I Never thought Id be in this part of CF

[Truth Be Told]

Today I found out my exhusband/best friend in the world died yesterday of a massive heart attack. It hurts so bad, and this "boulder" on my chest wont leave so I can breathe. He was supposed to ALWAYS be there, ya know? Hes been here for 10 years in my life, weve been divorced for 7 but hes always been there no matter what. I just cant imagine never seeing him again. How will this ever stop hurting?

Ange

 

[VivDaGurl]

How will this ever stop hurting?

I'm so sorry for what happened...Submit yourself to the Lord...I'll pray that the God will be there to comfort you.

 

[waitingforwonderful]

I will lift you up in my prayers tonight. God is there for you. And I can be too, if you need someone to talk to.

May His love surround you.

 

[Truth Be Told]

Thank you so much for your prayers. Today hasnt been the complete and overwhelming sadness that it was yesterday. I guess I just feel so empty today that I dont know what to feel. I know deep down that Itll be ok, but in the meantime its tough. Thank you for all your prayers, they really do help!!

Ange

 

[perfection]

Letting your chest out can really help, spill it all out by telling us what this person meant to you, and let it be known that we are here for you to support you.

 

[existential]

As cliched as it sounds, i hope you will it take one day at a time. And as you know, God will be there every step of the way. I will also be praying for you. -Joe

"...Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God. For just as the sufferings of Christ flow over into our lives, so also through Christ our comfort overflows." 2 Corinthians 1:2-5 NIV

 

[Truth Be Told]

Today is a little better. I actually slept last night, which helps my mental state a little. Today, a thought cae to my mind. Walter(my ex,my best friend, just like a brother to me) came to me when I was at my lowest. He came out of the blue 10 years ago and we made instant friends. His smile could light up the world! To think of him as gone now, is absurd. If he spent 10 years watching me, and making sure nothing happened to me, why should I ever believe that hed stop now, even if he is gone. Actually, he should be closer now!
Ill tell ya a little about this guy. 6'10, 360lbs of pure teddy bear. A smile that could light the world. He delighted in shwing me new places and things like the beach in winter, an aligator farm(I love them), going fishing, eating new foods and stuff like that. He taught me not to be afraid of people, and even when bad things happened(rape) he was there to show me I could still live through it!
Even when I moved halfway across the country for a year, he was on the phone every other night making sure I was ok. A protector, a friend, a guardian angel on earth.
God didnt take him, he made him immortal!!! Now his back wont hurt anymore , and his knees wont ache when its cold. He wont be tired all the time from working 7 days a week/12 hours a day. He can sit by that river and fish all day long!!!!

I will miss that man til the day I die, but knowing that its not the end makes life so much more precious and the fact that God blessed me with such a wonderful friend makes me the most blessed person on earth



Ange

 

[bshaw96]

So glad you're feeling better today. May God continue to keep you in peace.

 

[Swanee]

Today is a little better. I actually slept last night, which helps my mental state a little. Today, a thought cae to my mind. Walter(my ex,my best friend, just like a brother to me) came to me when I was at my lowest. He came out of the blue 10 years ago and we made instant friends. His smile could light up the world! To think of him as gone now, is absurd. If he spent 10 years watching me, and making sure nothing happened to me, why should I ever believe that hed stop now, even if he is gone. Actually, he should be closer now!
Ill tell ya a little about this guy. 6'10, 360lbs of pure teddy bear. A smile that could light the world. He delighted in shwing me new places and things like the beach in winter, an aligator farm(I love them), going fishing, eating new foods and stuff like that. He taught me not to be afraid of people, and even when bad things happened(rape) he was there to show me I could still live through it!
Even when I moved halfway across the country for a year, he was on the phone every other night making sure I was ok. A protector, a friend, a guardian angel on earth.
God didnt take him, he made him immortal!!! Now his back wont hurt anymore , and his knees wont ache when its cold. He wont be tired all the time from working 7 days a week/12 hours a day. He can sit by that river and fish all day long!!!!

I will miss that man til the day I die, but knowing that its not the end makes life so much more precious and the fact that God blessed me with such a wonderful friend makes me the most blessed person on earth



Ange

Hi Ange, my heart and prayers are with you. From experience I can tell you that your days will be up and down, good and bad, but that is normal. I found a very good site (non-Christian) for dealing with loss (divorce or death), which I think helps you to understand the stages your mind will go through. It is http://home.att.net/~velvet-hammer/grief.html#Symptoms
As I mentioned, it is not a Christian site, but I think it helps to understand the confusion of your mind when you are having a down day. Remember John 11:35, and that Jesus is with you in your grief. He understands your grief, and will bring you through it.
God Bless You.

Kel