- Sep 4, 2006
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I recently found out that my bf was cheating on me with my male cousin..i found this out after our break up...but the cheating occurred while we were in the relationship together( my mother and sister told me 2 nights ago, and my ex-bf admited to it last nite) he was txting my cousin propositoning sex and sending nude photos of himself..while my cousin is a homosexual, he had enough mind not to entertain my bf...i was shocked because well i found out recently that my ex was raped but never expected this..his only explanation..was that he felt it would be "better for me" if he cheated on me with a guy and someone i knew...he says he isnt gay and isnt attracted to males at all but was trying to find an instant form o gratification but this and with someone else ? ??hes very irrational and dilusional obvisouly and is struggling with alot of other problems now suicide , homicidal thoughts, depression etc and needs alot of prayer....and ive ministered to him and prayed for him despite the hurt i feel...but what about me ? im having a hard time dealing with this..i feel so cheated ..used and abused..thank God i am still a virgin..not that i planned to lose it to this man but still u know?...because then i would really be gone..so more than anything i just have emotional hurt..i want to start a new year right at a new school new job like i have planned but...hurt free..what should i do..ive been seeking God and worshipping the Lord with my music alot...i felt the Lord telling my spirit to get ready for something..but i never expected this...God is good though..because i was spared from this...and delivered out of all the lies and deciet...but do you have any more advice for me? thank you. God bless