the example a little further, perhaps using a chat function, the blue alien and the human could lay down their weapons and get to know one another. Our new AI life could find out about a world beyond his, a bedroom, snacks, parents. Some of this would be beyond our blue friends comprehension but that alone would not mean it was untrue, just that it sat outside the frame of its experience.
If you don't know Jesus, but suspect there might be something different about him, why don't you do the brave thing and ask him to make himself known to you. I know in writing this that the whole idea may push lots of buttons to the scientific mind. Let me challenge you with this - if God is real he is well able to reach into your world and communicate with you.
Thomas, after Jesus had risen from the dead was unconvinced by reports from others. A natural realist, he famously said that "Unless I see the nail marks in his hands and put my finger where the nails were, and put my hand into his side, I will not believe." People call him doubting Thomas but from another perspective he was also just being honest. He let it be known what kind of evidence he would need to in order to have faith.
Jesus met him where he was at and provided him with more than enough to convince him. In the same way, even if you full of skepticism and disappointment with religious systems, if you come to Jesus himself, full of doubts and questions, he can meet you where you're at.
The first step is just to come as you are. He's waiting for you to start the conversation."