So, been reading all over posts saying "sorry, can't post here anymore..." due to truama or what ever.
I totally get it! Posting in CF can be a battle sometimes, like the most innocent comment can be taken and attacked by peeps!! And sometimes I just like to stir!
For me CF has made me become simultaneously more warey of my beliefs while challenging and changing them and leading me to find more confidence and assertion for some things I used to shun! Or at least, offer solidity to things that have always been flying around my head but I'd never taken the time to consider carefully!
This is invaluable.
But also, CF is a depression and soul-destroying place! If I post without too much due attention and in the worng place, I'm just gonna get shreaded.... just confirming to me how repulsive we as christians can be! While CF has allowed me to pursue so many idea and relational truths offline and on, it had also deeply wounded me and aused me to be even more wary of christians!
I am learning to be more opinionated! But also less vocal with my opinion, and more wary (or respectful?) of the opinions of others. By being exposed to some of the other peeps around these Forums, I realise that arguing that doesn't matter, and that it is so easy to fight over differences..... the very use of the Nicene Creed allows CF to start by outlining diffenrences from the start! Rahter than use our commonalities to bring us together.
Here's the one helpful thing CF is teaching me:
[pong]Beliefs change. Belief is not as important or concrete as Faith.[/pong]
What I believe can and will evolve, regarding things like Hell, Universalism, Homosexuality... but my faith, ie. my relationship with God, is for life!
Thank you for reading my odd rant... comment always welcome.
