I want to be in PlayBoy.

[Car Chick]

Ive been a Christian all my life and I cannot believe I am saying this but I like playboy. I read the magazines, I am subscribed online and such. I find it very attractive and so much fun. I am really into my body and find it amazing. I can spend hours modeling lingerie and nude in front of the mirror and recently I decided that I don't like anything more than modeling and I want to become a playmate for playboy. I have scheduled appointments with a photographer to take nude pictures of me for my portfolio in which I will send to playboy. I know this is wrong but this is what I want to do so bad and I can't help it. I don't really know what to do for sure, I am more than sure I will not regret it in the future and I have no regrets right now. I do not know how to break it to my friends and family that I want to model in playboy. I dream about strip dancing all the time, I find having sex with guys fun....I don't care if I just meet him and have sex and never see him again. It excites me for some odd reason. I am totally for nudity. I still go to church every sunday, wednesday and friday night like any normal Christian. I must admit I probably have not read my Bible in like over 2 months, I do say a prayer every night though but I am not so close to God like I could be and it doesn't really ever bother me. I know this will change my Christian life completely, or maybe even turn me away from God which I don't want. I need your advice on this matter. I know none of you will agree that this is ok but I still need to know how and what I can do, and if I do take this step then what next.

 

[rainbowprism]

You say you're a Christian but there is like zero evidence of it in your life. The issue of posing nude isn't the one that really bothers me the most, to tell the truth-I find some of that to be artistically nice. BUT you seem to want to do this Playboy thing as another outlet for your desire to be involved sexually with men. You say that you like to have sex with strangers and dream of stripping...to me it seems like it is a control issue for you and that you like to exert sexual power over men, and Playboy would be one end to that mean.
What concerns me though is this. I'm saying this with all love and honesty but I truly have to question the genuiness of your Christianity. It is easy to say you are a believer of Christ. But the thing is, Jesus doesn't stop there. He explicitly calls himself to be the Lord of our lives and he exerts power and ruling over us-not because he's tyranical but because he really does know whats best for us....it's like a child/parent relationship, a child might really really want to play with a chainsaw but a parent says 'no' because they know the risk of injury to be high. You're playing with fire here. Whatever sense of power you might be feeling by having dangerous sex if fleeting and no doubt it must not satisfy you well but rather calls you for more and more. In all honesty, you can say you're a Christian all you want but from what I see I don't think you are. Finally, you even say that doing this might turn you away from God all together....think about what you said. If you acknowledge that there is a God but totally give 'em the finger and say you don't need him for anything....that's a bold statement to think that you somehow know bettter than the Creator of life himself, you wouldn't be here if it wasn't for Him. You are His, not the other way around.

 

[Car Chick]

If it helps in any way I have only slept with one guy in my life and it all happened this year and we have had sex over 300 times. After him since I have experienced sex, and love it, this is what I want to do. Being with him has opened my mind to new things. I fantasize about these things alot, I have even kissed girls and took showers with my 2 best girlfriends. Before I was the best Christian girl, who never did anything wrong and loved the Church and helping others. Over this year I changed alot and I love my life. I would not change anything about it, really. My ex opened up my world to so many new things and experiences, good and bad. Sometimes I do regret for hooking up with him other times I am just glad I got to experience this.

I don't want to be in playboy for men, I just love showing off my body. I feel sexy naked, I like being naked and enjoying myself and modeling it for others.

 

[JarrodlovesGod]

I think its ok to take photo's for Playboy, but the deal with you having sex with men you don't know!
In the bible it says keep yourself sexually pure.
Wouldn't you like your husband to be a virgin when you meet him?
How would you feel if your husband has already had sex before you and your just another statistic in his chain of women he slept with.
You should show more fruits of the spirit by not sleeping with men you dont even know!

 

[Laurel Crowned]

Car Chick,

I did A LOT of things at 18 that seemed ok at the time. Things that later lead me to self-loathing. I wasn't a christian when I did those things. I didn't know God and didn't have a clue. You profess to know God. Please get help from a trusted female in your church. Don't make this step. If you love God it will be the biggest mistake of your life.

My prayers are with you.

LC

 

[Car Chick]

Ok lets get the men thing out of the subject for a bit, so it is ok to model nude for playboy or porn sites/magazines as long as I am not having sex or am sexually active and having desires about men? Wow...

 

[smiles22]

Dear Car Chick,
I commend you for your honesty and going somewher for advice. this tells me that you know there is a conflict about it in your soul and I think you 'know' what you should do, as an end decision. but all the things that you 'feel' what to do w/ and where to go from, all i know is that if you follow the 'right' path-'whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable, if anything is excellent or praiseworthy think about such things'-Phil. 4:8
then there are steps to take, to help you figure out whats going on and what to do. i hope others will be able to field more advice on that subject. i do know of a great resource that I find very helpful on all kinds of life issues. www (dot) newlifelive (dot) com -i dont have enought something to post a website so i hope that makes sense
"I know this is wrong ...and I can't help it.-but you can help it," you have a will, you have a decision to make.
I can see the struggle that youre having, and it's actually a battle-for your soul. we can become numb to the things of God. we become so intune w/ the things of the world and satisfyin ourselves that we dont do what we are here to do, Glorify God and help others. we get selfish. i can identify, ive been on this hard road for the past 3 weeks. i think we dotn understand whats really going on, or we push our minds to 'other things' so we dont have to think about the 'important stuff'

There are probably some questions you have to ask yourself if you havent already. and be honest w/ your self and w/ God. If youre like me, you might be afraid to talk to God because you know what hed say about it and you dont want to hear it. so you dont really get honest w/ Him and spill it all, even thought He knows what we're thinking anyway. (man I need some help too like what is really important in life. i think you might already know. im like that. i already know but i want to fight w/ myself sometimes and say, oh well im entiltled to some fun, who will really care?, im not 'hurting anyone, just this once, just this one more time, its not bad. (i think these might be signs of denial?)

Youre young and have some important decisions to make. dont be afraid to ask for help, like you did here. I pray you'll find the help you need. I havent read this book but it might have some things to help you. the book is called Every Woman's Battle. its by either Dr. Henry Cloud or Dr. John Townsend (sp?) i think. i listen to their radio program and it's very helpful. its like one of those call in shows. may sound silly, always hated those when my parents listened to them. how was i to know they were learning how to raise us kids by taking some advice but thats just what i can lend.

regrets-alls i know is, in the end, you'll really regret it when God's not 'really' a part your life

I pray that the Holy Spirit will continue to work in your life, that your heart and mind will be open to seeing the truth you need, that any 'help' you need will be sent asap, and that your passions will be placed in their rightful place. I pray that you will come to better understand God and His will and therefore better understand yourself. i pray that you will long to be close to God more than you long for anything else, that the true desires of your heart will come to fullness, i pray that righteousness will come to be something you and i both better understand and live.
a burden weights heavy, on my shoulder it tugs, but i can move it, so i do, i put it inside where i can not see it, yet in my stomach its aches now and then, but the more i think of it not, the less now and then, shall the pain go away as then the end comes, or shall the pain grow more-and then ill reach for the door, for I know Hes standing a side it

may peace come to you,
a sister

 

[smiles22]

i had the sit incorrect
newlife (dot) com

 

[rainbowprism]

Ok lets get the men thing out of the subject for a bit, so it is ok to model nude for playboy or porn sites/magazines as long as I am not having sex or am sexually active and having desires about men? Wow...

You can't really talk about just the Playboy issue without talking about the issue of how you feel about men and relating to them as a whole. Come on now, Car Chick.

 

[EmSchmem]

Doooode, I don't believe Ca Chick for a second.

 

[Car Chick]

Doooode, I don't believe Ca Chick for a second.

I have a problem here in which I need advice and your just going to say that you don't believe me. People have all kinds of problems, even worse than this ...are you not going to believe them either? Besides how would you know my life? I am opening up to people I do not know, seeking good Christin advice, because before taking a leap into this I want to make sure I fully understand all the consequences, everything I need to know before taking this step, maybe someone will say something that will touch my heart and will make me change my mind. But so far it doesn't really seem to me as if anyone even cares about me, about what I do, especially you.

 

[rainbowprism]

I have a problem here in which I need advice and your just going to say that you don't believe me. People have all kinds of problems, even worse than this ...are you not going to believe them either? Besides how would you know my life? I am opening up to people I do not know, seeking good Christin advice, because before taking a leap into this I want to make sure I fully understand all the consequences, everything I need to know before taking this step, maybe someone will say something that will touch my heart and will make me change my mind. But so far it doesn't really seem to me as if anyone even cares about me, about what I do, especially you.

Car Chick I think what Em is saying is that you alreadyknow full well what the consequences of falling into this lifestyle are-yousaid it yourself that you were most likely going to lose touch with God by doing this. Anything that has that a drastic consequence I think anyone would already be aware of. You say you want advice but it seems like you think our advice is not good because we aren't telling you to go for it (did you think we would?). What you are doing is playing with fire and you already seem to not really care what our opinions are, and believe me if you want to jepordize your relatinship knowingly and willing with God, I think you got some big cajones.

 

[rogsr]

Hello Car Chick,

It sounds like your soul is being held captive by the vice of lust, and ultimately, pride. It is very difficult growing up in our world now. These lecherous deeds, though pleasurable, only lead to pain for yourself, and for all those who love you.

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You confessed that the man whom slept with so many times opened your eyes, but truly I tell you that he only helped you in gouging them out. One night, perhaps many years from now, you will cry out from a purple penitent heart, and from that momemt you will let God love you again. Until that night, however, you are living in grave and damaging sin; Spiritually damaging, emotionally damaging, and probably eventually physically damaging.

Lust, often times, is only a sugar coated mask worn by one who is deeply wounded by some other thing. What is your thing?
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[scott29]

I would like to be able to help you, but it seems like you are only looking for other Christians to approve of your behavior. Some of the statements you have made are very confusing. First, you say you are not as close to God as you could be and it doesn't bother you...but you also say you know this will change your Christian life completely, or maybe even turn you away from God, which you don't want (by the way, I can guarantee this is exactly what will happen if you continue to go down this path). Which is it? If it doesn't bother you to not be close to God, what does it matter to you if you're separated from him?

You already know it's wrong... God has already convicted you of that in your heart.
There is no gray area - God cannot bless sin. If you choose to sin, then God cannot work in your life and bless you to overflowing. There's so much God has in store for your life. You're a beautiful and special young woman - there's so much blessing in front of you. Don't deny yourself of the gifts God has for you just to give in to this temptation to do what you know is wrong. Besides...it seems like you are worshipping your own body instead of the one who gave it to you.

If you want to walk as a Christian, you have to choose the harder path...there really is no other way. I wish I could tell you otherwise, but I can't. I'm sure you've seen plenty on this website about pornography addiction. Satan loves to use this tool to cut us off from God. What you're describing is exactly how this addiciton starts. And believe me...it spins out of control and consumes everything. Make no mistake...you're on very dangerous spiritual ground here. Think very hard about your next steps and be honest with yourself about your feelings. I don't think you're being honest with yourself because you want things both ways - you want to sin, but you want God to hang around too. Unfortunately you just can't have it both ways.

I pray you make the right decision for yourself.
God bless,
Scott

 

[EmSchmem]

Car Chick I think what Em is saying is that you alreadyknow full well what the consequences of falling into this lifestyle are-yousaid it yourself that you were most likely going to lose touch with God by doing this. Anything that has that a drastic consequence I think anyone would already be aware of. You say you want advice but it seems like you think our advice is not good because we aren't telling you to go for it (did you think we would?). What you are doing is playing with fire and you already seem to not really care what our opinions are, and believe me if you want to jepordize your relatinship knowingly and willing with God, I think you got some big cajones.

No in this case, I actually don't belive her. Really I don't. MAYBE she is telling the truth, in wich case I think she needs to seek professional help. But this would hardly be the first time someone made something like this up just to get a reaction. I mean look at the chick with the Mona Lisa stuff. And come on. I know this is wrong but hey look at me I love being naked and think I should go have sex with a photographer. IF she is telling the truth she is in the wrong place. The needs to be talking with a professional.

 

[rogsr]

Maybe some of us are professionals...and maybe this is going to be her last stop before she runs out into real life and gets raped, contracts AIDS, becomes a drug addict, and gets beaten down by every man she ever encounters until one of them eventually takes her life.

Peace-

 

[allieisme]

IMO.. You shouldnt pose nude for playboy. Thats distastful, and you should save your body for your future husband to look at only. You really shouldnt be having sex either before marriage if you are a Christian. I know you dont want to talk about that, you want to talk about the nude pictures you want to take but you are the one that brought up having sex over 300 times with this boy. For whatever it is you are praying for at night, I think you need to be stronger doing it. God is listening to you, but are you listening to Him?

 

[Lizzi4Christ]

I would like to make one point that I haven't seen yet.

Everywhere around the nation, relationships are falling apart because of Playboy/porn. Wives and husbands are feeling unattractive and inadequate to their spouses who look at Playboy/porn. It's literally destroying marriages. Although these people are responsible for their actions, you are as well. If you participate in this, you are also participating in poisoning marriages. Lust is a strong feeling. One less person allowing another person to fall is a tiny step, but a step no less.

You've already been given advice: don't do it. Absolutely no good will come from it. There is nothing uplifting for brothers and/or sisters in Christ through this. There is no glory for God through this. The only reason you want to do this is for your own selfish reasons. There is only destruction for you, for those around you and for your witness as a Christian.

You've been told the truth according to God's word. Now you have to decide what to do. Follow your selfish, sinful desires. Or follow God's plan for your life.

 

[EmSchmem]

Maybe some of us are professionals...and maybe this is going to be her last stop before she runs out into real life and gets raped, contracts AIDS, becomes a drug addict, and gets beaten down by every man she ever encounters until one of them eventually takes her life.

Peace-

hopefully i professional wouldn't be discussing this over a message board. surely there would be some patient/dr confidentiality problems with that. not to mention said professional would have only a snippet of this girl's story

 

[jehovahway]

Hello Car Chick may i also remind you what
King Jesus Christ said to Satan when he was talking to him.
satan you do not care about truth and Spiritual things the only thing you care about is peoples flesh and flesh things.
you are listen to satans angels this is what
they wont you to do because they know that when you do they will have you right
where they wont you on a trip to hell with them.
Hell is forever the fire in hell does not go out it burns forever.and Jehovah himself will be the fire in hell.
thats why he sent his only Son to warn us
if we listen to Satan we will be in hell with
him and his angels.
i have been a Christian for 35 years i have
Gift number 7 of the nine gifts of the Spirit.
I can see satans angels on people and the
main thing they get people involved in is flesh things out of the bounds of which God
sets.
i will make a request to Jehovah to send ministering spirits to you because if something is not done satan will have you as his forever in the fires of hell.
Jehovah i ask that you send ministering Spirits to car chick and break satans angels
lose from her so that she will wont to stay joined to you and i call it done in Jesus Holy Name.